Going away soon… Underestimated.

I see it sometimes more than other times

Risky airport story that ended well. No worry needed.

Going away soon… Underestimated.

One of the last messages from this time zone.

I tell the camel I’m sorry

More deep thoughts separation anxiety

Weed or Flower. Farming resentment

A life realiztion I will ignore and move on without further though. Thinking brings sadness I prefer to ignore,

Wham. I’m trying not to be offended

I will Miss the cat more than the humans

The Battle of beliefs

Farm fails in the eyes of the observer helps explain why I’m not good at my job. When they start doing it themselves rather than ask, it’s time to move on.

Tuesday transitions to Wednesday

As my mood shifts constantly, I’ll probably be blogging a fair amount over the next few days, even if I’m not saying much.

Second Monday

Feeling refreshed and nostalgic, I declare this Tuesday an unofficial Monday.

Who stole my carpet?

A mini check up of life as one chapter ends and a new one begins.

Half way point

This blog isn’t what it started out being, which is ironically almost making the point I needed to.

Big scary change

Life’s change. I fear it will be worse than my now, and I usually try for a better tomorrow.

Morning, again.

Another morning realization stall post

I wish I could keep trying and failing

I want to be fucked more than anything, but the terror I experience projecting my failure spoils the mood through seven stages of grief.

Where in the world is Orange Jeff?

A brief life/blog update for a stranger that took the time to request one..

Week two. Burnt buzzes

Taking a break but not quitting.

And then everything changed

That time my house guests may have stolen from me and even if they didn’t I’m being blamed for it anyway

Wow. Two masking dudes

A brain to gboard unedited script here, but if luck hits it right a different version will magically start an income for something I want to give away

Blog morning -Stress Wednesday

I hate that I do this.

Offline ramble. Distractions and Excuses

Why I don’t like to finish what I’ve started.

I admit it. I’m brain blocked

I distraction blog written when I’m supposed to be doing something else about distractions when I’m supposed to be doing something else.

When the meds aren’t working

The circle of dehydrated solid bulky poo.

My fantasy. Who, me?

I just got a reply on Reddit to an attempt at flirting that made me remember how bad I am at flirting

My flirty truth

An attempted describing why I suck at phone sex

Staircase thoughts and life changes

A blog post about my move to BC that was supposed to be about basement apartments

Decision Time. 2:34am

A 3am blog about what happens next. 4am, 5am. Are we set for a new music release, or work?

I listened to one of the early AI podcasts

A spontaneous life evaluation post. The kind I often have in January. Reflect on things I’m not planning on changing

The day in review

They should call it content new year. The world is to hard to expect a whole happy new year.

Monday the 22nd

A first thing in the morning reflection blog.

Rough Sleep. Tis the season

A mood hijacked blog because I forgot the dream I was going to record again.

Keeping busy – panic

Instead of being busy, I blog about not being busy.

Dear diary: The temptation

I confess the thought dud cross my mind to save my garbage and go down that road of obsessive collecting again.

Hair ,-The nightmare.

A deep and personal blog written as soon as I woke up today. Life perspective.

Really bad Jeff day

That time I built on hard work.

Juggling for dollars

I hated being poor but I really hate being poor when other people are paying the difference.

My legacy is self ruining

That escalated quickly. A 5am confessional.

Six false starts.

The secret blog revealed. Warning. Not for the faint of heart.

Late night blog post that should have been longer but I lost the energy halfway through. The original idea was I wanted to talk about the concept of creating a user manual for autistic people and their friends and family.

Intelligent sadness: fomo2

Am I smart or not.

Six two

Today is a good day. Why write it any other day?

Thanksgiving dinner

A blog it doesn’t mention Thanksgiving dinner and then an unrelated music video that I wrote today about coming clean and admitting my drug habit so that I can share this blog with more people. Hidden away in an unrelated post so that I have an out when I don’t do that.

My first liver spot!

A story about life’s mood swings and wasted worry.

Whoosh, it’s Friday

I've been trying to do things that are somewhat memorable each day so that when I look back the week didn't go by without anything to make it stand out from the previous week. I needed this month to go by quicker than the others because I had no money, and it was always stressful to ask for borrowed money, even though I knew I had $600 coming in from the Canada pension any day now. Any day now,...

Yet another unfinished work self defined

An unfinished song about not finishing things

Do I want an audience?

Afraid to be famous is a lie to protect my confidence. What if I’m wrong.

Suno.ai made me cry.

The song that inspired the blog inspired by tears of sadness at the loss of yet another chicken.

Other People’s Perspective

A review of a review of me

My brain approved a sabotage

I slept all day yesterday and missed the evening chores

I’m unofficially old today

Live blogging from the waiting room.

It was easier empathically

I forgot I had some weed 2 hours ago. Edibles. They seem to have hoit me while I was typing and I on;y remembered later.

Talking about me

A Google Notebook LLM recording with claymation characters all about me, me, me.

Gloom week

I tend to run low or out of everything at once, usually towards the final days of the month. The 22nd is when my big payment for the hosting server is due and I'm often out of food, chocolate and occasionally drugs. I have $410 coming in next week so it'll be close. I'm out of chocolate and backup chocolate and emergency chocolate. I've got nothing to munch on and keep my mouth moist. Being out...

My Manual. Update x of z

An obvious attempt at stalling for time before I either begin work, or face that adhd paralasis that can be used as a recognized reason to not start the task. I hate all options today.

The universe gives me an excuse

A spontanious blog about my version of God

I’m more AI than it is human

This was voice translated and not punctuated correctly or proofreading anyway. Or proofread in any way. Or proof read in any way. it continues concepts from the previous post

The rock needs pushing.

At the moment I have just finished writing this but without my spelling or grammar being checked, I am very proud of this. I hope that joy is not crushed by the edit that comes after the adreneline fades.

4 am to 6am

It’s weird all the story bitmojis are gone. In today’s world of mass storage possibilities, to remove our options of choice seems like an intentional thing. No stories? That is tragic. I’m all about the story.

Story Landmarks

A blog of hope and eventually a blog out joy crushing depression that turns back around in the end. Another life story.

My Ted Talk variant. Stories

An impromptu Jeff Talk I had planned to make a video.

The story of my stories

Truth isn’t as important as the story and the sooner you learn that the more power you have to control yours. Use it for good and not evil.

Sunday morning mood swings up up and away

The drug is having less effect these days so I have a bit of increased anxiety that doesn't really go away. Part of it is because August is the third August and I still have the overall feeling I am a dissapointment not pulling my weight and an irritating drain on the moods of the people who live upstairs and provide me with this place to live. I eat their bread and ice cream and fake cheese so...

The Home Office

The new home office design.

July 2nd Day 1. Hay Season

My mental recap of the premier of season two. Hay days on the farm.

Personal Journey

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