That's an odd expression. I know.. at least I think I know I've heard out used before. I shit you not. Maybe it's in my head and it's not an expression at all, but I'm claiming it because I have not shit much at all this February. Maybe 4 or 5 good shots over only two days the entire month I think...
My morning blog written at 5:30 a.m. after another all nighter that was at least productive.
I can't fully explain it but it seems consistent enough that I am suspicious it may be drug related. It could just as easily be in my head that it is and so the symptoms line up. All day I can work and walk and lay in bed just fine. When I try to go to sleep my legs...
Today I noticed something I can't explain on my phone and I can't decide weather to be worried or not. I don't know if this is a permanent change in my life, in the operating system, or in my health. The colors on my phone are noticeably more vibrant today. Bright and...
To be awake at 10:00 p.m. on a Friday is nothing significant for most of you I'm sure. However for me I've been up since 1:00 a.m. yesterday and I really wanted to sleep today. Or at least fall asleep tonight. A combination of the massive quantity of bugs in my bed...
It's probably been 4 years maybe just three since I visited a doctor. I always have to consider the pandemic is two years and it's been more than two years since I lived on Dixon so that gets added in.I had established a fairly good relationship with a female doctor...
It's not the mental health call I've been putting off, but it was a step. In truth, it was just clicking a few links in having it autofill a form for me online, but it was something. I did something. As of 6:00 p.m. today, that's something has yielded no results, like...
No more clouds in my system or in my pee it would seem. Neither are fully back to normal I understand, but it's nice to see a change that quickly. It gives me hope that a lot of my other problems may have been caused by the same thing. The dehydration was definitely a...
Animals fed. I'm still sleeping in hour long increments bit I feel rested more. I want to sleep again. My body is sore. I briefly reached a point that is common among drug users the day they quit or shortly after. You'd look around and without that high, you see the...
I'm not going to get away without a lecture on this one. I smashed a large pane of glass on his door where the dogs sleep. A lot of glass to sweep up and double check and some pretty deep injuries but I'm glad they seem to have stuffed bleeding. [video...
I would like today to include some good blogging. I have so many thoughts running through my head. My wants sadly, seldome get satisfied this way. Distractions and mood shifts get in the way. I don't like writing about failure or depression. I'm sick. On day X of...
I have not felt right for a week or so. I thought it was various things but as I sit here on the toilet logging I realized. I've been peeing more than usual but not unloading and solid. It's gotten to the point where it's effecting my thought clarity and focus. I...
I sit down in my chair, breathing a bit heavy, which means loud, which means suspicious. I have somehow, not really on purpose, created a character off screen that sort of represents a Jewish mother kind of presence. I never had one. I am trying to reframe a guilt...
It was the first hot day of summer. Here where I live in Ontario, our spring season is often quite short and somewhat comical. Although I suspect many people all over the world grow up believing that some jokes were invented in their home town, I suspect that one that...
choice i could take an antihitimine to clear my nasil. it makes me sleepy, stoooooop that could also be what kills me. my watch has my heartbeats. very fast. limbs tingle and twitch. its gonna suck im that kid in the grocery store you dont undrstand. Â ding thats what...
