No words can describe how cool last night’s dream was and yet I try.
Dream Universe
I love that I have elaborate dreams with celebrity guest cats and their own universe of places and rules. I often remember enough of them to post.
I learned something cool in a dream
When I woke up just now, I was actually excited. I had learned a really cool piece of trivia that I thought was cool, and I learned it in a dream. I didn't sleep well last night. I was up and awake around 2am, 3am, 4am and 5am. I think I learned this trivial tidbit in the 2sm hour but it was so neat I retained it each time, eager to share it and share it with my friends. It was quite literally...

Maybe I dream everything
I might have figured out something new about non-linear dream memories

Spontaneous dream memory
As I get older I occasionally worry that I might start mixing up reality with my dreams. I have a very imaginative dream universe that is separate from my reality while awake but every now and then I have a memory spontaneously pop into my head and I'm not quite sure whether it was from a dream or something that I lived through. Oddly enough this happens more often with memories that couldn't...

Fake People Talking in a Deep Dive
An audio deep dive Podcast all about me – OrangeJeff.

Story ideas to abandon
The first draft of an interactive game where each episode ends with two choices. It is based on a concept from a telephone game I played in the ’80s on star phone called Star Commander.

A Monday Morning
A nice dream at that Vegas Hotel for an unspecified annual convention.

Waking up. Falling back. Waking up.
My multiple wake ups before feeling awake meant multiple cool dreams.

6am Monday. Deep Dream Refectionn
A first thing in the morning review of my Mo day dreams without a bunch of drugs clouding my reality.

October Dreams
I love October dream season. The weather changes and my dreams become more vivid and exciting. Here in the mountains 800 m above sea level those October dreams seem to come in August. The last few nights I've had amazing multi-story large cast script type dreams. They stayed away fast if I don't wake up and write them down but even if I get that chance I can hardly touch on the vastness of my...

I wish it was easier to describe a dream
A poor description of a great dream makes me ponder life and life choices.

The gate I invented instead of sleeping.
It's just past midnight on a mid December Monday. My brain is thinking of the connections that had to have happened previous to tonight that led me to my latest iteration in my mind of the auto closing farm gate. My early days on the farm involved occasionally being a passenger to the car or farm ATV around the property. The passengers only duty is to open and close the various gates before and...

Scripted Dreams
I almost always dream in a universe seperate from my reality. It has differences from my awake world but it's pretty consistent within itself. Then there my scripted dreams. I'm not always in them.Dreams that are presented more formally as either existing movies or TV shows but with original plot lines and characters.These dreams often come to me if I go to sleep with an unresolved show fresh in...

I took out the garbage – in a dream
I forgot to wake up before I remembered to take out the garbage to the curb this morning.

I had my phone in a dream… Sort of.
It's an unusual aspect of my dreams that I don't seem to ever have a working modern cell phone. They are either out of power, or an older phone without contacts or some other obsticle. This evening, while hiking down the side of a hill I happened to see a phone on the ground, identical to my current Samsung S9 plus and by an unbelievable coincidence, equipped with the same battery case I have. I...

I can imagine doing it, but I can’t do it.
I'm laying in bed at 2:45am thinking about all the stuff I need to do to get serious about my life-long website dream project. I'm getting old and it would be nice to find success for my next chapter. It would be nice to be validated by at least the recognition it was a good idea. Having a genius business plan means nothing if you don't get the help to do all the right things beyond the concept....

A literal quarrel in my head.
I had a nice relaxing orgasm around 8pm and figured I could probably fall asleep tonight. Today was a pretty good day. I accomplished enough of my tasks to be noticable, and feel optimistic about the last half. It's clear the imaginary life I predicted for being a functional addict were exaggerated. I'm not even functional on a good week. The end goals still have an almost infinite number of...

Off meds madness
Today is Sunday and I have not taken my brain meds since Thursday morning. Although I've gone up to five days without once over the years, I seem bothered this time more than other days. Sleeping is tough. Dreams go crazy and a bit scary when I fall asleep. Relative humidity is under 20% at night, and my bed has bugs everywhere. I have developed pretty severe allergies to them and they cause...

Too many dreams
I'm not sure why I woke up so many times this past night, but it did allow me to have a lot of wonderful dreams. The humidity in my room is down at 25% again and my nose is still whistling and playing tunes when I lay down, so I guess my brain is getting a different kind of air flow these days. Since I started taking Paxil medication al.ost 10 years ago, I don't usually get sick, and my nose has...

Wakey wakey
I only woke up twice last night and I only had to pee one of those times. Then I woke up about 5:15 a.m. and was going to get up and start my day and then suddenly the 7am alarm went off. I don't actually come out and open the chicken coop and feed the animals till about 8:00 a.m. now because it stays dark and it's reasonably cold so I suspect they are quite content to sleep that extra half...

Going to see {Deleted}
I don't think I'd call it a nightmare. It's more of a frustration dream, complete with the sideways elevator. A bunch of my familiar friends went to see a movie in an unknown mall. The theatre had 14 screens and none of us had heard anything about even one of the film titles playing. This is a very real side effect caused by moving away from cable/network television with commercials to Netflix....

Driving up Eglinton, kind of
I woke up from an interesting dream just now. I was playing with a balloon on a wire that lit up and I was playing with it from a distance over this pond that used to exist between my house and my neighbors house and I was playing with it and it lit up really neat ways as I moved it back and forth and I was getting ready to tell my friend about it and show her and see if she could do one too and...

Meme Cops
I woke up but didn't open my eyes yet. The dream I was having deserved more time, so I stayed in a not quite awake state to develop it more. It started in our high school library, where we were sitting down to eat lunch, the story is still incredibly detailed in my mind but I fear I'll lose it soon as I regain my daytime consciousness, so I'll just tell the highlights. Phil was wearing an...

8am wet food
It's not really raining hard this morning. I seem to be lucky so far this year that the rain is either before or after I need to go out and feed the animals. It was barely drizzling or spitting. I don't actually know if it was raining at all or if it was just the wet trees dripping on me. To my surprise the chickens and the pig both happily came out of their coop to find food. I wasn't fully...

Emotional restoration
I don't know how long it's been since I gave up using drugs, at least temporarily. I think it's been about two no three weeks. That doesn't sound right because it's only October 4th, but I remember sober weekends and I've been eating a lot more food, which means spending a little more money. Ironically I don't mean to say I'm spending money ironically, but I think it's ironic that I'm spending...

The extra last day
I knew the last day wouldn't really be the last day. Whenever I say I'm out of math and this is my last day, I know there are at least two or three pipes that have a little bit in them and the stems are still white and can be melted into another cloud or two. Even now I know there are a few extra bits I could use to create a cloud. I will before the days out and probably actually be out. It...

The in-between time.
YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it's usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons I don't remember right now, it gurgled. The gurgle is a social sound that goes through walls. If the house is silent, it can be...

Fake Monday Morning.
It's the Tuesday after labor Day, but for me it pretty much feels like a Monday because I slept through quite a bit yesterday and didn't have feed anybody but myself. This morning, I woke at 6:30 pleased with the amount of sleep I had received the night before. The start of the evening had me on a dream sequence I wasn't particularly happy with and after the first wake up and fall asleep it...

I do my best to not regret.
I had some wild dreams last night including what might be what people call a night terror. There was a lot of waking up yelling and screaming except I'm not really sure that wasn't self maintained within the dream. I remember very little Although it's nice to be dreaming rich dreams and remembering them again, when I sleep cycle is not really changed. Although I might make it past the hour mark,...

Sunday life update
As of 3:30 this morning, there is a stealth cat loose in my bedroom. It has made falling back to sleep slightly more difficult than usual. Actually, the falling asleep part isn't so hard bit waking up out of my usual sleep cycle routine is the distressing part. The cat makes a slight and time noise about every 20 minutes. I wake to see if is by the door, bit it isn't. Repeat. I can't just leave...

I wish I could say it’s not my fault
Technically of course I can say it's not my fault but that wouldn't be true. It's 3:30 in the morning on Wednesday and I made the conscious decision to get high again. Reason I was teasing that it's not my fault is that I was going to be up anyway and it was driving me crazy. I hate insomnia. This current couple of weeks my constipation and dehydration have been taking a lot of my focus...

A fraction of my thoughts
As I hit save, I have absolutely no memory of what this blog was about.

Thursday Morning
My bedroom clock somehow lost almost an hour while I was away. Unusual because it's never really needed adjustment before. Perhaps it slows when the battery weakens. I guess that makes sense. Some things just stop working when the power gets low and others work slower. My body does both. Yesterday was a detox day. No drugs and I didn't get out of bed. Today could easily have been the same but I...

Monday customer service
Yes Hello. I'd like to exchange this current life for a new one. I don't like the amount of effort involved. I was mislead about how it would be better. I realize I've only had this new life less than 30 days and I can change my mind and go back to my previous option of no life if I wasn't satisfied. I'm as surprised as anyone. Who would have guessed I would prefer the life I constantly...

I have not taken out my recycled items.
And that isn't the worst of my behavior. I have been sabotage my hopes and dreams.

Replacement Monday
It's a Tuesday here in Toronto but it feels a bit more like a Monday because we had a long weekend holiday Monday. It was supposed to be a rest day so I could start my office job again. I have only worked 4 days before they shut us down to stay at home with COVID. My experience was quite mild because of was vaccinated. That's the story I choose to go along with anyway.I am eager to return to...

Time to celebrate, by sleeping
I can hardly bring myself to blog, which I seem to remember is a common symptom of my depression. Ironically the periods of my life I'd most like to document and remember are those times when I least feel like writing. I suppose smoking a little weed might help, since the majority of my blogs are influenced or at least inspired by my high mind, but I'm not getting high these days. I'm living in...

What I wrote down before forgetting
Best dream Me and three friends decide to go on a reunion trip and arrive 14 years in the future. A lot has changed. One died of aidds with hidden robbery money his partners never found. One is sci Fi author One is rich off scatboatd mod he stole. One was married and divorced. One invented next big toy craze Hilarity sand good stories ensue as we learn wheat is going on by context clues and...

Global communities ideas
This of course may fade away until I recycle it again as my dream. It combines all my ideas. Helping people with a trust relationship. Encouraging discussion over the validity of ideas or business ideas. Creating communities and providing guidance on interaction. Learning from trusted faces Referrals are the best Manners because it's closed by invite Commissions and sales and services. Stores...

Wild by my standards
It's 6am and even though I asked and she said no, when 8 asked again, I ended up changing her plans and spending the whole night talking. It's what I wanted and I get high enough to believe it's enjoyable. I know interaction with high women who I click with is the most fun I have, and indream of how we could work to be a success. Later in life, I learned that's a weed stoner thing. If nobody...

Today was a sad day.
I slept in till around 3pm and had some cool dreams. My car hot towed again. I think that's the fifth car I've lost in my dream universe. That's how my day started. The month of February is almost over. I've been off drugs and I'm now waiting for March and money to get high again. I may not have any money left anyway. I fell a little behind on my bills because the electric bill nearly doubled...

Oh yeah… It’s Friday already
It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've blocked it mentally and put it off till they ask a second time A joke from Coming to America I repearmt frequently, but I'm high...

I’m out. For real this time.
There's always an extended period after the first time I say I'm out. There are three or four pipes that I can scrounge tiny bits of white powder off the sides. There are bits in my baggy. It's amazing how many days you can get just enough of a hit in the morning even though you have declared self out of drugs. Yesterday was to be the last day and on the last day I pretty much go wild and I...

Checkpoint Failed
I slept well. I even had some dreams. When I woke up at 630am I had one of those glimpses into my life as a drug user. An evaluation checkpoint where I had to decide; do I restart the loop again now, or wait till later? I can feel the effects of dehydration. I don't have much food for today, and I have tasks and customers waiting on me. Will today be a good day? The things I keep putting off are...

Sunday… Not so fun day
I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No guilt. That isn't fully true. I had some guilt, but it went away when I'd go back to sleep. Some dreams lasted through episodes ND...

Sunday is prep for Monday.
I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No guilt. That isn't fully true. I had some guilt, but it went away when I'd go back to sleep. Some dreams lasted through episodes ND...

Another week without a Thursday
This isn't the first time I have sincerely been surprised to discover it is Friday. I ever seem to live Thursdays anymore. I really believed today was Thursday. Another entire week has passed and I've done almost nothing but sleep, dream, and write about sleeping and dreaming. It's 8am on this new September week and I'm ready to sleep some more. I survived the night without water, and it was...

Live Brain Transcript
0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I have a bad habit of telling opinions, as if they were fact. 0:51 But I always try to correct that if I noticed tonight. I talked...

Day 2. Stealth Stoner is feeling guilty
Who had three weeks in the pool. A joke I have been using for years and it's never been received well even once. It simply means it was predictable. OoOo.... My acid dreams make sense. Jane, get me off this crazy thing. When you think you've got it all figured out, it might be horrible. The episode of the q continuum scares me. I don't like reruns. I can't tell if somebody is...