Orange Shirt Blogs

Warning: Heavy Drug use

Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal space that I don’t share with everyone. It includes honest blogging about my struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.

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The exact moment…

I held off my morning meth intake 60 minutes. I scrolled Facebook (mostly sidetracked by reels and then moved to Instagram. After about 7 bong hits with a bad taste because my cleaning pick wasn't within reach of my bed, I suddenly stopped scrolling because of an urge...

I think of ideas or the ending to sentences but by the time I’m typing them I no longer have confidence so I either end abruptly, change the subject, or stop blogging mid sentence. 

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Never try to guess my reaction

One of the most consistent things about me, is my inconsistency. I can pretty much guarantee people that I will not react the way that they expect me to react to whatever situation is in front of me. There are some things you just think you can rely on as to how...

Last thought equals first thought.

Last thought equals first thought.

I was dreaming still dreaming as I woke up at 6:03am. A Radio morning show DJ was talking up the next record and I remember his hook. He said, ”and remember... Never be kind to a porcupine ". Then I woke up, grabbed my phone, and blogged this. What an unusual thing to...

What time is it?

What time is it?

Few times in the past couple of weeks I have either woken up from a nap or just looked up and not known whether I had done my morning or afternoon chores. Once recently I woke up at 9:30 from an after chore nap and thought oh my God I haven't fed the cows yet which of...

Justin the Clocktower hero

Justin the Clocktower hero

This original story idea has been in my brain for several years. I decided to give an AI writing assistant the task of generating the story based on my specifications. The AI primarily wrote the following story and then I adjusted and corrected it to match my original storyline. I’m happy with how it turned out as a story leaving open the door to create more stories about how Jack became a secret superhero, solving crimes and doing good deeds just by being at the right place at the right time. This draft was improved the following day with the aid of Grammarly’s AI assistance.

Nostalgic for the Eric’s basement gang

I had a great pairing of tound table hangs two stories walkup to my big shared space with Jeff Forsyth.. we went to different high schools so I didn't meet him until the first computer Club. Georgetown. I remember it as once a week but it might have been once a month....

March 5th 2024

March 5th 2024

Today my sister came close to yelling at me, but didn't. Still the feel of spontaneous anger caused by me took her by surprise. I guess in the 5 months of being here, shed witnessed very few failures and taking care of making sure the dogs get fed and watered is vital...

Oh yeah. I should probably find something to eat other than a cookie and a few to buy brownies and a chocolate bar.

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Slept till 3

I don't miss the morning feed ever, and I woke up before the alarm this morning so that got done but when I came back, I dozed off and had wonderful Winter dreams. All the way back to Ballinafad where I lived much of my childhood in the country. I don't remember...

After breakfast Wednesday update

1st Morning

I woke up 4 minutes before the alarm was to go off and unlike every other day for the past month and a half, I stayed in bed and did not stand up and go take drugs. I said hey to my Google assistant and started the day with the lights on and the radio playing. I...

Time – wow

Time – wow

Light is invisible until reflected. It travels at its speed outward. On Earth, reflected light captures what is happening in the moment of now, and bounces it out in a constant projection towards what we call the sky and space. This instant is transported as it was,...

A computer in my brain

While I was stacking wood just now an idea occurred to me. And then a second. And then of Revelation and I knew it was unlikely I would remember either of them to blog about when I got back to the bedroom where my computers are. The following idea which occurred to me...

Not doing things isn’t right for everyone, but doing things an easier way should be the norm.

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It’s irritating but…

All through life, I have noticed how other people are often shockingly content with irritation. They put up with things that are annoying instead of not doing that. I really don't like doing things that are annoying and do my very best to either avoid them completely,...

Sneaking in new responsibilities

Sneaking in new responsibilities

Doug was away for a tiny Christmas present vacation combined with delivery of steaks and puppies to the coast so not much changed in my morning duties but we added a few extras including feeding the dogs in the morning and making sure they have water and now...

SNL West Coast

SNL West Coast

I know it’s technically the same time in the grand scheme of the universe but when I moved out to the West Coast I really expected Saturday night Live but still play at 11:30. I’m very happy to learn it plays at 8:30 p.m. and I can be asleep much earlier.

The limbo mode

The limbo mode

There is a mood between wanting to sleep and wanting to work and it is this mood that I find myself spending a good portion of my days in. If Ian is the right word. I finish my morning chores before 9:00 a.m. and don't technically have anything to do until about 3:30...

Monday? Was there a Monday this week?

I got a little bit over excited this past weekend and stayed up and worked on a lot of projects with full optimism. That may fade but the groundwork for several things was started including my first day using my assistant. More on that later.[video data-wpid="360"...