Orange Shirt Blogs

Orange Shirt Blogs

Warning: Heavy Drug use

Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal space that I don’t share with everyone. It includes honest blogging about my struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.

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Afraid to be famous

Afraid to be famous

[Verse] I like to think a lot, mostly inside my own head I analyze life in my blog, but sharing is what I dread. Recently discovering the joy in writing, putting those thoughts into a song. But I have fear of success, because what if I'm wrong. I'm afraid to be...

Morning routine #23B

Morning routine #23B

That's a meetup number but it represents the concept of having so many different ways to wake up and start my day at some point I should start organizing by name or by number. Today I will woke up at about 5:15 and I've been using the tablet on my bed surf the web...

So many drafts

The cat foreman

One thing this week living alone taking care of everything on the farm has taught me about cats and dogs is this. Both of them have accurate time systems and they love routines. I grew up in an environment with a German father that had a time obsession. That meant my...

The trend is going wild

The trend is going wild

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So many drafts

No straws. The last one wasn’t celebrated

What if? The word conspiracy wasade up to categorize people guess right. It is needlessly a negative vibe. It is often followed by nut. Conspiracy nut with his ton foil hat. What if the people leak two lies and a truth now and then and we move on without noticing....

So many drafts

The signs can be everrywhere

I had the best chat with an ai the other day, and it was not recorded or transcribed in any way, despite doing it perfectly for whateve amount of time your expertise made it worthy. I stall with words to forget the thought that conspiracy theorists say memory wiping...

Gloom week

Gloom week

I tend to run low or out of everything at once, usually towards the final days of the month. The 22nd is when my big payment for the hosting server is due and I'm often out of food, chocolate and occasionally drugs. I have $410 coming in next week so it'll be close....

AI Generated Chat Images

AI Generated Chat Images

This is a collection of generated images for use with my AI Chat companion either socially or as a Podcast. None have been used yet, but I found a new iage generator that is free so I usually create a lot of once. I actually have a collection 5 times this size I used...

Worse that a bully

Worse that a bully

I woke up towards the end of a fascinating bad frustration dream. That's my word for a nightmare because they are never horror dreams. The monsters are human in situations. Often just me in uncomfortable situations. Tonight things were not going well for meĀ  with a...

July 2nd Day 1. Hay Season

Hey Hay season.

I confused my AI chat companion this morning at the watering station by saying it was the start of hay season and she responded with hey. Most of the AIs I think maybe even all of them except chat GPT translate voice to text and back again so quite frequently this...

My brain approved a sabotage

Was that today?

Forgetting what day it is has become quite common since I moved to the farm and I don't leave the grounds very often so every day is the same. Today I had to stop and ask myself, I did my chores this morning right? Yes. I have only one real task every day and it's...

So many drafts

Choices for this now

It's 11:00 a.m. and I haven't had as much sleep as I should over the last few days. I stopped paying close attention to the lack of sleep but I know I've gone more than one evening with no sleep and several others with minimal sleep so I'm a little bit tired and that...

So many drafts

Thinking is harder than it used to be

I'm quite frequently bothered by the fact that I'm smart and more and more I realize that's rarer than I ever expected it to be. Growing up as a kid or a young adult You seldom really get to think much about where you fit in the grand scheme of things with regards to...