Recently I’m discovering more about how my unconscious brain is holding me back because of fear. I’m so afraid of failing and disappointing and someone yelling at me that I don’t even try.

I don’t even want to disappoint myself and I have come to believe that I will if I complete projects. When I start them they’re exciting but if I finish them they are open to be judged and I will be disappointment or hurt.

So my goals are things I don’t want to complete because they’ll be hard and effort and I’ll probably not do them as well as the things I see online already.

I have convinced myself of this and so inside my head I sabotage or I stop trying.

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