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Sessions with a bad AI Therapist
A session with my AI therapist Pi.ai where I talk about my life in the moment

Was this self Sabotage ding.
A high stream of consciousness post.

Crazy monolgue while tripping on Ketamine
It was recording audio, obviously. So, I've been taking these ketamine trips twice a week, once a week, twice a week, frequently, because I have some free academy. And although I can't describe the effects and tell you what it's like, it is making me see the world a...

Day two. It doesn’t get easier..
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting and the temptation to be creative and look for ways to make it fun...

The Conversation Room
You see an online virtual mall filled with flashy storefronts and top notch animated advertisements everywhere. You walk down the pathway in awe at how many options there are to spend money on a seperate universe. You see a new store is opening up where the old...

Oh yeah… It’s Friday already
It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've...

Flip Flopping isn’t a bad thing.
I have do much to share but let's see what gets retained long enough for the blog. I flip flop a lot. Often several times a minute as I internally debate decisions. If I stall long enough somebody else will make it. My phyciatrist has a standard procedure of always...

It’s October now.
I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least....

Starting at 5pm
It's Wednesday of the week back work week and as of 5pm, I've done nothing. I had a glorious uninterrupted restorative sleep last night during a thunderstorm. I woke up at 730 and then went back untill about 1045. Since then I've just sat around playing on my phone...

Live Brain Transcript
I'm giving this one a second try. At the very least, you know, isn't quite as distracting. But I'm very easily distracted. I mean, something took me away from pizza. Not right don't go on camera when they're eating pizza. doesn't seem right for the day Really is...

I could be President.
They have a saying that anyone could be president and some people laugh that off. But the truth is, anyone probably can become president. If managed by smart people. All you need to do is be some people's favorite. And they'll bulk that in and buy everything you're...

Live Brain Transcript
0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I...

High Tea on Tuesday
Have u mentioned the rock bottom practice of burning the brown spots off my collection of pipes. I don't clean, I conserve. I deckareto my usual tea party friends I was out and would be for a while. Zeppelin. I can hear my heartbeat kind of like a hirserace. I reach...

Various High Ramblings
Running gag. No, you're saying it wrong you have to say Zeppelin with the Canadian Zedd Idea for brother widow Would you trust m| in your s}ace? We have to be Tik talk fou# Famo{is bit drugs are as open as you're willing.

Make me a thousandaire
Idea. I would like to make $2000 a monh and not much more. I want to create a site to win the market. A site that is not on;y free, but BETTER than all those crap sites that don'y actually have real people or elegable. Site Idea: social network Craigslist JUST...

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The Grab I can’t affford
Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mici g up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying...

So I’m supposed tobe honest here, right?
I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...

#torontodrugs
COMMUNITY BASED BROADCAST STUDIO#torontodrugs#canadadrugsDreams that actually came true.FROGSTAR.TV is part of the Frogstar family of related sites.KIK chat group website #torontodrugs#canadadrugs Access to this website from Canada only. This page was created to...

The Important Friday.
It turns out we do thank God it's Friday. Old English Frīgedæg ‘day of Frigga’, named after the Germanic goddess Frigga, wife of the supreme god Odin and goddess of married love; translation of late Latin Veneris dies ‘day of Venus’, Frigga being equated with the...

Free Million Dollar Ideas
https://photos.app.goo.gl/WLgSBp6AYKHF5JQ47 I am already thinking I might not share this, but 15 seconds ago, I was pumped. I was going to give away some of my million dollar ideas, and I use that number to show how old I am. Any good idea is worth more than millions...

More private blogs again.
One of the early signs I'm off the wagon is 2am blogs and 4am blogs and 6am blogs and Second Life blogs. It means I'm staying up all night. I must have gotten high. It started with 5 Molly pills. I'd been without the pressed branded pills for about 2 years. The last...

I’ve been actively not going to sleep since 2 but just now I felt it. I bumped way too much for a Monday. I should. Ding
They gave me 6 demerit points for using Should in the title. Cartoon version of me. Bam Movie. 3 friends from high school download Sentiance Pak A. Lore. Egan downloads Sentiance Pak B. Data. The three of you look at each other with smiles, as will those of you...

Aweome Trick.
I have been on the other sie of the door wondering; are you up? She makes a noise outside my door. I am startled, and involentarily yelp. I trait I learned from my father, sadly. Loud startles. Nobody wanted to go wake him up. She kniows I am awake, and about towrite....

Heard inside Second Life. Avatar Life
I’m glad I remembered the title because there was lemon cake and … well.. Lemon cake. The origin story of lemon cake for me, goes all the way back to when I never learned gradients. Lemon cake was always just awesome. Those that I might grade as very different...

Act Two. It’s really worth finding act one.
I grab a handful of Hershies kises from my salad bowl. I have admired that Hersheys kisses may be cute and addictive but I admire their shape because I bleieve it is engeniered to allow for a specific maximum per grab. I walk away with a serving size of chocolate. If...

I actually said these things
I've been happier than my norm of late, and I can blame the drugs if I choose, but the condition has made me write, blog and share more. These are some of the things I actually typed to people when I felt cheerful, not high... but was probably high. The setup. Second...

The Thursday Report
Point Forms I have been trying Craigs List. I stopped Second Life although if I am going to be awake tonight (wink) I may try again. I need a person to be my #1 in there. It's to boring alone in my current life state and mood. I like Second Life on E, but not alone....

Rapid Fire ideas
I've thought about these ideas at one time or another. Conversation starter cards to have in bars. Social Media specific to a local bar Set Me Up. A dating service 100% done by a close friend. Second Life is going to be replaced, and sex might become mainstream....

The Secret Submissive
Details of my imagined life are real, or as real as any story being told as truth. There is a line in the very first Jurrasic Park by Jeff Goldbloom; "Life finds a way"... argh. Is it Life will find a way? In any case, it stuck with me that our bodies and minds are...

Can I be other people?
A telling remark from a friend about why she just didn't get why the idea of Second Life was so great. She said something like, "why not just do things in this life". She doesn't get it. That's fine. I didn't for a half dozen years either. Here is a statement I...

Am I wrong for liking things?
I watch the sketch on cbc's this hour has 22 minutes tonight about a woman who was the happiest woman in Canada. The sketch then went on to portray her as a complete lunatic It bothered me because for the first few examples of her happiness was in line with the way...

That moment when…
Since I switched to paying for Howard Stern legally and Satellite radio in the car instead of the pop top 40 station I was clinging to. I will probably always prefer the up beat rave style music I used to call, rave music or sometimes techno. I liked it and it was...

Storytime.
22 elders gather in the center of the village. They quiet everyone down and start off poorly by predicting nobody will believe it. Starting a sentence with you're not going to believe this is as bad as .. Beetlejuice is as bad as cans. Ding. Interesting. Whoa. Ding...

I’m going to try and say a lot tonight…
It's 6:06 on a Sumday. I did not leave the house. I think I showered Friday. I have been getting worse. I have been doing nothing without a little more of the stuff. I have been aware that at some point soon, the positives woud turn to the negatives, but when my...

Happy Thursday
There are several directions this story could go from that heading. I intended it, as I used it several times today, Thursday, November 23rd. In Canada, a Thursday. Well, I suppose it is a Thursday everywhere, or was... but in the United States [sic] it is...

You don’t stop the mountain climber on the way up.
I really am too tired tonight. I shouldnt be, but the back problem retrned. I wasnt surprised, since the last time the fall season brought me the back problem, it was also ecstast based... orso was my guilt based self diagnosis. This pst week I'd been popping capsules...

The Porn Stories
I'm not really a sexual person, and I'm a little upset about that. It hasn't been that bad really. I only really started thinking about it since I started doing more drugs, and hanging out in Second Life. Pre 50 Jeff was still struggling with the negative voice within...

Interaction is where you learn
These past few eeeks in Second Life have been interesting. I guess t be fair, they're always intetesting. pause. There is a group in Second life called "Get HIGH and Play Second Life". It is one of the first weed groups I joined. There arremany others, but I always...

August 15th 2017 Thought Stream Transcript
I just took a multiple toke dab in my new bong, but it had the opposite effect. I wanted a longer draw so I got a tall bong with all sorts of slow downs... percolators and some other term that escapes me now. A new concentrate with a horrible taste and not as high as...

The Orange Jeff Show (Thought Stream Transcript)
I don't like to be loud late at night when I'm not alone in the building. When I do the videos, I am loud. I get excited and volume is a full dimension of expression. On the other hand, I personaly hate loud. I fear it. It scares me and I shy away. I have three loud...

Drama Monday
Today was a bad day. The third in a row. If we're counting, my hosting company has let my customers down four times. Four overnight downs. 2 fir mail, and twice for web but I only actually remember web once before. In any case, I've been caught using the same...

Orange Jeff Sticky
Hello. My name is Jeff. I like Orange. I'm currently quite high. I'd like to tell you my story. I am a 53 year old simgle, never married, great best friend. I am social, and confident in myself in some ways, but only newly. I know I am a great person. I've worked hard...

The Universe Begins
I saw wow. It's the moment of realization the loop isn't real. It is one moment on a journey. I can almost grasp the crucial end point, but once I figured out there is a moment when time began. The moment you realized you'd never notice a change. Once I realized the...

So Many Thoughts
Sooo many thoughts Tonighte was a joy of thought, with the only sadness being I couldn't share it all, it was happening so fast. I had tried shrooms on molly for the first time, certainly in a sutuation like this, with my cuirent mad scientist brain. The side effect...

Sunday at the Holiday Inn
Ok. Time to write. I’m high on one single teeny one-hit toke of week, and a fair amount of something else. A drug I don’t do often, and it doesn’t have an overwhelming effect on me, but it does change the mood, and with weed, I’m ready to write. It’s June 17th 2012. ...