This page is a dated journal of both text and video blogs of my journey through my 60s. I talk to my phone daily about my drug usage, my struggle with ADHD and my opinions on the universe.
Do I owe Brittany money?
Another morning arrives without the night in between. Day 3 awake.
Sunday Night Mini Meth Musical Movie
Original music, lyrics and vocals generated by an AI song tool with the guidance and editing by OrangeJeff late on Sunday night when I should have been sleeping.
My Mini Meth Music Movie Matinee
Another Sunday matinee mini meth movie musical with the help of AI
One hit repeated
This music video edited from clips of mine over the past month (March/April 2024) and set to an original tune music, vocals and lyrics by AI with my guidance.
3:39am Shard Boofin’ Time
Photo from the bathroom where I shit out what I just finished pushing in.
It’s Friday – I was surprised
Friday daily obligation journal plus a musical compilation video of clips from Friday morning.
Todays Saves
A show-off of all the useless fun I had today including a video is of me playing with Snapchat filters while getting quite spun.
The making of
It's not really a full making of video but it is a demonstration of streaming my webcam while I work on things like this video. The whole video was well over an hour.
Thursday blues
Not really worthy of the 3 minutes. Blah.
Wednesday Morning Report
My Wednesday report
Anticipation to Trouble
Blog and video about the fear and anxiety of “the talk” that I have been told is pending.
Bing Bing Bing. Wake up.
I was disturbed from my sleep by the pinging of Facebook messenger, but not from som customer with needs. It was my friend. He seemed to be aware it was 6am here and yet proceeded to bong me 6 more times triggering an emergency response from me. I naturally assumed the worst, and that customer or customers were without their morning email check. It woke me. I saw that it wasn't, and lay back down in a grumpy mood to start the day. Luckily, I have a solution for that. Today's routine is eyes open, take my pill, hit the bong, what was I talking about?
My morning routine – animated.
This is an animated recreation of what I do in the morning. It’s not complete but it does show a couple of steps that happen every day
Morning Obligation Blog Post.
A slow start to my day today but after my morning routine, I'm feeling a little bit better about the day and ready to go feed the cows.
Rare dream content
I woke up at 5am and went back to sleep. I had one of my less happy dreams before waking up again slowly at 6:38. When I say less happy, I don't really mean a nightmare. It's more of an anxiety stress dream. It hits my buttons. I was late for my opening day as manager of the store and things kept adding to my lateness in an almost comical way. They would have been funny coincidences is a stage play, but far less enjoyable when happening to myself one after the other. My mother and other sister where there making things worse at every stage. I wanted to leave the bedroom with compromises just to get to work. They wouldn't let me wear that dirty shirt or a pair of my backup running shoes because they were disgustingly dirty or had holes. My car was missing, which is a common theme. The...
It’s a loop again
I do remember from years ago the temptation to blog 15 times a day. Okay five times a day maybe. To just want to talk to myself and tell myself what I'm doing at every moment when I'm smoking and when I'm sleeping and I know those blog entries are not interesting but no one's reading my blog but me anyway and I'm not reading it so it really is just a therapeutic sounding board. Talking to myself lets me sort things out. It doesn't matter that I'm not reflecting by rereading my posts. It helps so I'm doing it. I recommend it and I just have to get past the fact that it has no audience. That's not the point. That was never the point.Â
More morning musings on a Monday
I didn't realize I had Snapchat in directors mode so it saved for videos in one. It's handy feature when you know it's turned on.
The Earth Day Daily Obligation Post
When I wake up, and then I super wake up, I talked to the camera about my day. Some days this will be deeper than others.
Snapchat informed me it’s Earth Day
Observing my usage habits.
lost in the Haze
Saturday edition of Music video Lost in the Haze about my sadness that Meth music videos are not a mainstream topic I can openly share. written by AI to my specifications. I love this new Snapchat filter.
Meth Talk – Chat profile thieves
Meth talk is a video series where I discuss some of the topics relating to meth users that may be of interest to other meth users.
Meth Talk – OrangeJeff’s Meth History
Meth talk is a video series where I discuss some of the topics relating to meth users that may be of interest to other meth users.
Sunday starts with Aero
A four piece of chocolate. A pimple on my dehydrated tongue tries to spoil the enjoyment I feel from the chocolate as it melts on my mouth. It's not my regular chocolate but it's still a refreshing way to begin my day. I made it till 6:15am this morning so I suppose I could say I got to sleep in a bit. Inside my head, I seemed eager to wake up. I even dreamed it was 6am once in the night. I opened my eyes and looked towards the orange digital clock on the wall at 3:20am. It's the first site I see each day and it confirms me whether this wake up is the official one or a trial run. Some nights my body tells me it's time to pee when I wake up. This week, I've been able to skip that step and make it all the way till the sun peeks through my window, or the dogs wake up and rattle the whole...
Walk and Talk – Morning Reflections
Walk with me as I ponder my universe.
Meth Talk
The premiere episode.
Alternate clouds on 420
Because you know we don't all smoke weed but celebrating 420 when you're not a weed smoker is no different than celebrating Christmas when you're not a christian. Sometimes people just want to party and be friends.
Happy Palindrome Day /420
Today is 4:20 which isn't super relevant to me since I haven't smoked weed in close to a year and even the edibles which are not considered 420 are not in my regular routine anymore. I do recognize whoever that a good percentage of my friends are within that community. I have provided for them a little bit of alternative celebration in that today is also a palindrome day.
April 14th thoughts
April 14 morning thought and clouds
Meth Talk: Stealing profile content
Posting my daily journal entry.
Friday Morning Reflection on my use
Daily Diary of meth thoughts, opinions and me.
