Today was a good day. I didn’t sleep during the day and I got a lot of stuff done including some backlog work with a customer I actually avoided for over 2 weeks. I made up and he didn’t seem too upset.
It’s not really a lie to say it was a health reason I was unavailable for the last three weeks for him. The world is accepting mental health as a real thing these days. I didn’t have to elaborate but I told him I am making plans to make my web hosting business better supported in my absence and user accessible controls as well which seems to make people happy.
When I don’t respond for a while the customers start thinking about what it will be like if I ever died and they won’t have access to their domains or websites which is bad. I really have been talking about fixing that for years but there is a possibility that a major life change coming up will help with that.
One of my sisters that lives in rural interior BC has invited me to live in their farm home for alternatively a trailer on the property. She has made it excellent offers that I could easily adapt to. It’s a very rural farm 30 minutes outside of Kamloops BC. No food delivery and no grocery delivery except perhaps Amazon. Pizza is 20 minutes away by car but living there I will have access to a car as needed.
I won’t be obligated to do any work however there’s probably a lot of things around the farm that I would enjoy including sales of eggs and other farm stuff.
The family is reasonably social so there would be opportunities to meet people in my age group or slightly older and my sister is very active in many things and would push me if needed.
It’s a scary change to move to British Columbia from Ontario so I’m still considering it but it does seem like the best the universe is currently offering me. I definitely need to change from here and now that he doesn’t have a day job it would be a good time.
She would also assist me in getting social assistance in British Columbia if needed. As a bonus, possession of drugs like meth is currently decriminalized there. She certainly against it but it’s good to think that it’s at least possible.
She would certainly help me with a new doctor and potentially a new psychiatrist and Adderall prescription.
I had an absolute minimum of meth today from old pipes and such and worked the whole day happily without falling asleep or even turning on the TV until 9:00 p.m. just now.
It was how I envisioned a life without a role again. Productive.
The two downsides are that no one delivers there and the internet isn’t great. It’s 20 minutes from any business or restaurant and the only internet is Elon Musk’s satellite-based internet which has a one terabyte limit at slow speeds and then unlimited internet at even slower speeds. Since all of my web design work is online with WordPress, it could pose a problem. It might not, but my brain likes to pick it as one of the negatives. If I was to write down the pros and cons the pros would be overwhelming and positive so my brain makes up the negatives just to make the decision harder.
Although I hated living here when it was new, it’s been over 2 years now and I have adapted it. I accept the dogs barking and the landlord yelling as normal and I only get in trouble once a month or so which is much better than the daily yelling at the start
He has grown accustomed to me being here as well and although I do almost nothing, nobody really likes to live alone especially when they’re old. The idea of having a housemate is comforting. However, if I was to say I was leaving I’m sure he would accept it and wish me well.
Money-wise it’s a tough call because I’m currently looking at $1,500 hydro bill again thanks to February being so short I somehow missed the invoice and it jumped from 250 to 495 and then March is 500 and the end of this month will be another 500 probably
Every third month I have almost no income so this month I have about $300 coming in and about $2,000 I need to pay out. That means if I need to move out, I need to borrow that or make it up somehow..
But I don’t want to think about that right now. I want to think that I had a good day. I worked on websites, answered customer emails, added Russia to the spam filters and had some nice food.