mood

The limbo mode

The limbo mode

There is a mood between wanting to sleep and wanting to work and it is this mood that I find myself spending a good portion of my days in. If Ian is the right word. I finish my morning chores before 9:00 a.m. and don't technically have anything to do until about 3:30 when I feed the animals their...

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Motivation by mood

Motivation by mood

Recently I have noticed my mood is being used as a skakegoat to not do or watch things. I find myself wanting to be productive this morning but just not "feeling" like each option I present. I sit here scanning the TV options, finding several good choices I definitely want to check out, but not...

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Thursday Morning Mood

Thursday Morning Mood

I slept well, and woke up refreshed. Almost instantly, I reached for my last piece of chocolate and the meth bong to start my day. I don't have guilt or regrets about this anymore. At this moment in time, I am ok with identifying as a daily meth user... At least to...

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The week in review

The week in review

This my second week using daily... I think. It might only be my first. I have not really noticed much different, and in refection yesterday and today - I'm thinking it might not be very good. There is a type of meth that allows for, if not causes sleepiness. Yesterday...

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Note to self: it won’t work

Note to self: it won’t work

After a few months of not using, I was actually looking forward to feeling motivated and productive again. A week after using, my brain remembered it doesn't work that way. The positive good mood work effects wear off and you're still the same effort avoiding person....

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