Not every blog needs its own category. A lot of the time I just start typing what I had planned for the log post isn’t what it ends up being. Most of the posts in this category should not contain a lot of heavy drug use for mentions but I can’t guarantee it.
Not every blog needs its own category. A lot of the time I just start typing what I had planned for the log post isn’t what it ends up being. Most of the posts in this category should not contain a lot of heavy drug use for mentions but I can’t guarantee it.
I should use the date as a blog title and go on about how fast time moves when you don't create any milestone memories, but I did and I will. I didn't blog about Pi day or St Patrick's Day. I didn't blog about my Daniel Day or the TV shows on this month. I didn't blog...
Today was a good day. I didn't sleep during the day and I got a lot of stuff done including some backlog work with a customer I actually avoided for over 2 weeks. I made up and he didn't seem too upset. It's not really a lie to say it was a health reason I was...
My time away from the high has resulted in hours of sleep and a bit of reflection and pondering thrown in. We had two days of Spring before winter returned this week. A normal February. It gets light earlier but is still not bright past about 6pm. I've picked up a winter cold, possibly due to feeding the animals in only a t shirt each day. My weird nasel breathing has returned with a wide...
I'm not saying this post has anything to do with ADHD, except for the fact that I have ADHD and I know for a fact that I will not get to the end of the blog post I intended without interruptions and distractions. I must now confess that I have completely forgotten what I was going to blog about. And then I remembered. And then I remembered why I keep forgetting it. It's a blog post I want and...
I was awake all night again. I boofed the very last of my bong water in a single syringe that gave me an all day boost from noon till now. Part of my evening was obsessing over the Monty Hall math problem. Although tired, I worked on that task from 1am till 3am changing my mind a few times. I'm still not 100% the commonly accepted answer is the correct one Math can be tricky when chances and...
I don't know what the temperature is, but I'm happy to sit outside in my backyard chair and watch the dogs jump around and play with each other in the sunlight just before the evening starts. It's early February and more often than not this week would still be snow covered and cold but today there is sunlight and It's the kind of day that Ontario calls spring. My breath still creates a slight...
Pretty much a normal Monday taking care of the dogs and feeding the chickens and feeding the pig and blogging about how dull that routine is.
They say that pigs are supposed to be one of the most intelligent animals in the animal kingdom. I haven't seen an example of that with my pig. Oops I mean the pig that I take care of during the week, but to be fair there's not a lot of intelligence that's needed to sleep and eat and poop and repeat. This pig doesn't really have the opportunity to shine. Its life is rather dull and there isn't...
Not sponsored... Yet
I wish I could remember all the stories in my dreams last night in as much detail as they contained. I remember three distinct stories but the details are already fading as I write this post. The latest, and perhaps the funniest storyline was when two agents knocked on the door where I was living, and conducted a deep search through all my belongings looking for page 58 of the script tolatest...
DREAMS ARE BACK! I didn't really notice I hadn't been dreaming and remembering them until they were back I had rich vivid dreams last night. Full plot and dialogue dreams. My alarm woke me at 7am from a detailed game of snooker that cost $20 an hour with lots of issues. A detailed script following a totally different story in a bad neighbourhood. I woke up a few times with more pee than previous...
I had casually mentioned that I was out of food in one of the Kik groups and a complete stranger who only knows me from my messages there donated $17 towards the cause. Actually, he sent me $20 PayPal which got deleted down to about $17 after two transactions to get it into my bank account where I could merge it with the $14 I had and afford enough to buy a pizza. Two in fact I decided to go to...
 My work life is pretty light these days. I only have a few customers left in my web business and my weekday job taking care of animals is only about a half hours worth of work split into three simple feeding tasks at breakfast, lunch and dinner. Even so, I don't sleep in. The weekend is still a break from that routine. I like sleeping in on Saturday. It was half past noon when I first picked up...
I'm always a little hesitant to talk about my life philosophy of ignoring everything that I don't like or that's difficult. I'm almost 60 and it hasn't quite caught up with me yet but who knows what the future holds. The amount of shit I have tossed over the wall of tomorrow to ignore today is substantial. Many things I could still get in trouble for. Luckily I don't plan on running for office...
Mornings loud and dancey
I know a number of people who sleep until the afternoon and then begin their day at 2 or 4pm on a regular basis. I have almost become them, except I'm still waking up before 7am... And then doing basically nothing till 2 or 3pm. It's a weird feeling to waste each day doing nothing except scrolling through 30 video clips on any of the various platforms. I'm not interacting with people. I just...
I don't really smoke much weed. When I had cash, I bought a gram of shatter and used iwith my tab tig or pen. It could last a month It was a good way to fall asleep. Then I got some weed from a friend and it was quite good allowing me to fall asleep. Today, the new weed is new. Clearly more sativa than Indica I smoked some after Saturday Night Live and now I'm awake again. So now I'm going to...
I am, obviously. That's the number of minutes I waited after heating up the pigs breakfast. It's supposed to be 5 minutes on high, but did 4 minutes because it ended at 750 instead of 751 and the pig doesn't like it hot anyway. I hate that I still feel a bit guilty for breaking a rule.
I blog and stream about blogging during a stream.
I can't act surprised when something that has been alerting me for 3 months finally makes the decision to fail. It's like driving your car with the check engine light, and then trying to act all surprised when the engine blows up 3 months later. In this case, it refers to the mail server of one of my customers. It's been flashing the check engine light equivalent which is two notifications every...
I've written many times of how I ignore or avoid things that are important in favor of doing other things that are less important. Important tasks for customers often get put aside until they complain and even then longer. It's one of my most frustrating traits and despite being totally aware of it, things still remain undone. The current example which inspired me to write this instead of doing...
The new routine at least for the winter is pig slop, heated for 5 minutes on high. It stinks up the kitchen because the stove isn't clean, and as far as I can tell from the pig's body language, he not only doesn't care, I think he prefers it cool. But I'm heating it up again today. A Friday special and I'm a little bit early to the kitchen anyway. The dogs have been in a mood. They usually get...
Why I like watching The Blacklist
I have been living all by myself in a 12x12 bedroom for two years. I don't have any real reason to leave the house, and I don't drive anymore. I'm just here, in this room all day every day. I still like taking photographs and making compilation music videos. Most of them are of me smoking drugs, but sometimes I want to make one that isn't drug related. The problem is that my blog now has...
I have two workstations these days, and which one I use for blogging or video or editing makes a difference. It usually means it creates extra effort to move content between the desktop world and the phone world. I compose a lot of video content on my phone. I make smoking videos but I also talk to the camera quite a bit, and film life around the farm or when I'm out walking around town. The...
One way the universe shows us it's cruel is the idea of shopping therapy. As humans, we like new things. I personally like gadgets. Typically, women like shoes. There's something in each of us that makes us happy to shop and buy. The problem is it works best when we're poor. I've been living the poverty lifestyle for a couple of years now and few things make me happier than having the...
There’s something strange about the idea of being supervised or watched that changes the way we react. Apparently this is true all the way down to microbiology.
I managed to squeeze in an hour nap between 2:00 and 3:00. I'm always a tiny bit concerned that once I'm asleep after a longer binge like this I won't wake up for anything for a while. I'll ignore alarms and ringing and all sorts of things but it's not always the case. More often, I sleep in shorter segments like I did today. 1 hour at a time waking up regularly and then eventually crashing for...
There is a point many of us have experienced in life. You make contact with a new person, and you click. You have a nice chat. One of you eventually ends that first conversation, and then you wait. Was it fun for them? Did you do ok? Did you say anything awkward or weird? Will you ever talk with them again. Online, many chats happen once. There isn't a reply and of course, I blame myself. It...
Styles and filters in bulk
I didn't actually wake up this morning and start working right away. More accurately, I turned the ceiling light on and started working right away. I didn't get to sleep last night although there's an hour in there around 5:00 a.m. that I might have rested. The weird thing is I know I was in a good mood today. I started back on my medication both prescription and recreational and I was in an...
This is just a silly effect with no actual audio to lipsync to, but it makes me wonder why. I think Deep Fake audio hasn’t arrived to the cheap app world yet.
My end of day summary is positive.
The first of a few messages posted today. Hybrid vlogging where I type, talk and record.
I started back at my responsibilities of daytime animal feeder. It's an easy task, and yet I've made several errors in the three days since he went back to work. It worried me that I might actually be getting old soon and my ADHD distractions combined with drug use, depression and everything else. I make mistakes. It sucks. I do things without thinking, and consequences range from mild to harsh....
Somebody somewhere in the world was using up my website resources and keeping everyone out with 503 errors.In order to try and resolve this, I went searching and my host has some pretty amazing security features that I didn't know about that I'm going to probably test a little bit more and then turn on for many of my customers. Things that should have been on all along for security...
I live an unusual lifestyle on many levels, and it's easy to mis-judge me without a better understanding of some of the aspects.The most significant among the misunderstandings is the one of my sexuality. Even I find it hard to really understand. Sexuality and gender are complex parts of who we are, individually and as a society. We've opened up the definitions and terms a lot in recent years in...
It’s not really a big deal, but I celebrated anyway.
Every time I come downstairs, I remember what I forgot to bring down with me, but it's never important enough to make a special trip back upstairs just to get it. This is common in my life, until I decide I've had enough and I make a special trip back upstairs, at which point it's about 50/50 I'll actually succeed and bring the thing downstairs.
Today I noticed something I can't explain on my phone and I can't decide weather to be worried or not. I don't know if this is a permanent change in my life, in the operating system, or in my health. The colors on my phone are noticeably more vibrant today. Bright and colorful more than ever before. It's not just a brightness thing but it's definitely more sharp and vibrant and I'm concerned...
It's Friday afternoon already. I spent the morning in my bed reading social media again. I woke at 8:30 and then lay around in that mode where you lay still pretending like you'll fall asleep, knowing you probably won't. I sat back up at 11:30 and got stuck on Instagram looking at all the people doing social media so much better than me. Appreciating and envying at the same time. People living...
Another half day down and the rest is the hard part
I'm posting this blog standing outside the chicken coop but 5:30 p.m. and it's still light enough to see. That's a good sign. Everything else about today didn't work out so well. Standing outside chicken coop because the pig woke up and he wants fat even though that was an hour ago he seems to think it's morning. He's grumpy in the morning. I'm grumpy too because I'm having to blog on an...
It's the start of a new year and all the Christmas and holiday and boxing Day activities are behind me and yet, I stalled today. It's almost 5:00 p.m. and I've done virtually nothing today. I hope I can snap out of this and return to semi-productive web work. I made the attempt a couple of times today. I did manage to find a voice to text tool for Chrome that works within WordPress. I probably...
I didn't want to get down over the holidays. I pretty much ignored them and stayed inside as is my way in December. It's now the 3rd of January and I still seem unmotivated to start fresh. I'm in a blah mood I didn't expect especially since I was doing so well creating the new website. I think I got in my head too much that it was going to be a failure and why was I spending so much energy on...
It turned out today was not the start of my new year. Maybe tomorrow.
I don't have an easy was to make a Bingo card up at this moment, but I thought of some good entries. See me re-use the knife and fork without washing. See my dentures See me without my teeth in. See me adjust my privates inside my pants. See me tuck my pants in my butt crack. See me throw garbage anywhere. See me use drugs. See me react to lava Lamps. See me eat dropped food See me knock...
I wanted to color the fudgesicle but that's a brand name. I see on the box this is a fudge ice milk bar which is the Walmart brand. It's quite good. One of the traits that I picked up more and more as I age, but really has been with me since the beginning is the unwillingness to try new foods. When I find something I like I'm happy to eat it over and over rather than risk trying something I...
I seem to have picked up a blogging shyness.
I'm never fully sure what time I fell asleep. I know that I woke up around 9:30am and it was nice. Oi could get used to that, but as soon as he goes back to work, the animals demand an earlier wake up feeding and release from the chicken coop. I prefer being a morning person anyway, although these days I've become more productive after 7pm than 7am. They're just routines and I can change my...
I had very specific plans to do something when I woke up this morning. I had worked them out while I was asleep...kind of. I'm not sure about that limbo of almost asleep where my dreams may or may not be dreams. They might just be thoughts. In any case, I had a task. I woke up and sat at my computer. As I was about to click the mouse, I reconsidered. I didn't do the task. I'm not certain why. It...
I've always known I'm funny. Saying it out loud however, is hard. I don't tell jokes so being funny on demand never works. The world has a lot of people who seem to be funnier than me and it's distressing. TikTok and other social media platforms are turning people into millionaires for being consistently funny and it can be frustrating to watch all these people knowing it could have been,...
No more feeding the fishes, pigs or chickens for a while. I guess this i
There’s a way to use Google Chrome extensions on your phone but you can’t get it from Google.
I do my best to keep it somewhat interesting despite the fact that they're all the same concept video.
I would have marked it on my calendar but that would have been an accomplishment. I had a couple of tasks but I didn't do them. Not a great Thursday.
I will admit it. I am a childish immature man when it comes to funny faces and Snapchat filters.
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I'm not sure why, but this morning, one of the dogs wanted my attention. Within minutes of the master leaving for work at 5:30am, I was disturbed from a really cool dream by his bark. It was a night time bark. Muffled just a little, like he was trying to whisper a bark. Then, after about 20 seconds... Another. I remember this. It's his passive aggressive way of distributing your life. A bark...
I hate when I'm on the toilet, and on the other side of the door, nearby in the kitchen , I hear a continuous stream of expletives. He's angry about something and if I open the door, I'm suddenly in the middle of it whether I want to be or not. I've been in here 15 minutes so far.
Now that I actually live in Niagara Falls I figured I would include a link to their live webcam I doubt very much they’ll return the favour.
Old Facebook generated video
When the cartoon filter first came out, it was horrid for guys with beards. It got better. This is the best one I’ve seen.
As I was finishing writing the story about the random storyteller I met yesterday on the street, it happened that the man sitting next to me decided it was time to tell me one of his life stories. It's a man It is '70s and we were both sitting next to a third passenger that had the ability to fall asleep and snore within seconds. It reminded him of the worst snorer that he had ever encountered....
I came out of an antique store yesterday to get some cooler fresh air. Outside, an older gentleman complimented me on my orange hat. I thanked him, and a conversation began. He mentioned he was a pile driver and I asked him what that was. I was 99% sure I knew, but I also knew he would be happy to tell his story. I welcome that opportunity. He proceeded to tell me he was on a Northern Ontario...
I try not to think too often about how unhealthy it is to sleep 18 hours a day. It has gotten to the point where it seems quite natural and when I wake up, I am still tired. I don't feel the depression I once did, which is the main reason people tend to sleep through the day and night. I just don't really have anything else to do. I don't have enough money to go into town and walk around even...
Yet another American holiday that comes from the origins of a horrible history. A day when many people died and others lost their fortunes. The Americans celebrate this every year with expanding leeway in both directions. This year Black Friday started at the beginning of October with advertisements for pre-block Friday sales. I suspect it will go on for another few weeks. We try not to think of...
The covid-19 incident of 2022 has passed and today was my first day back as the caretaker of the animals. Whenever he's home the roll falls on him because they are his animals but during a normal week, I'm in charge of their feeding and it's nice to be back on that schedule. The weather here in Niagara is quite mild and sunny today. Much of the snow that fell over the weekend has melted. I I'm...
