Still technically Monday and I haven't fallen asleep yet. I've been playing with noses instead of creating anything or making new videos. I should be tired. I haven't smoked anything since 3 or 4:00 p.m. and I was doing pretty well at regulating her fairly normal sleep cycle. I made a lot of...
I learned this life hack but it doesn’t help with insomnia from a stuffy nose.
I can't tell if my insomnia today is real or in my mind. I'm not sure that it matters all that much, because either way, I'm still awake at 1:00 a.m. and I anticipate it's made last the whole night. Early this morning I blogged about how small a quantity of meth smoke...
Galley of playing around on my phone in the dark during the night hours
When I find myself awake and aware at 3am, it's usually clear I'll be up all night. Sometimes I can fall back asleep but these days it usually means I used some drugs too late or too often for sleep. At this point in the early morning, the effects of my Paxil have...
I've always been adaptable to a change in plans at the last minute. At least I think I have. I know I don't mind postponing or cancelling. It ends my anxiety instantly. I suppose I get upset at the big plans I was looking forward to, but I try to not let change like...
There are winter bugs keeping me awake at night. Well, and the meth too. It's probably the meth now that I think about it. In fact, I'm not even sure there are bugs.
It wasn't a productive day and I had little to do officially, so I mostly tried to get higher, but this medication tops out for me. At a certain point, pretty much after 3 bowls or so, more doesn't help. More and more is wasted except for the purpose of making videos,...
I know that 1:45am is technically Tuesday but I was actually a bit surprised. It felt like more than one day of work. My morning 5am bump has not only allowed me to work the entire day on a project, it seems it's not scheduled to slow down and let me get to sleep. I'm...
I had a nice relaxing orgasm around 8pm and figured I could probably fall asleep tonight. Today was a pretty good day. I accomplished enough of my tasks to be noticable, and feel optimistic about the last half. It's clear the imaginary life I predicted for being a...
Wait for a sleep that might now come, or get higher and fuck it.
To be awake at 10:00 p.m. on a Friday is nothing significant for most of you I'm sure. However for me I've been up since 1:00 a.m. yesterday and I really wanted to sleep today. Or at least fall asleep tonight. A combination of the massive quantity of bugs in my bed...
YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it's usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons...
Some drugs are physically addictive and quitting needs a process. Your body learns to function with the drug and needs time to wean off it properly. A lot of mental prescription drugs are this way, but they don't use the word addictive. My Paxil can make me seriously...
I felt the sleepy wave of the 20mg edibles around 11 but the effects were not strong to keep me asleep. Too much meth just before bed. I'm not falling asleep in my hour increments. I'm just wake in one long consecutive period of attention and focus with no destination...
I shouldn't be eating chocolate at 11:30 p.m. I shouldn't be drinking pop and eating chocolate.i shouldn't...
I actually think I got some sleep although I'm not certain. It was a bit of some confusion but I know I definately did sleep today during a time when 3 calls came through. The boss was calling to tell me thew new way to do my job. So much for getting them used to a...
It turns out cleaning isn't so hard afterall, if you have an actual sink. Sadly my joy over the return of my preferred bubbler came after I'd already partaken in a number of filming exercises and experiments using the other tools. It was a; Play with the new camera...
I enjoyed this weekend. I was in a good mood the whole time and had some good social conversations with my housemate without having to take care of the animals or anything for Saturday and Sunday. I forget what I worked on yesterday but today I split my day focusing...
The plan, as it has been every Friday for a while was to leave the house, replace my bong, buy some transit tickets and some good sleepy shatter to help me sleep. The plan did not happen of course. It's not necessarily even intentional. I just find reasons to say no...
I don't drink coffee or tea in the morning. I don't get caffeine on a regular basis and my choice of pop is usually clear but with hamburgers or pizza, I like a Pepsi. Tonight I got paid not quite enough to pay all the bills at the month but I expected that, so...
It was a hot one today. Especially so inside the 10x12 bedroom I call home. It's not well ventilated and due to curious cats, I don't get to leave my door open more than a crack. Usually I leave it closed so I am less disturbed by noises on the other side of the door...
It's 3:14 in the afternoon on a Sunday. Pie time I sometimes call it although there It's almost never any pie. I miss pie. A good old-fashioned cafeteria style apple pie is hard to find these days. Swiss Chalet still sells one although restaurant desserts are a little...
I'm not really sure that my sleep issues are resolved. It does however appear that I may have found at least part of the problem. I still have constipation issues, and I'm still peeing more than I should but last night was particularly rough. I was only getting about...
Glazed donuts often have a timeline of freshness that begins right away. Tonight I was offered three McDonald mini donuts. One was a springle. These are yeast donuts and ideally should be consumed within an hour or three after purchase. I prefer the longer lasting...
I had not slept well the last three nights mostly be a of my stupidity and an old addict trick. If I'm not asleep by now, why not just stay up and try tomorrow. Howver as morning ce closer, I was almost tired so I did more with good intentions of cutting the streak. I...