When people on a diet want a piece of cake they declare a cheat day. There doesn't seem to be any rule except that all rules are out the window. I've been setting very tiny goals for myself each day but today I didn't get much done at all. It's 4:00 p.m. now and I go feed the chickens for their...
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting and the temptation to be creative and look for ways to make it fun can actually distract and make...
So as of 8:14 a.m. on Tuesday August 2nd I am possibly missing a cat, or not one may have escaped outside which is really bad for at least one or two of the cats and reasonably bad for the third. If it's the bad cat and I don't mean bad cat I mean if it's the cat that...
I'm feeling more stressed than I need to be,but that doesn't really help. Then again, my stress has always been pretty mild. Since I go with the flow about everything, worrying about the future is a useless pastime. He starts a job tomorrow that will take him out of...
I feel rather silly telling you this but it's a good story so I don't mind. I recently moved back into Toronto to downtown West. The previous times I've lived in Toronto it has been well out into the suburb neighborhoods. I'm in Parkdale which is the west side poor...
I moved back to Toronto and found a nice little place for the first month to stay started work on Monday and on Thursday I left early. Friday we were closed for the whole next week with covid and I didn't blog a bit. I didn't really move much. I just sat in bed alone...
The plans for today are in flux. As I was turning the key to lock the back door, my phone rang. My co-worker informed me that our boss has tested positive for Covid-19 and I should not come in to work. My mind floods with different thoughts and possible futures....
Today is Sunday. My practice day to see that I can wake up and get things done. I won't say I'm failing already, but it certainly wasn't a totally slow start. It's 10:30 and I feel like I will tackle my to-do list today out in the sun and feel better about it. I am...
In the past. I have always talked about each new move as a Chapter in my life story. I learn so many new things when I'm living in the house with other people. Now I think it might be time to modernize my terminology since so much about how we share our story is now...
I'm near tears right now, but managing. I had high hopes for a call from my doctor. I had plans of what to say. 45 seconds later, we were saying goodbye and I said nothing. I hate that. I hate myself right now. I accomplished nothing. I didn't get anything I was going...
It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've...
People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I can certainly think about a few ways I've changed. I can imagine my close friends might notice even more changes. I had...
Over the years I have created a number of different tricks to start my day better. I know what I need to do to wake up and start being productive. As soon as I realize I'm up, I turn on all the lights to full brightness and stand up and stretch. The key is to not go...
I have do much to share but let's see what gets retained long enough for the blog. I flip flop a lot. Often several times a minute as I internally debate decisions. If I stall long enough somebody else will make it. My phyciatrist has a standard procedure of always...
Mental Profile As I was laying in bed tonight I realized this needed to be written. I couldn't go to sleep without waking up and writing down this latest idea of mine. The world has recently adopted the term mental health to include all of those who have some...
It's Wednesday of the week back work week and as of 5pm, I've done nothing. I had a glorious uninterrupted restorative sleep last night during a thunderstorm. I woke up at 730 and then went back untill about 1045. Since then I've just sat around playing on my phone...
I'm giving this one a second try. At the very least, you know, isn't quite as distracting. But I'm very easily distracted. I mean, something took me away from pizza. Not right don't go on camera when they're eating pizza. doesn't seem right for the day Really is...
They have a saying that anyone could be president and some people laugh that off. But the truth is, anyone probably can become president. If managed by smart people. All you need to do is be some people's favorite. And they'll bulk that in and buy everything you're...
0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I...
I've been blogging on my bus and subway rides as a good way to work out my feelings and mindset in between therapy. It's helpful, and I recommend it, even if you don't really tell anybody about the blogs. They can still be therapeutic. It's the new socially...
It's a Friday before what is now called memorial day weekend, although I remember when it was Victoria Day and many people in Canada call it may 2-4 weekend presumably because one year it fell on the 24th and a beer company ran commercials. We Canadians love our beer...
I'm not sorry. I do not regret today's desision... But of course, I'd say that now, still under the influence of a euphoria I previous denied. I am euphoric and creative and excited. I have been writing all night. My normal behaviour was to take some MDMA and try to...
I remember visually where I was standing when I first heard the CBC Radio announcer describing this piece of music he was about to play. It wasn't so much music like a song, but a tone. Somebody had invented, or discovered this tone that sounded like it was rising...
Details of my imagined life are real, or as real as any story being told as truth. There is a line in the very first Jurrasic Park by Jeff Goldbloom; "Life finds a way"... argh. Is it Life will find a way? In any case, it stuck with me that our bodies and minds are...
A telling remark from a friend about why she just didn't get why the idea of Second Life was so great. She said something like, "why not just do things in this life". She doesn't get it. That's fine. I didn't for a half dozen years either. Here is a statement I...
I watch the sketch on cbc's this hour has 22 minutes tonight about a woman who was the happiest woman in Canada. The sketch then went on to portray her as a complete lunatic It bothered me because for the first few examples of her happiness was in line with the way...
Today was a bad day. The third in a row. If we're counting, my hosting company has let my customers down four times. Four overnight downs. 2 fir mail, and twice for web but I only actually remember web once before. In any case, I've been caught using the same...
I'm losing my morning person abilities. The winter and spring of 2017... I'm not waking up energized and dtsrting my work day anymore. I've even lost my proide in being a morning person. I hate it. I have not gained the late person powers. I still want to go to bed...
We're a few months into the 2016 seson, and a few shows have already been cancelled. It's time to list the shows I still watch weekly. In no particular order The Daily Show with Trevor noah Full Frontal with Samantha Bee @Midnight (occasional) TMZ (occasional)...
This month, I have taken To putting myself out there on a few legit and a few scam dating or hookup sites. It feels horrible trying to be normal. Trying to be me, but hide the parts that might turn a first impression sour, but my view of those points is biased, and...
There are a few places in life people need to wait. Some lines you can avoid, or do without. Some lines you can schedule and return at less busy times. It's hard to avoid the waiting room at a hospital. I suppose the rich can pay for better treatment in some cases,...
I have a very social relationship with many of my clients, having served them often for over 20 years now. One client of mine that I consider a friend, has a 19 year old son with amazing talent, and has recently started down the path of a singing career.As is the...
I just finished watching this week's 2014 Christmas edition of Saturday Night Live. It's odd to feel cheated that hardly any celebrities showed up this year. The only cameos were three former SNL Characters - so far anyway. The demographically perfect boy band One...
I go to a lot of places where artists show their work. Not so much official art galleries, but smaller marketplaces and shows. Festivals and public displays where artists rent small booths and try to sell their paintings or jewelry or other hand made work. I enjoy...
Apple does a few things really well, but one of the biggest impacts on the cell phone world, is the way they've managed to make getting the newest iPhone an obligation of your status. Of course, not every iPhone user lines up to be first, and many don't even bother...
Today is October 27th. A day some sons would remember, if it was the day their mother died, but I'll probably forget in time. I don't remember the date that my father died. I didn't really mourn their deaths. It's different situation when you say goodbye to family...
One of the issues I've had as an obsessive mind that overthinks every scenario of life, is regarding the idea of receiving gifts. I have very few memories of receiving gifts, where I enjoyed the process. That is one serious imaginary memory deficit. I'm not saying I...
One of the popular things that happens on Facebook from time to time, is your friends start posting lists and forwarding them. They also try to force you to do the same. Â I have a policy to not do anything on Facebook that a status post dared me or even asked me to...
I've always liked my writing style. It's sort of like the way I talk. It is something I do that I'm proud of, and there are not so many things in my life like that. However, I also don't seem to be able to do anything serious with it. I made a pledge to write a blog...
A new idea is exciting. It actually feels good. +1 Pleasure points. As I was thinking new thoughts the other day, I was able to actually feel the good feeling and sensation that comes with a new idea. Learning something new - at any age is good, and figuring it out on...
For many of you, the last time you took a daytime nap may have been in kindergarten, when nap time was enforced. That's too bad. Once we hit grade 1, we are encouraged to make it through the day in one continuous state of awake. In fact, napping at school is not...
When I first started my Giveit100.com project in January of 2014, it was a great motivator of creativity and energy at a time in my life when I needed it. Through the process of making 100 consecutive 10 second videis everyday, with follow up YouTube videos, I found a...
Fro some reason, we North Americans tend to like our long weekends to favour Monday, rather than Fridays. Somehow it seems like a longer holiday when we get an extra day AFTER Sunday, rather than taking Friday off and going back to work on a Monday. I suppose some...
The Internet has become a form of education we never expected. For the first time, we are globally seeing more and more real people. Reality TV started it, but the Internet is King, where every human can broadcast themselves or their neighbours, and we can see, for...
Sunday is a special day in our culture. It used to be the official day or rest for society, based I supposed on Christianity - but really meant as a day off for everyone... until it wasn't, and we got greedy. Now almost everything is open on Sunday, although some...
In my previous writings, I have stated this many times. I don't want to be famous. I just want a few fans. Fans are usually great, but being famous can be a terror. On Monday of this week, I started a new goal to write a blog of some sort every day, and the truth is -...
 Life is full of rules. Some we don't really care about breaking, and some we do. We've made the idea of breaking rules so socially acceptable that there is a famous line; "Rules are meant to be broken" which in itself, is an absurd statement. Some people define...
Some people hate Mondays. Ok... many people hate Mondays. There is even a great song about it that I happen to love. People do however seem to like January 1st, whether it falls on a Monday or not. Everyone starts talking about the new year as a fresh start, and many...
I dream a lot, as most people do, but I like to think my dreams are different than many people's and I tend to remember my dreams pretty well. In the spring, my dreams can be even more elaborate, and very dialogue intensive. It's 5:31 as I write this post, and I just...
Orange This color's name derives from the Sanskrit word for the fruit naranga. (Yes, the color orange was named after the fruit, not the other way around). This transformed into the Arabic and Persian naranj, and by the time of Old French to pomme d'orenge. It was...
https://giveit100.com/@frogstar42/g151wu This site inspired me to make a 10 second video every day on a project. I chose to document my struggle to find a bit more money in 2014. It's been fun.
My family have always been game players, although I was almost always a loser. We played card games, board games, and a few sports. I never really was good at any of them. When I moved out, much of the world was discovering video games, but I never got very good at...
I recently bought a cheap 7" tablet from a foreign "free shipping" web site and it's horrid. Really really bad. In fact, I can't even browse the web or watch any video at all. However, I don't consider it a waste because I have learned from it that I really do want...
Sometimes I think about my stories, and how I'll be remembered in the future. Life is long, but other people's lives are infinite. As my friends grow older and have kids, it makes me wonder what their life will be like. Their future. I remember back to my childhood,...
While checking out some older BLOG entries today I found a list of the shows I watch from 2011, and decide to do a new one. Person of Interest Rules of engagement Big Bang Theory How I Met your mother The Soup Jimmy Kimmel Live (Opening only, usually) Daily Show...
Sometimes I’m sad when I check my DRAW SOMETHING, and people just guessed the drawings and did their own. Some of the stuff I did was funny, or cute and should have yielded a comment. Come on! You have to comment on that!
I’ve been told a lot of great ideas come to people when they visit the bathroom. As a rule, I don’t spend as much time in the bathroom as some people I know. I don’t have reading material, and I don’t sit around for very long after doing my business. However, I do...
It has been a long time family tradition of mine to say RABBIT as the first words on the morning of the first day of every month. As a kid, we used to try to have it be the first thing, but more importantly, we said it to each other in the family before the other...
I casually mentioned my sideways elevator dreams in a Facebook status message this morning, and two of my friends mentioned they'd had similar dreams. In my dream, I am often frustrated, because I get into the wrong elevator, and this one travels goes between...
I ate green olives today, probably for the first time ever. I say probably, because the event was so un-memorable, it is conceivable, I have done it before, and just forgot. The taste had a slight familiar feel to it, almost as if I thought was green olives ‘should’ ...
It’s amazing how fast the brain is. A whole universe can be imagined in a thought. You look at your watch, and almost no time had passed at all. I arrived for my appointment at the Artful Dodger early, and sat outside in the sun on a bench next to a tree, just...
I'm looking for a new place to live this spring, so I decided to check Craig’s List. A friend had told me there are a lot of scam artists there, so I thought I’d have some fun and go in search of the fake ads. Deals too good to be true. I sent a few emails off to...
Went to Quebec this past week. Things I noticed: No pirate pay phones. All the pay phones were Bell, like Ontario used to be. Later, in one district of old Montreal, they were all TELUS payphones. No hot dog street vendors. Not one, anywhere I could see, and we...
I like Monday. I think of it as a mini-new week, and I start fresh with resolutions. Recently I blogged here about no longer reading books, or more accurately, ebooks on my phone at lunch. Instead, I have been reading Facebook and playing Jewel games. At that...
Long time readers of mine will know I much prefer being in a partnership or relationship to being alone. I've often said I fell co dependant without the co when alone, and the happiness of others gives me purpose. Having said that, I will also admit that being alone,...
I had a smartphone before you did. Long before. It took me a lot of mental memory just now, but I figured out this is actually my sixth smartphone, and third format change. My first, a black and white Kyocera was my entry into the hand held world of computing and my...
I was called in to work today when my plans ahead of time had been to stay in and catch up on old work I was behind on. Yesterday had also been a day when there was a big difference between what I expected and what actually happened. When I fall behind, I tend to get...
There is a famous saying I have often quoted as used in other writings, "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results." Today, it occurred to me that life itself, is a series of loops, and if we don't learn and grow...
The first one that breaks the piñata gets less than everyone else. I just saw a commercial where they implied that training in life is good, and they used an example of a girl who twirled herself at home for hours so she could handle the blindfolded twirl at her...
The Toronto Riots of 2010 The bigger the crowd, the more people show up for it. A quote I heard comedian Gallagher speak as part of a larger routine, that I have never forgotten, and occasionally use in general conversation. People do love a crowd, and it builds,...
I was surprised today to notice a man unzipping his fly as he walked into the public restroom. He didn't wait till he was at the urinal. He did it as he entered. I wondered if Emily Post has a rule about that.