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My Drug Questions Answered (Part 1)
I share my private videos in public because if they were only shared in private then nobody would see them but me. Although I do enjoy making these videos and probably would anyway it is nice to share them and get praise occasionally. I do get questions occasionally. I'm going to try and answer...
Day two. It doesn’t get easier..
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting and the temptation to be creative and look for ways to make it fun...
Same accident. Different door
So as of 8:14 a.m. on Tuesday August 2nd I am possibly missing a cat, or not one may have escaped outside which is really bad for at least one or two of the cats and reasonably bad for the third. If it's the bad cat and I don't mean bad cat I mean if it's the cat that...
The Next Episode
In the past. I have always talked about each new move as a Chapter in my life story. I learn so many new things when I'm living in the house with other people. Now I think it might be time to modernize my terminology since so much about how we share our story is now...
Act Two. It’s really worth finding act one.
I grab a handful of Hershies kises from my salad bowl. I have admired that Hersheys kisses may be cute and addictive but I admire their shape because I bleieve it is engeniered to allow for a specific maximum per grab. I walk away with a serving size of chocolate. If...
I actually said these things
I've been happier than my norm of late, and I can blame the drugs if I choose, but the condition has made me write, blog and share more. These are some of the things I actually typed to people when I felt cheerful, not high... but was probably high. The setup. Second...
The Thursday Report
Point Forms I have been trying Craigs List. I stopped Second Life although if I am going to be awake tonight (wink) I may try again. I need a person to be my #1 in there. It's to boring alone in my current life state and mood. I like Second Life on E, but not alone....
Two Drunk Posts on Craigs List and almost zero matches on Tinder.
That hurt. I did OK in Second Life as Orange Jeff, but Live Jeff can't get women to notice him online.I must write horrible profiles.I put drug-friendly at the bottom on Tinder, almost like the escorts I dream about add party friendly to their ads. I'm willing to give...
The Secret Submissive
Details of my imagined life are real, or as real as any story being told as truth. There is a line in the very first Jurrasic Park by Jeff Goldbloom; "Life finds a way"... argh. Is it Life will find a way? In any case, it stuck with me that our bodies and minds are...
Can I be other people?
A telling remark from a friend about why she just didn't get why the idea of Second Life was so great. She said something like, "why not just do things in this life". She doesn't get it. That's fine. I didn't for a half dozen years either. Here is a statement I...
Am I wrong for liking things?
I watch the sketch on cbc's this hour has 22 minutes tonight about a woman who was the happiest woman in Canada. The sketch then went on to portray her as a complete lunatic It bothered me because for the first few examples of her happiness was in line with the way...
That moment when…
Since I switched to paying for Howard Stern legally and Satellite radio in the car instead of the pop top 40 station I was clinging to. I will probably always prefer the up beat rave style music I used to call, rave music or sometimes techno. I liked it and it was...
Storytime.
22 elders gather in the center of the village. They quiet everyone down and start off poorly by predicting nobody will believe it. Starting a sentence with you're not going to believe this is as bad as .. Beetlejuice is as bad as cans. Ding. Interesting. Whoa. Ding...
I’m going to try and say a lot tonight…
It's 6:06 on a Sumday. I did not leave the house. I think I showered Friday. I have been getting worse. I have been doing nothing without a little more of the stuff. I have been aware that at some point soon, the positives woud turn to the negatives, but when my...
Happy Thursday
There are several directions this story could go from that heading. I intended it, as I used it several times today, Thursday, November 23rd. In Canada, a Thursday. Well, I suppose it is a Thursday everywhere, or was... but in the United States [sic] it is...
Drama Monday
Today was a bad day. The third in a row. If we're counting, my hosting company has let my customers down four times. Four overnight downs. 2 fir mail, and twice for web but I only actually remember web once before. In any case, I've been caught using the same...
Omg 10 seconds later
Sorry. False alarm. Something shiny. Its been a cool idea all along. Ham I have always been the creator of stories as far back as my favourite family support stories I like to be reminded of, Â so I thank you. Flash. Every time I see Ham ding swear jar contribution sjc...
Orange Jeff Sticky
Hello. My name is Jeff. I like Orange. I'm currently quite high. I'd like to tell you my story. I am a 53 year old simgle, never married, great best friend. I am social, and confident in myself in some ways, but only newly. I know I am a great person. I've worked hard...
Life Changes
I'm losing my morning person abilities. The winter and spring of 2017... I'm not waking up energized and dtsrting my work day anymore. I've even lost my proide in being a morning person. I hate it. I have not gained the late person powers. I still want to go to bed...
The TV I watch 2016
We're a few months into the 2016 seson, and a few shows have already been cancelled. It's time to list the shows I still watch weekly. In no particular order The Daily Show with Trevor noah Full Frontal with Samantha Bee @Midnight (occasional) TMZ (occasional)...
Fantasy Personal Ad
This month, I have taken To putting myself out there on a few legit and a few scam dating or hookup sites. It feels horrible trying to be normal. Trying to be me, but hide the parts that might turn a first impression sour, but my view of those points is biased, and...
The Emergency Room
There are a few places in life people need to wait. Some lines you can avoid, or do without. Some lines you can schedule and return at less busy times. It's hard to avoid the waiting room at a hospital. I suppose the rich can pay for better treatment in some cases,...
The sign of a cry for help message
This week I saw a friend who is known for spiralling fits of depressing and public posts that range from pathetic to funny to worry some, posted a message. On the news, when people die of suicide, we often read of their friends saying they'd so this sort of thing all...
The secret conversations.
The Internet has changed lives in so many ways, but for people with mental health issues they normally keep quiet, this new communication tool has allowed us to live multiple lives simultaneously. The Internet allows us to carry on more than one conversation at the...
Fame Adjacent
I have a very social relationship with many of my clients, having served them often for over 20 years now. One client of mine that I consider a friend, has a 19 year old son with amazing talent, and has recently started down the path of a singing career.As is the...
SNL Layers
I just finished watching this week's 2014 Christmas edition of Saturday Night Live. It's odd to feel cheated that hardly any celebrities showed up this year. The only cameos were three former SNL Characters - so far anyway. The demographically perfect boy band One...
The Artist Thirds
I go to a lot of places where artists show their work. Not so much official art galleries, but smaller marketplaces and shows. Festivals and public displays where artists rent small booths and try to sell their paintings or jewelry or other hand made work. I enjoy...
Your next new phone.
Apple does a few things really well, but one of the biggest impacts on the cell phone world, is the way they've managed to make getting the newest iPhone an obligation of your status. Of course, not every iPhone user lines up to be first, and many don't even bother...
My Mother
Today is October 27th. A day some sons would remember, if it was the day their mother died, but I'll probably forget in time. I don't remember the date that my father died. I didn't really mourn their deaths. It's different situation when you say goodbye to family...
The Gift of No Gifts
One of the issues I've had as an obsessive mind that overthinks every scenario of life, is regarding the idea of receiving gifts. I have very few memories of receiving gifts, where I enjoyed the process. That is one serious imaginary memory deficit. I'm not saying I...
The ABCS of Me
One of the popular things that happens on Facebook from time to time, is your friends start posting lists and forwarding them. They also try to force you to do the same. Â I have a policy to not do anything on Facebook that a status post dared me or even asked me to...
Blogging
I've always liked my writing style. It's sort of like the way I talk. It is something I do that I'm proud of, and there are not so many things in my life like that. However, I also don't seem to be able to do anything serious with it. I made a pledge to write a blog...
+1 Pleasure Points
A new idea is exciting. It actually feels good. +1 Pleasure points. As I was thinking new thoughts the other day, I was able to actually feel the good feeling and sensation that comes with a new idea. Learning something new - at any age is good, and figuring it out on...
Adult Nap Time
For many of you, the last time you took a daytime nap may have been in kindergarten, when nap time was enforced. That's too bad. Once we hit grade 1, we are encouraged to make it through the day in one continuous state of awake. In fact, napping at school is not...
Post-A-Day
When I first started my Giveit100.com project in January of 2014, it was a great motivator of creativity and energy at a time in my life when I needed it. Through the process of making 100 consecutive 10 second videis everyday, with follow up YouTube videos, I found a...
Fake Monday
Fro some reason, we North Americans tend to like our long weekends to favour Monday, rather than Fridays. Somehow it seems like a longer holiday when we get an extra day AFTER Sunday, rather than taking Friday off and going back to work on a Monday. I suppose some...
Society Evolves
The Internet has become a form of education we never expected. For the first time, we are globally seeing more and more real people. Reality TV started it, but the Internet is King, where every human can broadcast themselves or their neighbours, and we can see, for...
I’m Sundaying
Sunday is a special day in our culture. It used to be the official day or rest for society, based I supposed on Christianity - but really meant as a day off for everyone... until it wasn't, and we got greedy. Now almost everything is open on Sunday, although some...
I don’t want to be famous. I just want a few fans.
In my previous writings, I have stated this many times. I don't want to be famous. I just want a few fans. Fans are usually great, but being famous can be a terror. On Monday of this week, I started a new goal to write a blog of some sort every day, and the truth is -...
Most of us are Criminals.
 Life is full of rules. Some we don't really care about breaking, and some we do. We've made the idea of breaking rules so socially acceptable that there is a famous line; "Rules are meant to be broken" which in itself, is an absurd statement. Some people define...
Monday. Fresh Start Day. No More Coasting.
Some people hate Mondays. Ok... many people hate Mondays. There is even a great song about it that I happen to love. People do however seem to like January 1st, whether it falls on a Monday or not. Everyone starts talking about the new year as a fresh start, and many...
Hitler Died a Happy Man
I dream a lot, as most people do, but I like to think my dreams are different than many people's and I tend to remember my dreams pretty well. In the spring, my dreams can be even more elaborate, and very dialogue intensive. It's 5:31 as I write this post, and I just...
Orange Origin
Orange This color's name derives from the Sanskrit word for the fruit naranga. (Yes, the color orange was named after the fruit, not the other way around). This transformed into the Arabic and Persian naranj, and by the time of Old French to pomme d'orenge. It was...
GIVE IT 100
https://giveit100.com/@frogstar42/g151wu This site inspired me to make a 10 second video every day on a project. I chose to document my struggle to find a bit more money in 2014. It's been fun.
My first commercial
It’s Pie Time!
My family have always been game players, although I was almost always a loser. We played card games, board games, and a few sports. I never really was good at any of them. When I moved out, much of the world was discovering video games, but I never got very good at...
Cheap Android “test” Tablet
I recently bought a cheap 7" tablet from a foreign "free shipping" web site and it's horrid. Really really bad. In fact, I can't even browse the web or watch any video at all. However, I don't consider it a waste because I have learned from it that I really do want...
My “hook”.
Sometimes I think about my stories, and how I'll be remembered in the future. Life is long, but other people's lives are infinite. As my friends grow older and have kids, it makes me wonder what their life will be like. Their future. I remember back to my childhood,...
Shows I Watch: Spring 2013 Edition
While checking out some older BLOG entries today I found a list of the shows I watch from 2011, and decide to do a new one. Person of Interest Rules of engagement Big Bang Theory How I Met your mother The Soup Jimmy Kimmel Live (Opening only, usually) Daily Show...
DRAW SOMETHING
Sometimes I’m sad when I check my DRAW SOMETHING, and people just guessed the drawings and did their own. Some of the stuff I did was funny, or cute and should have yielded a comment. Come on! You have to comment on that!
The Gift of a Story
I’ve been told a lot of great ideas come to people when they visit the bathroom. As a rule, I don’t spend as much time in the bathroom as some people I know. I don’t have reading material, and I don’t sit around for very long after doing my business. However, I do...
Rabbit
It has been a long time family tradition of mine to say RABBIT as the first words on the morning of the first day of every month. As a kid, we used to try to have it be the first thing, but more importantly, we said it to each other in the family before the other...
Elevator Dreams
I casually mentioned my sideways elevator dreams in a Facebook status message this morning, and two of my friends mentioned they'd had similar dreams. In my dream, I am often frustrated, because I get into the wrong elevator, and this one travels goes between...
I tried Green Olvies
I ate green olives today, probably for the first time ever. I say probably, because the event was so un-memorable, it is conceivable, I have done it before, and just forgot. The taste had a slight familiar feel to it, almost as if I thought was green olives ‘should’ ...
The Universe in a blink
It’s amazing how fast the brain is. A whole universe can be imagined in a thought. You look at your watch, and almost no time had passed at all. I arrived for my appointment at the Artful Dodger early, and sat outside in the sun on a bench next to a tree, just...
Apartment Rental Scam
I'm looking for a new place to live this spring, so I decided to check Craig’s List. A friend had told me there are a lot of scam artists there, so I thought I’d have some fun and go in search of the fake ads. Deals too good to be true. I sent a few emails off to...
Quebec: Point form notes about things I noticed.
Went to Quebec this past week. Things I noticed: No pirate pay phones. All the pay phones were Bell, like Ontario used to be. Later, in one district of old Montreal, they were all TELUS payphones. No hot dog street vendors. Not one, anywhere I could see, and we...
New Weeks Resolution
I like Monday. I think of it as a mini-new week, and I start fresh with resolutions. Recently I blogged here about no longer reading books, or more accurately, ebooks on my phone at lunch. Instead, I have been reading Facebook and playing Jewel games. At that...
Being alone in a crowd
Long time readers of mine will know I much prefer being in a partnership or relationship to being alone. I've often said I fell co dependant without the co when alone, and the happiness of others gives me purpose. Having said that, I will also admit that being alone,...
The Smartphone taught me to read.
I had a smartphone before you did. Long before. It took me a lot of mental memory just now, but I figured out this is actually my sixth smartphone, and third format change. My first, a black and white Kyocera was my entry into the hand held world of computing and my...
Pizza Hut lunch. The End.
I was called in to work today when my plans ahead of time had been to stay in and catch up on old work I was behind on. Yesterday had also been a day when there was a big difference between what I expected and what actually happened. When I fall behind, I tend to get...
Life might be insanity.
There is a famous saying I have often quoted as used in other writings, "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results." Today, it occurred to me that life itself, is a series of loops, and if we don't learn and grow...
Commercials
The first one that breaks the piñata gets less than everyone else. I just saw a commercial where they implied that training in life is good, and they used an example of a girl who twirled herself at home for hours so she could handle the blindfolded twirl at her...
The Bigger the Crowd
The Toronto Riots of 2010 The bigger the crowd, the more people show up for it. A quote I heard comedian Gallagher speak as part of a larger routine, that I have never forgotten, and occasionally use in general conversation. People do love a crowd, and it builds,...
Unzip Etiquette
I was surprised today to notice a man unzipping his fly as he walked into the public restroom. He didn't wait till he was at the urinal. He did it as he entered. I wondered if Emily Post has a rule about that.
Misplaced Pride: Bad Teeth
Somehow by accident, I misplaced pride upon my horrible disgusting mouth. It happened a while ago without me noticing, right around the time I decided to do something about it, and created a light at the end of my ugly mouth tunnel. Since I’ve been thinking about how bad my teeth are, I’ve felt the need to tell others. Things nobody wants to hear.
Bertha is dying.
Bertha is the somehwhat shameful name given to my laptop by Syndi, because at the time I bought it, it was considered huge. Bertha seemed a "fat" name, and this was one of the first laptops I'd ever seen with a big screen and a keyboard so wide, it included a numeric...
Convention Observations
I sit on a bench, watching people at a fan run authors convention in Toronto. I see people walk around aimlessly, which makes me understand, and happy to realize it's not just me. Doing things alone sucks, because memories don't get stored as well as stories.  One...
The Universe Provides
The thing I find the most curious about life, is the way the universe provides. I have said it often, as the world before me does things in the right time. Something I need appears. I have been going through some new mental challenges with a life change, and loss of...
First Date
Good day! It’s 7am, and my name is not Fred Savvage. I went on a first date the other day. My first in a while, but that's not important today. My date had suggested a walking tour of the Art Gallery here in Ontario. I decided not to spend too much time thinking into...
Just a guy.
My name is not Arthur Dent, and as much as I like to think I’m a great mind in today’s society, I know I’m just a guy. However, I strive to be a great mind. I am currently reading a really fascinating book about the history of discovery through time, and I am somewhat...