Good idea I’ve decided I won’t do
Despite being aware that nobody is checking out this blog except Romanian botts and search engines, it still keeps me happy and gives me something to do each day instead of sitting around on my bed doing drugs like the stereotype junkie. I can tell myself it’s a great learning experience, and it is, but… Read More »

Good idea I’ve decided I won’t do

Despite being aware that nobody is checking out this blog except Romanian botts and search engines, it still keeps me happy and gives me something to do each day instead of sitting around on my bed doing drugs like the stereotype junkie. I can tell myself it’s a great learning experience, and it is, but in the end, I’m doing it because I enjoy it. It’s almost like I finally found a hobby at 59 years old, and I’m not surprised that my hobby is also what I’ve called my job for 3 decades. It’s the easy hobby. I was already doing it for money. Now I do it for pleasure. Working on my own projects also has the benefit of not working to a deadline, and not stressing over whether my vision is going to be OK with the client. Most wouldn’t let me design sites with a dominant orange colour. I tried.

Every day I wake up and start working on this site, or my other project. It keeps me on routine and gives me some form of purpose while simultaneously allowing me to ignore and procrastinate on any other tasks I really should be doing. It’s perfect.

It surprised me how much work it is just to fiddle around with a hobby website. i make so many changes every day, many of which are invisible unless you know. It sounds like a good idea to keep a “blog log” and document my work… but then the part of my brain that shoots down all good ideas with crushing negativity decided it would change things for the worse. A change log would be a responsibility. A task I am supposed to do every day. It would suddenly make every other task part of a list, and I’d start overthinking. It would also give visitor a list of things they might feel entitled to comment on. Suddenly my hobby blog is receiving judgement. 

Documenting my progress could actually halt it.

My brain has learned exactly the right things to say in order to avoid work. It’s very sneaky but it works. There will be no progress report.

I feel better already.

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