I work as a web designer and internet technical support. Blog posts in this category will be about computers or my web design projects.
I work as a web designer and internet technical support. Blog posts in this category will be about computers or my web design projects.
I've written many times of how I ignore or avoid things that are important in favor of doing other things that are less important. Important tasks for customers often get put aside until they complain and even then longer. It's one of my most frustrating traits and...
I got in two naps today because my body told me I needed them, and more. My motivation on the new club website project has hit a bump, because it's go so many...
I am experiencing a mental block that's trying to prevent me from continuing work on my new website project. I've had enough time to overthink and predict future failures so my excitement and enthusiasm in the creation of the project has dipped a little. This is not a new thing for me. It's actually the opposite and the new thing is how well I was working on it for so long. I give that to the...
I have a saying I like to use often in life. Life has so many things that you may never know about unless somebody tells you about them, and I enjoy being that guy. I want to do this more, but it has a bit of a mental block in my head because so many content providers have started posting TikTok or other platform versions of short websites you didn't know about. Some are so awesome, I'll use one...
Despite being aware that nobody is checking out this blog except Romanian botts and search engines, it still keeps me happy and gives me something to do each day instead of sitting around on my bed doing drugs like the stereotype junkie. I can tell myself it's a great learning experience, and it is, but in the end, I'm doing it because I enjoy it. It's almost like I finally found a hobby at 59...
Styles and filters in bulk
Somebody somewhere in the world was using up my website resources and keeping everyone out with 503 errors.In order to try and resolve this, I went searching and my host has some pretty amazing security features that I didn't know about that I'm going to probably test a little bit more and then turn on for many of my customers. Things that should have been on all along for security...
Another half day down and the rest is the hard part
It's the start of a new year and all the Christmas and holiday and boxing Day activities are behind me and yet, I stalled today. It's almost 5:00 p.m. and I've done virtually nothing today. I hope I can snap out of this and return to semi-productive web work. I made the attempt a couple of times today. I did manage to find a voice to text tool for Chrome that works within WordPress. I probably...
I didn't want to get down over the holidays. I pretty much ignored them and stayed inside as is my way in December. It's now the 3rd of January and I still seem unmotivated to start fresh. I'm in a blah mood I didn't expect especially since I was doing so well creating the new website. I think I got in my head too much that it was going to be a failure and why was I spending so much energy on...
I refuse to acknowledge my doubt.
I'm never fully sure what time I fell asleep. I know that I woke up around 9:30am and it was nice. Oi could get used to that, but as soon as he goes back to work, the animals demand an earlier wake up feeding and release from the chicken coop. I prefer being a morning person anyway, although these days I've become more productive after 7pm than 7am. They're just routines and I can change my...
I've been working full days on the new website project over the holidays. On many ways I am impressed with myself, which of course leads me to suspect the good mood. I will find fault with my happiness soon enough. Onviously I am maintaining those hyper focus mostly because of my meth usage, which has been surprisingly low. That's because I amp up on the morning, and hardly stop working till...
It can be frustrating to lose hours work... Or several days work. It could be deviating for my moral and halt my progress. This is where I am tonight, at midnight on a Friday. Thanks to my meth-focus brain, I have been able to work on this new project for three days. My attention to the task is pretty much constant. I stop for breaks and then forget to take a break. I want to get something ready...
The last four days were fun. I stayed hyper focused and got quite a bit accomplished. It felt good. I was getting things done that have needed attention for a while. Then my brain got in the way. The closer I got to completion the more I realized the truth. It won't be what I wanted it to he. It'll be too much work and I don't know what I'm doing and everyone hates me. Basic gear stuff. As long...
I'm laying in bed at 2:45am thinking about all the stuff I need to do to get serious about my life-long website dream project. I'm getting old and it would be nice to find success for my next chapter. It would be nice to be validated by at least the recognition it was a good idea. Having a genius business plan means nothing if you don't get the help to do all the right things beyond the concept....
I have been working on this website for two days straight, and by that I mean without breaks.
There’s a way to use Google Chrome extensions on your phone but you can’t get it from Google.
There is a new app that will cartoon-ize videos now, and I like the way I look as a meth smoking cartoon character.
I'm trying my best to get some major exciting progress on the task I've been hyper focusing on for a few days. I had some setbacks today but I finished what I consider a good day of work.I'm still keeping the negative thoughts away,so I like the website idea at this pace. The longer I postpone failing and moving on, the more life I'll have filled with things I like, right up until I don't.I've...
Since I figured out a little bit more about how my brain works and what I need to be productive, it's been a a benefit and a negative. I can use it as a crutch to not be productive simply because I'm not doing one of the things that allows me to be productive, if that makes any sense. One example is troubleshooting. It's exciting and interesting until it's not. This week I had two customers...
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Hello, I'm orange Jeff and this isn't orange shirt blog. You can't currently see that I'm wearing an orange shirt but I'll include a photo when you can trust me that it's current. For the most part, I live in a single bedroom on my bed. I compute there eat there I sleep there and watch TV here I don't do too much else except a few times a day let the dogs out and feed the chickens. that is my...
The "day off" Wednesday didn't fully turn out the way anyone expected but it was a reasonably productive day despite frequent interruptions. I should not have been surprised that my evening feeding chore had already been done. I wish I had known in advance. I might have taken transit into the downtown area as I've been wanting to, but I know I probably would not have anyway. I really have no...
I enjoyed this weekend. I was in a good mood the whole time and had some good social conversations with my housemate without having to take care of the animals or anything for Saturday and Sunday. I forget what I worked on yesterday but today I split my day focusing (literally) on a new camera app for my phone and recreating my personal blog site and my private blog site with new design layouts,...
I kind of think I was always this way but I can't be sure because of the way my memory works. I make stupid mistakes, I knock things over, and I don't foresee the consequences of things I do before I do them. Today's example was quite unfortunate and I can't get away with it I will definitely have to confess to it and that's too bad. As one of the tasks I do to feed the animals it's to make a...
It's Wednesday and it seems a bit off this week because I was a bit off. I've recovering again today but I've been ignoring the bad conveniences of starting late. My life these days is all about juggling the timing of when I ask for money and when I can expect it. I have never left sending out my invoices until the end of the month like I did this month, bit I also had some surplus to be...
This is not an embed. Thats false features. It's a link. I could have done better. First 30 seconds are blank screen. OrangeJeff Webcam Stream https://t.co/3obuNplMtC— Orangejeff420 (@orangejeff420) June 9, 2022
In an attempt to be more productive without adderall, I ingest a certain amount of meth each morning. It's a very subtle incline and it's easy to miss the sweet spot where you can still think enough to do the job and have the stamina to continue and the focus to function. The problem is I tend to go past that spot into the I'm too high to think I can't choose between this or that but I can do it...
My bedroom clock somehow lost almost an hour while I was away. Unusual because it's never really needed adjustment before. Perhaps it slows when the battery weakens. I guess that makes sense. Some things just stop working when the power gets low and others work slower. My body does both. Yesterday was a detox day. No drugs and I didn't get out of bed. Today could easily have been the same but I...
I seem to have reached a blah plateau tonight. Too high to care. Still dehydrated and bacteria tongue. Didn't eat any real food. Just bagels and chocolate. No interest in pornography or hypnosis. Maybe one of those brainwash videos finally worked. I'm avoiding the very real life in front of me. Things need to be done. Even this blog needs to be updated with the news. 12:,35 fresh clouds. No...
I'm sitting on my bed naked with a towel and 10:30 a.m. on the last day of May. In a couple of hours I will hand the keys back for this home and be done with this memory for now. My first month back into Toronto. Starting tonight I go back to Niagara Falls and that life. It will either theme familiar and happy or seem familiar and I'll remember why I wanted to leave in the first place. Coming...
Of I start with the assumption that I will discover ways to be unhappy with any choice, doesn't it makes sense to pick the easier ones? It's hard to keep everyone happy. Money doesn't motivate me. I just want to live without being yelled at.if no option is ideal, then pick one without a 4 hour daily commute. The need to find an affordable home is also a key factor but after a month living in the...
Yes Hello. I'd like to exchange this current life for a new one. I don't like the amount of effort involved. I was mislead about how it would be better. I realize I've only had this new life less than 30 days and I can change my mind and go back to my previous option of no life if I wasn't satisfied. I'm as surprised as anyone. Who would have guessed I would prefer the life I constantly...
I forgot spontaneous move day was a Monday. A work day. Each new trip teaches me something or provides a new story. Forgetting to secure a place to live will be inconvenient and possibly really hard to get past. Pause... High TV time.
Yesterday ended in an exhausting mood swing. My new job is a lot to adjust to, even for me; a guy who talks about adjusting to change like it's my superpower.If I'm honest with myself, I know I'm cheating this time. The way I've adjusted to a complete reset in my life is to get high, stay focused, stay happy and coast until something happens.I know it's wrong, and the problems are starting to...
Today I started with the last of my focus medication. A smaller dose. It faded around 2pm and since 4pm I have basically done no additional work. I remember this feeling. I can't lock in and work. Even the easy tasks seem to difficult to tackle. Even writing this blog post was difficult. I wanted to say a lot, but as soon as I started, I didn't want to anymore. Staring into the screen as my mind...
Around 1pm, the last effects of my morning focus medication have out. My brain stopped working. I'm on a lunch break but my head is once again filled with all the thoughts, worries and anxiety it's been filtering fine till just now. I am lost. I don't know what to do.
I'm not really feeling the blog inspiration this morning. I was looking forward to it on the walk to the bus station. It is a nice spring day and I was alert and feeling the confidence needed for a good day of work and overall progress. Although it's Thursday, it's like a second Monday. I took Wednesday as a freak out vacation day. This means a two day streak is the schedule to beat. Maybe...
It's a Tuesday here in Toronto but it feels a bit more like a Monday because we had a long weekend holiday Monday. It was supposed to be a rest day so I could start my office job again. I have only worked 4 days before they shut us down to stay at home with COVID. My experience was quite mild because of was vaccinated. That's the story I choose to go along with anyway.I am eager to return to...
I moved back to Toronto and found a nice little place for the first month to stay started work on Monday and on Thursday I left early. Friday we were closed for the whole next week with covid and I didn't blog a bit. I didn't really move much. I just sat in bed alone playing and watching TV. This Monday is a long weekend so I don't have to start till Tuesday and it seems like the whole month is...
The plans for today are in flux. As I was turning the key to lock the back door, my phone rang. My co-worker informed me that our boss has tested positive for Covid-19 and I should not come in to work. My mind floods with different thoughts and possible futures. Suddenly I might have to deal with adult living in a new home, while sick. I'm not ready to complicate my life with a major sickness....
Technically my Thursday at the bus stop but only my second day of work because discovered I didn't have any way to pay for the bus so it took the day off despite it being only my second day. I will stand by my testimony but it was a legitimate mental health day I couldn't pay for my bus I freaked out of all of that and then realized it was better because I needed to give my haircut and I needed...
It's hard to describe in words the way that I tend to freak out. It's kind of like... An explosion of thoughts followed immediately by a vacuum of no thoughts. In a moment I am aware of the failure and all the ways it will effect me and any others involved, and the a peace wave where I just stop thinking and want to go to sleep. My mind then starts the process of trying to resolve whatever the...
I know I should not be concentrating on the negatives but... I'm still smiling despite the setbacks. The amount of failing can hopefully make a numerous story. I am still sporting my long hair and full beard. Apparently all the neighbourhood barbers close at 6 or are the over $45 haircut stylists. I found a place to go to directly after work tonight. It's a smart lesson to make all my evening...
I foolishly thought all bus stops were equal on the Queen West line, so I missed the earlier one, but Google maps says I should still arrive before 10 I'm on it now, and it is cool and bright and I found a seat although I'm conscious about still being a bit smelly. I'm still wearing the same jeans (unwashed) and orange hoodie. That is one of several ways I am u prepared for day 1. My hair and...
This bedroom is awesome. My bed is awesome. The heavy fluffy comforter is awesome. I sleep motionless and deeply. The waking up part is less awesome. I walked a lot yesterday and I'm not used to that yet, so my muscles remind me of that when I stand. I'm telling myself that will get better as it becomes more accustomed to the new routine, rather than it's just my body getting older. My regular...
I have not really had a sit at a desk all day job. It's been 25+ years since I've worked a job at all. This is a big life change in a few ways. I arrived promptly a few minutes before 10am with a bit of anxiety but as I entered, that was put to rest. It's a job among friends. The two principles have known me for decades. They know me and my quirks. From 10am till noon I felt great. It's around 3...
This of course may fade away until I recycle it again as my dream. It combines all my ideas. Helping people with a trust relationship. Encouraging discussion over the validity of ideas or business ideas. Creating communities and providing guidance on interaction. Learning from trusted faces Referrals are the best Manners because it's closed by invite Commissions and sales and services. Stores...
I haven't been this busy in over 2 years so of course I sleep till 4:00 p.m. It's 4:30 now and I want to go back to sleep. I didn't answer two calls both of which were quite vital. One I've been waiting for from a client capable of paying a salary-based contract fee. Just wasn't the right time. I'm making people hate me.
The last two years started this week. Job loss, car loss, home loss. I managed to find a new home for 70 days and then a new home again where I am now. It happened fast. This time I'll have some money and need to find a home fast again but without relying totally on luck and the kindness of friends. And yet- it seems harder than finding a free place to stay. Having people offer free space was an...
There is a phycology principal that describes the way failure can become a part of your identity. It makes change difficult because the future is unknown, but one's present lifestyle has become comfortable. I am aware of this. I understand it. I am conscious that I may be terrified of my future so much so, that I sabotage the opportunity to succeed and remain in my somewhat current situation,...
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I snorted. I smoked. I boofed. It's all gone. I'm feeling a bit energetic but this month I did a lot of it and my tolerance obviously went up. It took quite a few bong hits to even feel awake. My real problem now is that I don't have a lot to do, and my mood towards it is blah. Maintenance web work is at a minimum. There isn't any mentally stimulating work to do so the task list stays unchanged....
I slept well and had some cool dresms. I woke up a bit later and it was nice. I knew today would be my last day with meth for a while. I have one customer to deal with, and I've been avoiding them too long. Avoiding. That is probably my worst attribute. I hate doing it because the customer gets more agitated the longer I ignore them, and that makes me want to avoid them more. I've given up on...
I woke up at about 8:15am and decided today was a day to give some of the week's backlog of unfinished tasks the attention they needed. That lasted about 15 seconds before I returned to this stress-free website project. I really would like to finish the webcam streaming functions without resorting to external live stream resources. I know it is possible because it was working fine until it...
It occured to me just now one reason I choose to do the projects that don't matter. This website has no viewers or followers, so nobody cares. It's the one I work on. I have other projects that would benefit from this kind of attention, but attention means review and judgment. It comes with the potential to fail.
I don't want to start work. It's less fun than doing nothing.
I'm wrong. It is in fact already the second Monday of the year. I did not have a great night, but I do try my best to be productive on Mondays. it's my favourite day of the week. A fresh start. I have been doing tiny incremental advancements on my personal projects in between TV and sleeping. I learned from my housemate to consider all my open projects and goals to be in progress. If I spend 15...
This an open note on my desktop, so I can write down any burst out ideas while I try to work and be productive today, even though I'm pretty sure I will be easy to convince to take a break. This is Friday and my break was all week. I have been in an internal manic mode filled with joyous optimism about starting a project. It's hard, because my brain is conditioned to avoid starting anything I've...
I woke up at 6am and started my Monday right away. I turned on the webcams and started recording footage for what might be used for the making of The Orange Jeff Show. I have a new optimism fueled by a new fan, a new month, a growing need for change and of course, a morning boost of drugs. Monday is a downtown office work day for me. I should be out the door towards the bus stop by 830am but...
Since birth, I have been inventing games.I hardly do anything in a row without turning it in to some game. It's been a mechanism of not feeling repetitious and boring When you have to be repitious and borning. Not biring... just less interesting. It occurs to me that I have a game which might be fun in a char room like KiK. This is one of those moments that qualifies and genius is still...
Idea. I would like to make $2000 a monh and not much more. I want to create a site to win the market. A site that is not on;y free, but BETTER than all those crap sites that don'y actually have real people or elegable. Site Idea: Â social network Craigslist JUST for Toronto. Craigslist style personals lists in several categories. Personal ads or even personals pages and blogs. A social...
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COMMUNITY BASED BROADCAST STUDIO#torontodrugs#canadadrugsDreams that actually came true.FROGSTAR.TV is part of the Frogstar family of related sites.KIK chat group website #torontodrugs#canadadrugs Access to this website from Canada only. This page was created to introduce a the idea of a blog that can be shared by thge people of the KiK chat groups #drugstoronto and #drugscanada If you would...
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There is a certain freedom from having a blog you didn't tell anybody about. A place that gets no visitors and contains so many thousands of posts that I have a confidence nobody I know will ever see this. I can vent freely and mention specifics of my work life without fearing they'll find out. It's a general rule you don't talk about customers to other customers because, just like best friend...
I have not yet given them what they asked for. A timeline of services to do and to expect. It keeps changing. But now I can. I'm done. Sort of. It resolved the troubleshooting periods anyway. Which is the important one. I am finally confident I can do what is needed to connect everyone in the office from Microsoft exchange server to the Google GSuite cloud network, and in the process, have an...
I toked. I sat straight up and made the choice to get out of bed and go to the computer. For years (I thought) I've been getting high some nights in bed, and whether or not I start to write or record is not always easy. Sometimes I just get high and watch TV. But in my head, I'm always thinking and creating and pondering. I mentioned to my psychiatrist that I often think about life like I'm...
I've kind of modeled my life around a false confidence and knowing just a little more than the people asking the questions. I try to know the answers, or at least remember them the second time anyone asks. This particular job had been stressful. It's been a very long time since I've had pressure on me to be an expert with such exposure and reliance. I'm used to supporting issues and...
