I don’t consider it a relapse because it was never my intention to quit. I do see the irony of trying to keep my usage a secret while maintaing a public blog.
I remember Sunday Nights
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I am an Orange
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1am Again.
I can't tell if my insomnia today is real or in my mind. I'm not sure that it matters all that much, because either way, I'm still awake at 1:00 a.m. and I anticipate it's made last the whole night. Early this morning I blogged about how small a quantity of meth smoke...
Plans from inside my dream
I had very specific plans to do something when I woke up this morning. I had worked them out while I was asleep...kind of. I'm not sure about that limbo of almost asleep where my dreams may or may not be dreams. They might just be thoughts. In any case, I had a task....
The challenge of challenges
Since I figured out a little bit more about how my brain works and what I need to be productive, it's been a a benefit and a negative. I can use it as a crutch to not be productive simply because I'm not doing one of the things that allows me to be productive, if that...
Discovering an OOPS the next day.
Most times I make an error, I know immediately because it's obvious. Something falls over or fails. Sometimes somebody else finds out for me, which I hate. Today I discovered my mistake this morning. It confused me at first. I couldn't believe it. A lot of times when...
Emotional restoration
I don't know how long it's been since I gave up using drugs, at least temporarily. I think it's been about two no three weeks. That doesn't sound right because it's only October 4th, but I remember sober weekends and I've been eating a lot more food, which means...
Things are methed up
There was a brief time when things looked like they were going to be alright. I was on the prescribed dosage of amphetamine and Paxil and I wasn't depressed. I was confident and doing OK. Today I am not. I still have some of that newly discovered confidence, and I...
Friday December 7th
The Friday night video was recorded after a nice DAB toke of quality indica shatter. In other words, I got really high and started talking to the camera. Videos like this are often very abstract and hard to follow because my A.DD really kicks in when I'm...