As I was typing a typical long winded wordy reply to a video, a new thought occured to me. We use our word choice to signal our peers. This may seem obvious but it just occurred to me tonight. I use a vocabulary and sentence structure that is showing a certain level of intelligence. Other...
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting and the temptation to be creative and look for ways to make it fun can actually distract and make...
As I hit save, I have absolutely no memory of what this blog was about.
Sometimes the parent says it's bed time and sometimes the brain insists it'll be fine if we hit the Tina pipe again before sleep This is as dumb as so many things we let ourselves pretend to believe, in order to pull from the instant gratification puddle for another...
I have a 10gb data plan on my phone. Now that I am actually leaving my home more than once a month, it was time to upgrade. I will be traveling alone for two hours each morning and returning each evening. I can look out the window some days but it was clear I'd be...
You see an online virtual mall filled with flashy storefronts and top notch animated advertisements everywhere. You walk down the pathway in awe at how many options there are to spend money on a seperate universe. You see a new store is opening up where the old...
I think there may be a market For an extra set of classes to teach non school stuff. Common sense. Life lessons Real talk How to be black Dating. Manners. Respect all need to be taught. Things that go without saying should be said more often End
I have discovered once again that more isn't always worth it. For me at least, sometimes I need a higher than average dose, but it is also true that less weed can be just as good for a sufficient high to get my typing or talking to myself, via these blogs. I will...
I wasn't totally honest about my cold turkey. Mmmmm... I love turkey. I'm up past midnight
It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've...
People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I can certainly think about a few ways I've changed. I can imagine my close friends might notice even more changes. I had...
I was distracted to the bright moon out my window. It changed the overthinking. I have so many current projects that were exciting before sleep and after waking up, I embrace my now and never give all my recorded media blogs a second draft. The joy in writing is...
I have do much to share but let's see what gets retained long enough for the blog. I flip flop a lot. Often several times a minute as I internally debate decisions. If I stall long enough somebody else will make it. My phyciatrist has a standard procedure of always...
It's never a good idea to start any lecture or essay or book, or any piece of writing or talking. Let's just say it's never good to start with; I've completely forgotten what I was going to say. When I say I've completely forgotten what I was going to say, in that...
I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least....
I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No...
Back to work. It's the Tuesday after labour day. I started work early but it didn't last too long as I have little actual work, and I'm still fighting my home based depression. I put a desktop computer on a pop up table at the end of my bed. I don't have to get up to...
My Regularly Scheduled Friday. Today feels like the right day. I distinctly remember each day of this week, and although I wasn't up to my usual productive levels, I did actually interact and produce some work each day. Not a lot of work and not the stuff I planned or...
It's hard to convey how warm my workspace is. Recently I took 8 pieces of my cholate bar out of the fridge. Normally I take 4 at a time. After I'd enjoyed the first bar of 4 pieces, I reached for the second 4 and my fingers were surprised by the texture. The 4 pieces...
It's been a bad week, and I know it was the wrong choice to remain in my bedroom, silently avoiding the confrontation that must happen today. Predicting outcomes with worry and stress is never a good plan, but when your landlord could kick you out with anger and no...
It's Wednesday of the week back work week and as of 5pm, I've done nothing. I had a glorious uninterrupted restorative sleep last night during a thunderstorm. I woke up at 730 and then went back untill about 1045. Since then I've just sat around playing on my phone...
I had intentions to make this a good Monday and followed through. Not the best of days, but a somewhat productive day. I started early, having learned the key to success is not falling back in bed for a second sleep. The sun wakes me around 730. I don't know why I am...
I woke up this morning and stayed up. It's almost noon and instead of sleeping back to back. My dreams over the last week have been vast and elaborate. They somehow got linked to duty and dreaming was a part of a mechanism. I felt ok to be sleeping as a day job. No...
This isn't the first time I have sincerely been surprised to discover it is Friday. I ever seem to live Thursdays anymore. I really believed today was Thursday. Another entire week has passed and I've done almost nothing but sleep, dream, and write about sleeping and...
I may or may not.
There are several things in my life that I would like to be different from right now. Making a list of them may be depressing because a lot of them are probably easy fixes and minor changes. I would like to be able to shower. Right now. This instant. I would...
Loud bright thunderstorms I stayed up. I hope the heat breaks. I'm a little afraid, to be honest. I'm living in a trigger sensitive situation where a volatile person may lose control of his temper this morning. AT ME I currently hear the sound of a...
I keep tumbling some of my ideas around trying to believe they could work. As noted though, ideas are just the start and I'm seldom here for the work. I wondered if a personal assistant might handle reception, scheduling and Web projects. In exchange for the hobby,...
I'm giving this one a second try. At the very least, you know, isn't quite as distracting. But I'm very easily distracted. I mean, something took me away from pizza. Not right don't go on camera when they're eating pizza. doesn't seem right for the day Really is...
They have a saying that anyone could be president and some people laugh that off. But the truth is, anyone probably can become president. If managed by smart people. All you need to do is be some people's favorite. And they'll bulk that in and buy everything you're...
0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I...
The idea of stories we tell our own stories and my stop here. I don't feel motivated to expand upon my universal stories just now. It's better to cling to it, with high hopes and optimism. Say it out loud, realize how lame might be.
I've been telling a story lately about how I used to combat bullies in my life simply by making it less fun for them. This morning I think I see that idea being used against me in a similar way. I'm uncomfortable in my new life because they are not accepting my...
I'm still to high to blog effectively which makes it the best time to blog. But I can't. It's too much brain power and I keep forgetting my ideas before I can get to the keys. Goodnight part 1, blog 2. End if part 1.
Have u mentioned the rock bottom practice of burning the brown spots off my collection of pipes. I don't clean, I conserve. I deckareto my usual tea party friends I was out and would be for a while. Zeppelin. I can hear my heartbeat kind of like a hirserace. I reach...
The couple I find myself living with now are pretty close to perfect, almost in a Stepford wives way. They are forgiving, patient, understanding and best of all, they don't yell and fight. I feel bad of course for being me, and doing secret drugs all the while...
Running gag. No, you're saying it wrong you have to say Zeppelin with the Canadian Zedd Idea for brother widow Would you trust m| in your s}ace? We have to be Tik talk fou# Famo{is bit drugs are as open as you're willing.
It might be worth considering buddypress isn't the best option for my future project it's certainly has a lot of stuff available but it seems to be a little incompatible with jiffy have to be fair I don't think I need giphy as much as I thought I did it since I don't...
There's an old saying if it's too good to be true it probably is it's an odd statement for sure because lots of things are good or true however it has come to my attention while trying to fall asleep that my current situation might just be too good to be true. True...
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Since birth, I have been inventing games.I hardly do anything in a row without turning it in to some game. It's been a mechanism of not feeling repetitious and boring When you have to be repitious and borning. Not biring... just less interesting. It occurs to me that...
Idea. I would like to make $2000 a monh and not much more. I want to create a site to win the market. A site that is not on;y free, but BETTER than all those crap sites that don'y actually have real people or elegable. Site Idea: social network Craigslist JUST...
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What if uranium wasn't harmful and deadly What if it's safe, but you click the right trigger the dinasaurs might get a second chance.. Story idea. The world is destroyed tonight at 6, but we've been reliving this day in a loop for 300 years. One child is born on that...
I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...
Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mici g up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying...
I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...
I think my current body high recipie is not good. I dont eat or do anything. Its blah mixed with thought, till I try to write. I dont know if I'll sleep, or try various distractions, which will all end beclause blah I have played this level. ...
I did a few things I don't usually do . I started new tasks and set forth ... I stalled doing real things, but I did feel productive. I had been enjoying alternative TV programming, using an old Android TV Nexus box and it's been great. This week, I switched to...
Seeking girlfriend. Flexible hours. Could lead to full partnership. I am lost. I never learned to live like a normal adult. I never lived alone. I don't like it. I'm bad at it. I believe I'm pretty good at being a boyfriend. I enjoy it. I'm a polite, respectful, well...
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It turns out we do thank God it's Friday. Old English Frīgedæg ‘day of Frigga’, named after the Germanic goddess Frigga, wife of the supreme god Odin and goddess of married love; translation of late Latin Veneris dies ‘day of Venus’, Frigga being equated with the...
I'll see how far I get. Hi. I'm orange Jeff. It's a Wednesday and I've snorted enough meth to keep me up till who knows when if I really pushed it. It's an old story, I told over a year and a half ago. My problem is the story is from this week. Twho days before...
https://photos.app.goo.gl/WLgSBp6AYKHF5JQ47 I am already thinking I might not share this, but 15 seconds ago, I was pumped. I was going to give away some of my million dollar ideas, and I use that number to show how old I am. Any good idea is worth more than millions...
It is a goal to be able to blog when I'm this high, but still have the quality be at least ... I paused. I deleted. I didn't know how to end that sentence. Hi. My name is Orange Jeff, and I'm high. Not very high, but quite high. I smoke a very tiny amount of a THC...
I toked. I sat straight up and made the choice to get out of bed and go to the computer. For years (I thought) I've been getting high some nights in bed, and whether or not I start to write or record is not always easy. Sometimes I just get high and watch TV. But in...
I woke up from another dream at around 7am today, a Wednesday, but it was a fresh awake wake-up. The first I've had since my medication screw up almost 3 weeks ago. I stood up, and didn't lay back down again. I sat at the computer and started my morning work routine...
I woke up from another dream at around 7am today, a Wednesday, but it was a fresh awake wake-up. The first I've had since my medication screw up almost 3 weeks ago. I stood up, and didn't lay back down again. I sat at the computer and started my morning work routine...
When I come to see my doctor and report on my Heath and progress, I forget it all. I don't remember the ride. I hate that.
Criminals often become criminals only after losing the last person they didnt want to dissapoint, All kids need is somone reliable that cares enogh for you to not dissapoint. then being nice no longer matters like killing the 7tg guy doesnt effect your sentencing as...
I hit a bump. A slump. A dump and I can't waste time on that. This has been a very educational week, and if I don't tuyrn it into a story, it goes into the vault without a good reason to be renenvbered, I am sad that the thoughts and expressions I imagined were...
I have an idea. If a cell phone vibrates because of a mechanism, it would follow that it's vibration is a consistent movement from one point to another is acreoeatingvseqyence. If we were to Tim at the appropriate frame rate, we would see the motion. If we witness it...
What if weight is real. Objects have a weight. Gravity is not a fircecst all. It is mostly the vibration frequency that allows things to pass through our universe and not float. Objects are heavier by mass and fall to ground because they have weight. With force it...
Old post - Out of date sequence I'm torn between two topics to write about tonight. The four women in my life. One, currently living with me while she comes to grips with her new reality and admits she needs help. Like decison making for you kind of sick help....
One of the early signs I'm off the wagon is 2am blogs and 4am blogs and 6am blogs and Second Life blogs. It means I'm staying up all night. I must have gotten high. It started with 5 Molly pills. I'd been without the pressed branded pills for about 2 years. The last...
I'm not sorry. I do not regret today's desision... But of course, I'd say that now, still under the influence of a euphoria I previous denied. I am euphoric and creative and excited. I have been writing all night. My normal behaviour was to take some MDMA and try to...
I realized quite a few things in tonight's high. I may remember some of them to type. 1) LRM 2. I might actually be better than just ok. Level up. Bonus Orange jello. c. I learned today that people almost never notice if you put the world the twice in a row. That was...
I'm deep. I don't mean to push the limits but I have a suspicion I have enough real friends with enough real concern for my actions regarding drugs, and in particular, my closet friends. I admit at this time to inappropriate disruption of my home's other occupant's...
I was excited to do some writing tonight. To fill in my journal with some of the things I've learned. How I've progressed. As I started, I realized I won't do most of that, bnecausse the excitement comes from a little bit of weed, and with that, comes horrible...
It's a week and a bit since I started the new perscription from my phyciatrist. I didn't really ask for the drugs, although that was my intent for the last three years. The whole story stems from me wanting to see if amphedimine based medication would work for me,...