Why I don’t like to finish what I’ve started.
Offline ramble. Distractions and Excuses
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fear
Morning brain sees different
I don’t know what to do with this information but my brain wants to believe it is one of many changes coming
I wish it was easier to describe a dream
A poor description of a great dream makes me ponder life and life choices.
YouTube and me.
I knew eventually my worlds were going to collide and people would find out about the drug side of me that has crossed the line for most people. Heroin and meth seem to be the drugs that scare people more than the others. They'll still be friends with you if you smoke...
Yesterday’s Rush Today
Yesterday, around 5am as near as I can figure, I stuck some bong water mixed with more of the drug up my ass using a syringe. It wasn't the first time. I didn't measure out anything. It was a rush much better than usual, and I stayed focused and working for over 12...
Sad & Worried -and scared
A flurry of emotions runs through me every time one of the indoor cats gets outdoors. Today it was extra sneaky and I couldn't avoid it. I tried my best but the big fat cat got out. I'm told not to worry as he gets out often and always comes back but lately he's been...
Why I fear a life with pain
I'm going to say things that may paint me as arrogant and ignorant, but I'm going to say I hate pain more than the next person. There.  I said it.  I hate pain,  a lot. It changes, y whole universe in a way most of you will not be able to comprehend... At least in my...