quick. blog during the 5 minute rush from melting a brown spot on the side of my bong. one cloud to go.
Day whatever. Still clouding
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30 bars of Walmart Cvocolate
I just borrowed the car and drove into town just to spend the last of my cash on chocolate.the last two times I tried, they were out of my brand. They're on a sale price and it's almost Halloween so I didn't know if I'd get lucky or not. Starting my mornings with 100 grams of cheap Swiss milk...
Wild mornings
Yesterday included some extra activities including getting four of the yearling calf daughters into a tiny trailer and a 90 minutes ride to take them to the meat processing ranch, otherwise known as the slaughterhouse. Doug will return at some point in the future with...
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Wild dreams and sleepy mornings.
That one dream I dislike
This blog entry takes a turn and becomes two separate posts in one. A dream universe revelation that inspired a whole new concept that could change my life again, but probably won’t.
The cat alarm
My morning started with purrs and pizza today. Big smiles.
I love remembering wild dreams.
Thoughts about my dream and my morning wake up. Actually thoughts about my dream that was about my morning wake up.
Pretending to sleep.
A clean Wake-up and meth refresh, ignoring how tired I should be – for now
Friday Fun
A short update on my Friday morning. I didn’t say much
Not everyone will get this. Always True
I can’t decide whether this is a deep philosophy post or a silly thought post. It did serve the purpose of inspiring me to wake up more and start my day.
Mornings are hard again.
My first official morning without drugs. At least that’s the plan.
The streak ended as the stock ran out.
Another week without and my blogging process has become less a priority as my life has less change than it did. An excuse.
I admit. Kittens can be entertaining
This kitten is growing on me a bit more each day.
Post feed report. Decisions
My post chore report where I have to decide what to do next and nap often wins.
Heavy Rough Slow Wake-up
Tuesday on fumes.
End of a high note, and the cookie is a bonus
Three revelations back to back. I’m a different person each day as I ration the last of my masking medication meth
Sunday Sleep in
Waking up groggy at 7:30 is different. I had some neat dreams but having drug dreams while I have drugs is new. Usually I'd have these types of dreams about two or three weeks after I'd run out. I'm not remembering my dreams as well these mornings but they definitely...
Breakfast choice
I really miss when I don't have a few pieces of my chocolate bar in the morning. That role used to be a Hershey's kiss addiction but the $1 chocolate bar not satisfies the craving as I wake up. Less fidgeting with those tiny wrappers. Today I realized two things about...
I’m saving manipulated memories
I just finished up my morning scan of social media and I recorded two short snap chats using new filters I found trending. It's just past 7am and I find myself with nothing else to do right now. Oh oh... That means I can think about things, and that's not always a...
Tuesday Morning Blog Video Extra
Continuing extra to the text blog. Moody Tuesday.
My morning routine.
Morning music video. Clips from the morning edited by OrangeJeff
My morning routine – animated.
This is an animated recreation of what I do in the morning. It’s not complete but it does show a couple of steps that happen every day
Sunday starts with Aero
A four piece of chocolate. A pimple on my dehydrated tongue tries to spoil the enjoyment I feel from the chocolate as it melts on my mouth. It's not my regular chocolate but it's still a refreshing way to begin my day. I made it till 6:15am this morning so I suppose I...
Happy Palindrome Day /420
Today is 4:20 which isn't super relevant to me since I haven't smoked weed in close to a year and even the edibles which are not considered 420 are not in my...
Pondering Life and Fridays
The concept of Friday has been bred into us over years as being the beginning of a weekend. The start of our combined relaxation and freedom. Of course when you don't celebrate weekends and your days are all the same Friday's seem less significant and yet in our minds...
The start bark.
It's 6:08am and I made a very quiet snap as I closed my bedside wYet bottle after my morning pill. Coincidence or not, it triggered the chain reaction that would begin the morning routine. A light rustling of the metal cage one floor directly above my head. There was...
Make today a Monday
I know it's a Sunday but part of my philosophy is that any day can be a monday. Fresh start. A day to get things done. In my case perhaps a day to clean.
I’m getting used to Thursdays
I woke up. I blogged. I ate chocolate. I started my day.
Inspiration from routine.
In recent days I have made some inspiring quotes to other people, in messages and comments. Today, as I woke up at 6am from a kickass awesome dream ready to start my day, it suddenly occurred to me that I have inspired myself as well. Sometimes, curly sans serif text...
Sunday Morning Vlog
Talking to the camera
Mmmm… That’s good hot slop
The new routine at least for the winter is pig slop, heated for 5 minutes on high. It stinks up the kitchen because the stove isn't clean, and as far as I can tell from the pig's body language, he not only doesn't care, I think he prefers it cool. But I'm heating it...
Half Random. Half Planned
My morning routine. Actually my whole day's routine is split into two different methods. There are part that I do on time every day specifics and then there are parts that are handled by the randomness of the dog's moods. Feeding the pig and the chickens is pretty...
I can almost remember
I had a good night's sleep and only woke up once I think just before midnight. Then again for the final time at 5:45 a.m. There's a unique state of mind that I'm not sure I've experienced before. I can remember having a dream, but not remember the dream. I definitely...
Daily Obligation Post
Daily affirmations are not for me… I do like the idea of a daily routine however
The rules of 4:20
When you wake up at 4:20 you have to respect it, and blow some clouds. Most people associate 4:20 with weed smoking, but I like to think the meth clouds dominate 4:20 AM Â Â
Morning whine with breakfast
I'm not sure why, but this morning, one of the dogs wanted my attention. Within minutes of the master leaving for work at 5:30am, I was disturbed from a really cool dream by his bark. It was a night time bark. Muffled just a little, like he was trying to whisper a...
Morning Rush
There’s a certain freedom in knowing that you’re going to do things today. And by that I mean you’re going to get high as soon as you wake up. There’s no doubt or debate. It just happens.Of course in this case, I didn’t really go to sleep so I didn’t wake up but it’s still the morning and I still got a rush.
The Sunday that was a weekday
I'm sitting outside with a beautiful bright blue sky at 7:30 a.m. I'm pretty sure the clocks changed on me last night but in this digital world I don't have anything to do anymore. It's automated and I didn't actually know up until now whether the clocks went forward...
8am wet food
It's not really raining hard this morning. I seem to be lucky so far this year that the rain is either before or after I need to go out and feed the animals. It was barely drizzling or spitting. I don't actually know if it was raining at all or if it was just the wet...
Always an adversary
I think we all need a nemesis or at least somebody that challenges us with opposing ideas for us to consider and learn from. Sometimes it's a Rooster, bit he and I have reached a point of acceptance for the most part. This week, the evil villain in battle with me is...
Monday morning dog surprise
Today was a special Monday, or at least it is supposed to be. It is the day I planned to finally throw out the secret garbage I've been keeping in my room for far too long. I call it secret garbage because I wouldn't want to throw it out using the normal procedure...
Slow Start
I don't want to start work. It's less fun than doing nothing.
The morning mental debate
Over the years I have created a number of different tricks to start my day better. I know what I need to do to wake up and start being productive. As soon as I realize I'm up, I turn on all the lights to full brightness and stand up and stretch. The key is to not go...
Checkpoint Failed
I slept well. I even had some dreams. When I woke up at 630am I had one of those glimpses into my life as a drug user. An evaluation checkpoint where I had to decide; do I restart the loop again now, or wait till later? I can feel the effects of dehydration. I don't...
The Monday Distracted Report
I woke up with a gasp today. As far as I remember, I woke up with a gasp about 40 times since 3am, when I finally fell asleep. There are so many things to write about this morning and I suspect I'll only remember to touch on a few. I'll try not to read into the many...
Morning Recap with Orange Jeff
I forget but I dont think... wait? I didcum. yes. changed my mind, lay back rest. 5am hershe kiss break. mmmm Fake slepp again. I wish I couldfind her. The co star that clicks and a storybook future of the mindy to my mork.
Oh yeah… magic meth.
I am awake day 3 or 4. I think… its 5:30am… I’m tired. This won’t be a very productive Thursday. SNOOOOORT… Oh yeah. I’m fine. Nobody even notices. Meth… Better for a morning refresh than coffee.