Tired and grumpy
I don't enjoy mornings without chocolate. Even more, I don't enjoy mornings without chocolate and meth. I'm tired. I want to go back to sleep. I could sleep another hour before feeding the chickens but I know from experience, that second sleep makes me even more tired. I'm grumpy. The cat came to...
From blag to ahhh
A rambling blog inspired by found drugs in the carpet once again. Life is better spun than none.
Memory recall. The odd cry mood
A wave of sadness and uselessness returns triggered by sobriety and unrelated comments I interpret personally.
The weaning continues.
A blog, a song, a video, all done after blowing the final clouds of my stash.
I shit you not.
That's an odd expression. I know.. at least I think I know I've heard out used before. I shit you not. Maybe it's in my head and it's not an expression at all, but I'm claiming it because I have not shit much at all this February. Maybe 4 or 5 good shots over only two days the entire month I think...
I tried… until 7:40am
The first day of my most recent “I’m out” phase where I begin the rationing and scrounging to make it last until I can re-up
Ask Grok about LSD
An informative answer from the AI Grok about LSD because none of the other AI’s will talk about it.
Ask Grok about Meth
An information page that answers the questions most AI Chatbots won’t about drugs.
The in-between days
Another one of those blah blogs where I contemplate the dullness of my current life.
It’s getting harder each day
a blog about blogging in a meh mood thinking about life.
Hello funk, my old friend
I don't spend a lot of time in darkness so I had to change the lyric. Instead of being really depressed, I just get in kind of a funk that lasts a few days. It comes and goes. I think what actually happens is when I go off my Paxil I start to think more about life and my situation and then when I...
When Wednesday is like a Monday
A blog, a video and a gallery, all before 8am
My fictional party
A fictional mini movie made with characters from Snapchat
The mental debate begins. Is it time?
My relationship with my daily drug has gone up and down over the last decade but somehow it seems different this last batch. I've discovered the feeling of the high part of my usage a little better. A slightly improved way of inhaling and a dosage that seems more intense. More regular usage also...
Still not sure, but ptobably
There are some things in life we lie to ourselves about. The word maybe is an indicator. When most people say maybe, they already have the choice made up. Maybe is used to let somebody else down easy without committing to yes or no, but it probably means no. As a kid, eventually we learn that...
Paying attention, or trying to
Let the world burn. Society is a spectator sport and I’m changing teams. If I can’t beat them, join them. XHail Trump
My variable self image
A moment of post master action reflection before I start my morning.
Abandoned but not lost memories
After my recent but not total loss of the website I recovered it but with lots of blank placeholders where there used to be messages. I haven't quite figured out why that happened but I'm ignoring it and moving forward. I downloaded a plugin that went through the entire system and found 4081 media...
Morning non-routine
I recently learned from a TikTok video that many of the things that I once considered a unique part of my personality are apparently quite common among people with ADHD or autism. One of the things that most interested me was the idea that routines were different for us then the typical human...
Hidden sadness
A blog post while I contemplate my drug use briefly before using and forgetting.
You don’t look high.
An opinion about people never looking the way we expect someone who is high should look. They welcome appear high.
The literal ups and downs of blogging
im back up. my blog survived.
Saturday Night Live and then some
relection on a Saturday night from a Dunday morning perspective.
It’s Pie Time on a Wednesday morning
Posted at 3:14 am. Pie time
Exhale and Repeat
Another original song with lyrics and editing by me and music by sumo.ai I like the idea of this video and I'm sad I will probably not get any fans commenting or even seeing it. I tell myself...
It’s crazy but…
Another late night choice. To use, or ot to use there is no question.
Friday 4am.
I still don't understand why Jetpack on the Android sucks so much. I also don't know why I keep giving it a chance instead of using...
Power out. Time to nap
A blog written without Internet when the power went out.
Nobody sings about drugs anymore
An original song by me and AI edited as a long series of mostly bad lip syncing imagery of Piper.
The Thursday Recap – I thought it was Friday.
An unusually happy life change for the usually gray depressing month of November.
How others perceive
The line that some people will never cross is different for everyone but the line that people won’t let me cross without dumping me as a friend often surprises me
The high isn’t always the reason
The obsessive decision loop that happens when I have to choose between sleep or going up for another night of drug induced distraction.
November Blackout blog
Up all night again not always by choice… At least at first.
Day whatever. Still clouding
quick. blog during the 5 minute rush from melting a brown spot on the side of my bong. one cloud to go.
Staying up for SNL
Pre SNL show.
The end of the Orange Month
I hear the "Just for Laughs" character in my head saying, "It's over." For years, it played at the end of almost every Just for Laughs comedy special, and I even used the sound once or twice in my videos. It would be something Canadians probably remember, but not many outside Canada. It's...
Enjoying the sunset for a change
Post lumberjack duties
Spun Monday
A Monday morning refection and review. I just realized I don’t really know what status quo means
30 bars of Walmart Cvocolate
I just borrowed the car and drove into town just to spend the last of my cash on chocolate.the last two times I tried, they were out of my brand. They're on a sale price and it's almost Halloween so I didn't know if I'd get lucky or not. Starting my mornings with 100 grams of cheap Swiss milk...
Blogging by proxi
Two blogs in one. The video blog, followed by a commentary on the process of using Lipsync with digitally altered or created faces
Post Birthday Blues
I'm doing ok. I finally had the nerve to ask about my drug use and the fact that everyone in the house is aware I use drugs. I'm not certain they understand it's meth but it's not vital since they seem somewhat accepting of it regardless. I'm a little concerned it may have been one straw in the...
The hitchhiker’s guide: meth
A little while ago I created it an AI chatbot that answered questions as if it was the hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy. Occasionally I will open it up and ask it to describe certain things and then I will ask it about those things on other planets like are there other planets with chickens or...
Friday. Birthday Eve
I've been far more conscious of how good I have it now that I am living with the security of a home and food. At the exact same time, I am continuously aware of how unfair it is to be in this position of advantage. Basically, I'm costing the couple that has given me this place to call home, a...
Honest and open post on my drug use.
An unfinished blog about merging all my blogs into one.
I offer my service to train ai
AI doesn’t know how to snort or smoke.
Oops. Another “late” Sunday
another sll night play atound with AI sessions
Not wasted being wasted
When I lay in bed all night awake, I consider that wasted time but when I actually do stuff all night wasted, it's productive. Although things didn't get done, I had fun and educated myself on new tools and AI image generators, video generators and more realistic lip syncing software. This week I...
The Drug Archive
Tumblr used to be where I posted most of my drug videos. These included memes, music videos and a lot of drug use on camera. Then one day they deleted everything without warning or explanation, so I'm building up my collection here. This is currently a gigantic unsorted collection going back...
A good story trumps reality
A first things when I woke up morning blog about Politics and Religion and how the best story and best storytellers often win. A story can trump reality.
Nice Dreams. What day is it?
A journal entry that takes a deeper meaning of life turn after I wake up and smell the clouds.
Mid week morning
A rather generic update on an uneventful week where I acknowledge but ignore my problems and continue existing with minimum effort.
A Monday Morning
A nice dream at that Vegas Hotel for an unspecified annual convention.
Choosing guilt over labour
My morning mood and cautious humour
Silence beats conflict
First car ride with my sister since I found out her husband wasn’t surprised by my drug use.
Dream Reruns
A good morning with some realizations to make it a better day. Don’t talk to me before I e snorted my morning meth
The ups and downs
Review of my day on meth
I can’t find my phone
I lost my phone and I might blame my new meth
the two sides of my thoughts
Describing the sadness. Thanks for mansplaining my mood
Doing the same thing over and over…because you forgot
Today was the day I noticed my position on the loop of drug use. The things I do every few weeks without realizing — until I notice it.
Shocking Awareness
--Original copy I learned a new piece of information yesterday that came as an absolute shock to me and I'm not quite sure how to process it. The revelation was presented to me in the middle of a...
Wild mornings
Yesterday included some extra activities including getting four of the yearling calf daughters into a tiny trailer and a 90 minutes ride to take them to the meat processing ranch, otherwise known as the slaughterhouse. Doug will return at some point in the future with packaged beef. We assume it's...
Waking up. Falling back. Waking up.
My multiple wake ups before feeling awake meant multiple cool dreams.
A PLUR based religion
A spontaneous blog post that turned into a bit of a rant against our current society and how we are taught hate by the organizations that claim to be kind and forgiving.
I can’t decide: Sad or Worried
I need another one of my silly errors today. The kind that could be blamed on ADHD but that doesn't take any of the guilt away because I still did it and it still part of a routine that shouldn't happen. It's the second time it's happened that I'm aware of but the first time it's happened with...
Monday Meth Music Movie
Another nice meth mini movie
Addiction Leverage
The idea of getting found out as a drug user living in a house owned by non-drug users is a constant fear. It's not so bad where I live now and my sister is currently aware although probably not fully aware of the amount of meth i smoke on a daily basis. I don't know how much her husband knows if...
I think I don’t remember
I haven't been blogging as much the past few weeks and I haven't really noticed it or thought about it much. It was my intention to keep it up and do it daily but not much is happening in my life these days. From start to finish, it's pretty much the same day repeated. Not quite light Groundhog...
I was on a break
My daily blogs have not been daily.
Insightful Chat I saved one day
[2020-01-31 4:38 a.m.] Brie: https://www.flickr.com/photos/185448132@N07 [2020-01-31 4:39 a.m.] Orange Jeff: thanks... although one pic? ha ha... you need a driver buddy for adventures. [2020-01-31 4:39 a.m.] Orange Jeff: and pics [2020-01-31 4:40 a.m.] Brie: I just started 🙂 [2020-01-31 4:40...
As of 8am, it’s a great Monday
I slept well and woke up and refreshed chemically. Did some good web design yesterday, had some good corn to eat and I'm ready for the day. I accidentally washed all my laundry yesterday without using any soap and they appear pretty much identical to if I had. Interesting. It reminds me of when...
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