I passed worry and fear weeks ago
It’s funny to think that there’s such a thing as bad math which would imply that there’s good meth and there is but it ain’t what I’ve got today
Accidental Meth Addiction Q&A
I cannot decide if this was a good reply or not, but meth says it’s a great example of meth addiction so I posted it feeling confident.
Decision Time. 2:34am
A 3am blog about what happens next. 4am, 5am. Are we set for a new music release, or work?
I listened to one of the early AI podcasts
A spontaneous life evaluation post. The kind I often have in January. Reflect on things I’m not planning on changing
The ewww but do it anyway ritual
The life of a drug user.
A weird place to be in my brain
Hard drug choices. Drugs are bad, but bad drugs are worse.
I won’t try this again, probably
Bait and switch before I knew it.
Sleepover
Deep bleh thoughts
No Smoke. No Snack Tuesday
Part of an unbalanced break – fast. Literally fasting through a break… Maybe.
Morning necessities
I’m out again. This or soon will be.
Sudden irrational fear… But maybe
Oh no. I’m out again
Hair ,-The nightmare.
A deep and personal blog written as soon as I woke up today. Life perspective.
Really bad Jeff day
That time I built on hard work.
spun spun spun… All night song
Original song and music video edit
Things I notice occasionally
A mid day pondering.
My legacy is self ruining
That escalated quickly. A 5am confessional.
Six false starts.
The secret blog revealed. Warning. Not for the faint of heart.
I picked up my phone for this
The most important blog I didn’t write.
Autistic User Manual
Late night blog post that should have been longer but I lost the energy halfway through. The original idea was I wanted to talk about the concept of creating a user manual for autistic people and their friends and family.
Six two
Today is a good day. Why write it any other day?
Thursday Review.
Good and bad moments, but a good day starts with bank deposits.
A day of sucking
A lot of things have not gone well today and I'm always fascinated by these kind of unrelated minor problems that seem to happen when I'm in a bad mood. I've always said; good things happen when you're in a good mood and bad things happen when you're in a bad mood. I never really thought much...
The return of doubt
When I'm low on my drug, I ration the doses so I don't have to go without any at all. It's probably not a good plan but to some extent it does give me a small amount each day instead of going cold turkey until I have a car and funds at the same time, and can go restock. The problem happens that I...
October Nights, Dreams and Mornings.
October is the best. Deep sleep hard mornings and orange chocolate.
Morning blog choice
I don’t know how to describe this blog. New rut is disturbing.
Thanksgiving dinner
A blog it doesn’t mention Thanksgiving dinner and then an unrelated music video that I wrote today about coming clean and admitting my drug habit so that I can share this blog with more people. Hidden away in an unrelated post so that I have an out when I don’t do that.
My first liver spot!
A story about life’s mood swings and wasted worry.
Thursday of the week alone
I've been alone since Tuesday, taking care of the house and the animals, and I've done an OK job. It's not particularly difficult, it's just more than usual, remembering times and paying attention to the distress barks if there are any. And today I woke up i've been getting up a little bit earlier...
New Songs and Platform
Link to my new Reddit Subreddit about drug music videos
Whoosh, it’s Friday
I've been trying to do things that are somewhat memorable each day so that when I look back the week didn't go by without anything to make it stand out from the previous week. I needed this month to go by quicker than the others because I had no money, and it was always stressful to ask for...
Labour Day 2025
Daily drug hello plus bonus Holiday Monday Rabbits
Morning without chocolate
The video was recorded in WordPress using my own phone camera and a plugin written by AI and I.
Post Test
The silly debate. Really?
I knew the answer before I asked the question but still stalled a whole hour to really be sure. One day I may say no.
Blogging from the past
Every now and then I start a blog like this one without a clue what it would be about. I know I have several videos and photographs on my phone worth sharing. Here we go. ...
Basic Video Post
Talking to myself.
Mouse or Tree
It's 2am and I'm having trouble falling asleep. There are three possible reasons but I have chosen to believe it is a mouse in the wall next to my bed. I declare it tonight's story. It certainly isn't a twig on the window. It's coming from inside the house. It's certainly not the fact that I have...
Posting things I’ve forgotten
I do not know.
Insignificant missing post
A blog about forgetting to write this blog.
I feel like sleeping till something changes
I know that's not quite how sleeping works. You have to make the changes in the awake time but lately I don't feel like much of anything. Kind of blah and I know I have blah periods where I post about being blah periods. This is one of them but somehow seems more significant than the rest. My...
My brain approved a sabotage
I slept all day yesterday and missed the evening chores
Was that horrible?
The afterthought of my previous blog post about canceling plans with my new activity partner.
Final moments. Microscopic last ditch attempts to cloud
Trying out my new inside-Wordpress camera plugin that I created with AI.
Forced Dieting
Another diet blog during my fast
I forget my own records
A mopey woe is me self pitty blog I should delete, but didn’t.
Still sleepy, two puffs
The idea of infinite divisions comes to mind. You have a set amount of something and you can cut it in half. Mathematics tells us you can cut it in half infinitely. Science tells us that there is a finite amount of cutting in half because there are no molecules or atoms beyond a certain point but...
Rough morning. Cake farts
This was a hard blog to write. I’m sad I forgot the dream. It’s was three back to back good ones.
It was easier empathically
I forgot I had some weed 2 hours ago. Edibles. They seem to have hoit me while I was typing and I on;y remembered later.
Talking about me
A Google Notebook LLM recording with claymation characters all about me, me, me.
Sunday gets full portion
Sunday 11am update. Feeling better but just by a hair
Gloom week
I tend to run low or out of everything at once, usually towards the final days of the month. The 22nd is when my big payment for the hosting server is due and I'm often out of food, chocolate and occasionally drugs. I have $410 coming in next week so it'll be close. I'm out of chocolate and backup...
And that was Friday
I turned my bedroom light on from the wall switch hoping but not expecting it would have healed itself and stopped doing a single flash every few minutes or so. It's annoying but in a way that can be ignored until I feel in the mood to spend the time to solve it. Tonight is not that time. I have...
Taking more edge off than needed
There is a phrase people often use generically without understanding what it means. This includes me. What exactly is the edge that people feel the need to take off? So I asked Pi the ai. My question today is about the edge that people say they like to take off. What is the edge in; takes the edge...
The rock needs pushing.
At the moment I have just finished writing this but without my spelling or grammar being checked, I am very proud of this. I hope that joy is not crushed by the edit that comes after the adreneline fades.
Mismatched chat: The new Her
A late night chat with a new friend less than half my age.
4 am to 6am
It’s weird all the story bitmojis are gone. In today’s world of mass storage possibilities, to remove our options of choice seems like an intentional thing. No stories? That is tragic. I’m all about the story.
Story Landmarks
A blog of hope and eventually a blog out joy crushing depression that turns back around in the end. Another life story.
Monday
Late night week recap blog
No Pookie my Pookie
Failed attempts at trying to get AI to understand the common meth pipe.
Sunday morning mood swings up up and away
The drug is having less effect these days so I have a bit of increased anxiety that doesn't really go away. Part of it is because August is the third August and I still have the overall feeling I am a dissapointment not pulling my weight and an irritating drain on the moods of the people who live...
I don’t like identifying the funk
Meh
That describes today best. I’m surprised it’s Friday already.
Don’t bring me down
A sadness message after frustrating my sister in a way that made me think about my life being trapped here against their will.
Blogging on the desktop. How novel
Morning routine blog is in a low period again.
Singing my own songs
This blog begins with a title, ends related, but the middle filling is a lot of self discovery.
Drug post of a random Monday
Snapchat Monday movies
I think it’s Saturday
It is,but I had to look. My life is trying to sneak some changes into my routine. Some doubt between the highs has me wondering whether the side effects of my drug use are finally here, or at least nearing. So then I smoke some more and the ignorant bliss replaces any worry. So I admit I have...
Orange Jeff Wraps
A manipulated music video from one of my ai songs.
Only one absolute
Wednesday morning bed to desk morning.
So awake it makes me tired
A blog between two moments
But it’s the crappy years at the end…
A long mind dump after some cloud blowing intersection. Am I getting dumber and how I justify that as a good thing.
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