Living my entire existsnce as a resourceful child doing anything I possibly could to avoid being yelled at, lectured. Don’t interrupt, inconvenience or annoy Dad… Or anyone.
Please don’t yell at me.
I made a lot of those decisions I hate to make giving priority to ones where nobody will yell at me.
I do a lot of annoying things every day simply by making decisions using a totally different unemotional understanding. I tell everyone not to rely on guessing how I react to everyday things you don’t knotice that cause me pain thinking you might yell at me if I bring home the wrong style or brand and it could occupy my distraction away from things I didn’t yet understand.