I’m trying my best to get some major exciting progress on the task I’ve been hyper focusing on for a few days. I had some setbacks today but I finished what I consider a good day of work.I’m still keeping the negative thoughts away,so I like the website idea at this pace. The longer I postpone failing and moving on, the more life I’ll have filled with things I like, right up until I don’t.I’ve been finding both good and bad reasons for giving up on everything. the drugs have helped me fill my days and many nights doing what I like, and I’m reasonably good at it.My entire life is secretly doing the absolute minimum amount of effort at things, while somehow avoiding everyone hating me. I choose a career where all I had to know, were the same answers they yesterday people asked.It’s easy to be a worshiped god in computers just because you know more than the people who do t want to know and are happy to pay to fix it.When talking with a computer guy, it’s clear I know almost nothing they do.I like to understand things. I’m good at troubleshooting websites too, although I may not be fast. It’s a joy to do for myself with no deadline. The all encompassing project that brings a lifetime of different concepts into a virtual commune co-op for people who may be smart, and want to earn an income without labour. Stoners. Me.It’s like building a boat in your basement. A project where the story is a success even if I never finish it.End of part One