A train trip with a second light that I had forgotten my face and just recently found. Its probably 10 years old but it’s interesting topic.
Second Life
Second Life is an alternative online universe where people are free to create whatever environments where they live and work. Posts in this category mention Second Life in some way although the entire pot may not always be about my Second life character.
Stand up comedy in Second Life
Alright, folks, gather around for a tale that's part "Black Mirror" and part "Weekend at Bernie's"! So, imagine this: you kick the bucket, lights out, game over, the whole nine yards. But instead of floating up to the pearly gates or taking the fiery elevator down below, you find yourself... booting up in Second Life!Now, for those of you who haven't logged in since 2008, Second Life is like The...
New life to Second Life
Playing with new AI lipsync software to bring my alternate reality partner to life
Second Life 2023 return
I spent a lot of time in second life this weekend because I had Molly and since I don't have access to a real human to touch and cuddle, I settle for the artificial alternate universe that has voice but no touch or smell. Doesn't take too much to extend your beliefs into that universe even if the graphics are either crude in their motion. They make up for it in the quality of their graphics...
Second Life Videos
Second Life Gallery
This is a gallery of some of my favorite pictures from the alternate universe known as Second Life. The original metaverse
Second Life
Second Life is a simulation of our universe except better
The Conversation Room
You see an online virtual mall filled with flashy storefronts and top notch animated advertisements everywhere. You walk down the pathway in awe at how many options there are to spend money on a seperate universe. You see a new store is opening up where the old bookstore used to be. The Conversation Room doors open soon. Nobody knew what it was. There were guesses and bar bets placed. They were...
501L
I foolishly thought all bus stops were equal on the Queen West line, so I missed the earlier one, but Google maps says I should still arrive before 10 I'm on it now, and it is cool and bright and I found a seat although I'm conscious about still being a bit smelly. I'm still wearing the same jeans (unwashed) and orange hoodie. That is one of several ways I am u prepared for day 1. My hair and...
Day T-1
Today is Sunday. My practice day to see that I can wake up and get things done. I won't say I'm failing already, but it certainly wasn't a totally slow start. It's 10:30 and I feel like I will tackle my to-do list today out in the sun and feel better about it. I am thankful for the sun I'm about a quarter through the second Pizza hut pizza that I bought and ate last night. I am thankful for the...
The Next Episode
In the past. I have always talked about each new move as a Chapter in my life story. I learn so many new things when I'm living in the house with other people. Now I think it might be time to modernize my terminology since so much about how we share our story is now multi media. I don't write chapters. I record 15 second updates, and old people complain about how fast the world is moving these...
Wild by my standards
It's 6am and even though I asked and she said no, when 8 asked again, I ended up changing her plans and spending the whole night talking. It's what I wanted and I get high enough to believe it's enjoyable. I know interaction with high women who I click with is the most fun I have, and indream of how we could work to be a success. Later in life, I learned that's a weed stoner thing. If nobody...
I almost cried when my doctor called.
I'm near tears right now, but managing. I had high hopes for a call from my doctor. I had plans of what to say. 45 seconds later, we were saying goodbye and I said nothing. I hate that. I hate myself right now. I accomplished nothing. I didn't get anything I was going to ask for. Things I need. I froze. I knew I was doing it and instead of speaking up I just said yes and no and thank you and...
Oh yeah… It’s Friday already
It's not like there is any real significance to weekends when you're at home 24/7. I still honour our cultural traditions and not get high till Friday. But I got high not remembering it was Friday. This week went by fast for me because I have important work, and I've blocked it mentally and put it off till they ask a second time A joke from Coming to America I repearmt frequently, but I'm high...
Am I the same person
People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I can certainly think about a few ways I've changed. I can imagine my close friends might notice even more changes. I had a hard time adapting to living alone. I look different. I lost a lot of face weight along with body weight. Two belt sizes or...
The morning mental debate
Over the years I have created a number of different tricks to start my day better. I know what I need to do to wake up and start being productive. As soon as I realize I'm up, I turn on all the lights to full brightness and stand up and stretch. The key is to not go back to bed right away. This of course doesn't work if you don't want to wake up and start your day. You have to beat the urge to...
Let me scooch right by
This is a blog that's going to start off talking about the loud noises going on right now at 8:00 p.m. on Monday. The decision to make this blog about that topic was decided upon spontaneously as I was writing the subject title of this blog. The title of this blog refers to the second topic I was going to make this blog about. Weed flipflops every time. I gain a lot of better life observations...
The virtual life future.
One of my unfinished projects was to write a fiction. A short story or a novel if I felt up to it. In my mind it made a good TV series and I could be a millionaire if I only told someone about it. I have two chapters and I might be inspired to write more now and then but the topic of this blog isn't that. It's about second life. I think it's getting a raw deal because no one seems to be...
Flip Flopping isn’t a bad thing.
I have do much to share but let's see what gets retained long enough for the blog. I flip flop a lot. Often several times a minute as I internally debate decisions. If I stall long enough somebody else will make it. My phyciatrist has a standard procedure of always asking if I have sicicidal thoughts or self harm. I modified my stock answer. I'm actually enjoying the story. I'm having fun still....
Old man behavior
I was going to start this vlog with the game, second life. That was my whole opening line. Second life. It occurred to me that that's the kind of thing old men probably old women at some point start to yell out random words like that. This could even be what some forms of tourettes are. Old people frequently take their time in remembering things. I have SVA and another vlog on that point. I talk...
Experiments in Blogging.
My plan is to be recording by audio, and there's this important to all that. Okay. Water, oops, live brain transcript, Canadian Thanksgiving October 11 2021 Coming up day drinks water. So the story so far. I just got high. And it's, it was at 420, in the afternoon on a holiday Monday. The plan is to not do that again tonight, but just turn on the blog mode. And, oh, so much later, I get the...
You don’t suck.
Mental Profile As I was laying in bed tonight I realized this needed to be written. I couldn't go to sleep without waking up and writing down this latest idea of mine. The world has recently adopted the term mental health to include all of those who have some difference from the norm. It may be referred to as a disorder or it may be an illness, or it may be a deficit. Whatever the case they...
Starting at 5pm
It's Wednesday of the week back work week and as of 5pm, I've done nothing. I had a glorious uninterrupted restorative sleep last night during a thunderstorm. I woke up at 730 and then went back untill about 1045. Since then I've just sat around playing on my phone doing almost nothing. The closest I've come to working was to try an email task promising it would be done sometime today. It is a...
Live Brain Transcript
I'm giving this one a second try. At the very least, you know, isn't quite as distracting. But I'm very easily distracted. I mean, something took me away from pizza. Not right don't go on camera when they're eating pizza. doesn't seem right for the day Really is fantastic green screen So, executives Tell me I've got to have a web page that doesn't work for me because I've got to make the...
I could be President.
They have a saying that anyone could be president and some people laugh that off. But the truth is, anyone probably can become president. If managed by smart people. All you need to do is be some people's favorite. And they'll bulk that in and buy everything you're selling. Trump is the first president to openly flaunt the knowledge that if they like you, they want to trust that your version of...
Live Brain Transcript
0:04 I absolutely hate when one single click. Takes me so far away from what I was doing that sometimes I don't make it back. Period. Tonight was therapy. I shared who I am, with someone seeking approval that I'm just interesting enough to want to see more, period. I have a bad habit of telling opinions, as if they were fact. 0:51 But I always try to correct that if I noticed tonight. I talked...
Dead Vera won some money
 Disclaimer. As of November 14th when I wrote this, Vera Macdonald was alone and thriving on Facebook. The Vera I refer to in this blog is a fake Romanian Vera Macdonald, trying to get me to pay for my winnings. Conversation Information Vera Macdonald   WED 4:52 AM New User Created with stolen pic. I know its the scam even before the first message. Everything below is a fiction I created...
I see it now. I’m already in the pit
Previously I had found the polar opinions about meth usage on Tumblr an interesting mix. Many of the people were declaring their love for the drug, posting pictures and memes of their enjoyment and love others were posting negative imagery, often declaring they wanted to die I think I may have crossed that line this weekend. I get it. Meth is good. It's quitting it that is bad, and then you do...
I was doing so well.
There is a moment in the life of any substance users life, when they remember a better life. No. I already changed my mind. I won't speak for them. I am always comparing myself in a quest to be more normal. It leaves me in a never-ending quest to change. My role model is absolutely everyone else. I think that may be more common than... Change. I can speak for me. I have a loop. A save point in...
Surprise. We had to wake you 230 years too early.
About 10 years ago, I signed the card that came with my driver's licence, allowing my organs to be donated when I die. I couldn't see any good reason not to because no matter what the after life turns out to be, I'm certain it won't be filled with the few hundred people who cryogenically froze their remains. I was sent a follow up card from the government recnetly asking a couple of additional...
That moment when your brain remembers the truth, not the lie
I convinced myself a little meth might allow me a Bing and productive weekend, but the truth is, my regular drug free life now is very happy and productive. More than it ever has been. My little meth turned into a full on binge Thursday. Finally fell asleep Sunday at 6pm with the help of a sleep aid. It's Monday today and I'm in full hangover mode, so naturally I boosted to be ready for a...
I remember the moment I invented Heaven
Was today. I've been there. I've even worked there. Fell in love and creayyedca home life for myself, which I ruined. I've learned a lot. You're dead now. Stop talking about the universe and create it. Some people rollplay the had memories and some will make new memories. I am a universe. A finite universe 100% created by the experiences gathered from my senses since month 4. Movie. Starts...
Day 1. Orientation.
I heard a distinct Bing sound and that was the first time I was aware of anything. Everything was black and I couldn't really feel inside myself. It's a hard to describe a concept unknown to anyone. If a blind person asked you what blue was you would describe things that were blue, which would be useless. I just was. A thought hearing a ding. Attention. Attention. I'm Doctor Phillips and I have...
Genius idea.
I think I'm ready to go home now. Before the literal fireworks might begin. I don't want to be carrying a tray full of beers when those bangs take me off guard. The above two sentences were here when I opened up the blog. They're from Sunday. Tonight I wanted to blog an idea for an app. A lot of other social media share apps use the word story to create a blog... Oh wait ...
Pausenblog
Pausenblog. A german word I just made up that translates to, blogging during the show. Live on webcam and streaming... not streaming tonight, because I can't figure the best place. I am watching the brand new MURDER MYSTERY, and I absolutly love it. 37:28 The second person is murdered, which makes it almost a game. I understand lonliness more when watching fun shows alone, because they...
Tuesday Transit Talk
I didn't blog from my subway ride for a couple of trips because my timing was off and the ride was busy. Toronto transit is great but it's better when you're not riding at the same time as all the other passengers. School rush hour is earlier than business rush hour and retail rush hour. I don't know if they staggered it for transit on purpose or for other logistical reasons but it creates a...
It’s right there… My future.
I'm feeling great. I've still got a few issues, but the drug changes have settled. Ironically, I just got a call that I can order from a third option. Good old Apotex, which is the biggest Canadian generic drug manufactuer. I still liked the first generic brand, but hated the second. This brand has two side effects. (1) It's time release is more gradual, which is probably better, but I got used...
Fake Monday blog
I've been blogging on my bus and subway rides as a good way to work out my feelings and mindset in between therapy. It's helpful, and I recommend it, even if you don't really tell anybody about the blogs. They can still be therapeutic. It's the new socially acceptable way to talk to yourself. I enjoy watching people on the subway, but after the first initial glances, staring can become awkward....
The Caretaker
Chapter one. Once upon a time. In a small town just north of Thunder Bay there was an old fairy tale that has been told for generations about the story of the town's clocktower. It stood at the base of the main street and was older than photography so nobody really knows. Experts have studied its architecture but it remains unique in this world. Its most unusual feature is that instead of having...
Subway Blogging. I did a thing.
It's a Friday before what is now called memorial day weekend, although I remember when it was Victoria Day and many people in Canada call it may 2-4 weekend presumably because one year it fell on the 24th and a beer company ran commercials. We Canadians love our beer in 24 can cases. At least I think we do. I only tried beer once. Today I started a thing. I'll see if I can maintain it. I...
Blogging Live in Two universes.
Life Stream BloggingThis is a first. I am live streaming my blog in two universes simultaneously. I have spent the time since 4:20 today setting this up. It took a little while extra because I toked on my new wax vaporizer pen. I still say it should have a U in Canada but it seems they don't want to create two boxes. Then I set out in my new Pot Bar in the alternate universe known as Second...
Simulcast
I'm just the right amount of the high to blog, and 9:36pm on a Thursday. I am doing my best not to panic, and not to freak out, because I feel a failure cominhg on, and I'm not sure what to do about it. Noteable this week. Phyciatrist on Monday. Weird. Not easy. Unfocused and starting over, biut still good. Still value. Still nopt guilty enough to quit. I am almost a hermit man and almost a...
Blogged Live from the alternate Universe
I have blogged a lot in the past, and sometime as the chatcater Orange Jeff, but more recently, while a big high, I decided it might be novel to have Orange Jeff blog from within this Universe. I am literally typing this as ... Oh now I've ruined it all. I'm streaming live to YouTube although I forget whether I set it to be viewiable or not. I was pondering the other day, which of my business...
I thought about a meetup group like little theatre for filming stuff
A vlogging community and studio. helpinhg each other do shows for themselves or profit orange shirt tv pst it notes for meetups. the wall at the grocery store community web design. sl and rl
I just did a whole series of bad choices
Bad me. It's been 6 minutes since I typed that, and then lay down staring up. This is the progression. Or as far as I can get. Having insomnia issue that kept me up, despite tired. Sitting pondering. I lay in the pretending to sleep mode but at a time in the evening, I give up. It is my way to avoid. It has been my way. Ponder 1. The weed I bought is strong indica and the new dab...
SL
The things I have done in the alternate universe either alone, or with a companion. [useyourdrive dir="19p_ky9Ugal1s23kPzRtTF4FC9nY8HHOX" mode="gallery" viewrole="guest" downloadrole="all" ]
A bad thing for a good reason.
I'm not sorry. I do not regret today's desision... But of course, I'd say that now, still under the influence of a euphoria I previous denied. I am euphoric and creative and excited. I have been writing all night. My normal behaviour was to take some MDMA and try to find somebody to help me with my lifelong quest. The quest for my partner. I try to go into business either with one of my top...
The Orange Shirt Creative Community
My idea for the moment. Everyone needs a good community. A group of friends to share ideas and do stuff with. People who care about you and keep you distracted and fun on a lonely evening. Everyone, but specially awkward singles of any age. I propose an online community idea that could be done easily and cheaply but benefit a whole lot of people. This proposal was written on weed with...
37 seconds in. Pausenblog. A made up word that has a feel to it
37 seconds later, I drifted to qyesy, saw a zeppelin and smiled. The story I want to share is huge, but I don't mind takinmg 54 myuears to tell it. ding memory: Always play a sport with somebody who plays better than you Jeff, or you can't learn an improve. ding. What if --- No. I'll not bring some scenarios into my narrative. I remember a time, when I was living in an enviornmenty that had --...
My Drug Dealer Might be Placebo
There is a movie, Formula 44. I am about to spoil it for you, which is a shame because it's really worth watching. However, if you're an intelegent person, you probably figured it out from the title of this blog. Good for you. Sorry I spoiled it. In the movie, a new drug hits the streets, and it does absolutly nothing. Zero, Zilch. Â That's the surprise ending youre not supposed to know. It's...
The Loup: Pilot Episode
My first time trying distraction-free writing in Wordpress. I am surprised it's not full screen... it's a popup that is actually quite distracting because of the DIVI interface behind shows in the corners with blue and green and purp[le squares. Distraction free also means feature-free. I'm dumping this experiment. It is however not lost on me that distraction-free writing mode is...
The hard way wasnt hard
4 am on a Saturday, the regular crowd pouring in. Yes. I finally fit it in its slot. It's been out of sync. I do not pull that rope and ring that loud bell every time a puzzle piece fits. It just means the next sign will appear like a Pez. If my life were a tv movie, it'd have certain signs, and why am I married to Minuette? .... Today I learned the feds shut down some of the sex worker...
The 7:10 loop from 1st Life to Second Life
Ecstasy. Indica 7:10 dabbing Second Life. No edits. Wednesday 7:10pm I'm rethinking how weird I might seem. It never occurred to me that sometimes I might be a creep. People might lump me in with the other creeps. I'm a 54-year-old hanging out where the teens and 20 something do. In Second Life, I've found there are a lot of 40+ here, but I'm still pretending to be 27 because that's when I...
Oh and another thing
Samsung claims to have fixed the bug in the first release of their mission impossible game that premiered on the note 7. They claim it no longer explodes 15 seconds after you hear the first mission. What if the note 7 was actually a field test to see how big an explosive they could fit in a working phone. What if every Samsung has a remote sctivstable self destruct built in, you know, just in...
I can do that, I just can’t do that NOW.
I can do that... Really I can. I just can't do that high, is what I really mean. However, if you ask me twice, I might confess that I just hate doing stuff... no, wait. Oh High Hi... I didn't see you come in. pause. Do I really want to go down this road? It's only day two and already I am starting out with a play? A script. Well. It was fun, wasn't it? Yes. Then... why not. You like...
We’ll catch the next one
I opened the blogging portion just now, knowing full well that I'd already forgotten the thought that was important enought to write.... because it could be 20 years before I have gained enough fame to have a fan find these, review them and then start a business and make a zillion dollars.. We'll be up to zillion by then I am sure. It might be less. Maybe 17 years if I died in 5. I think about...
Look, an idea out of my left back pocket.
yres? [00:53] Frogstar42 Loup: I have a new idea. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: Big Brother Home Game. I'll wear an anckle bracelet and le live streaming on the Internet 24/8 simulcast with ME, the real Jeff. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: I have 4 webcams on me 24/7. [00:54] Paige Copeland: wait WTF [00:55] Paige Copeland: why do you wear an ankle bracelet? [00:55] Frogstar42 Loup: Sitting on my interview...
Splash Stoners’ Voice Beach
Second Life is like The Beaver.
You may not know the Beaver. You have heard something about it. That was the one with Mel Gibson's comeback wasn't it? The Beaver was about a man whi fiund his way back yo sanity by talking through a puppey. Sound like anyone? It is 2am. I successfully talked my way of of doing a thing I think I want till I do it.
The nose whistler whistler.
rediet has treat me like im five, which i chuckle at and enjoy, but a treat me like im old is a slightly different humour... because were probably more self aware ifn what we lost than our baby self was self aware of how amazing it was to figure out how everything woked silently without understnding ... why amd whay am I in text html mode. whoops. attractive fontt is soothing. interesting IN...
The new daily.
I am a loyal man, for the simople reason I adapt to my now, and prefer never to change. I want to date. I can pretty much decide if I'm compatile with somebody in a very short time. When I clcik instead of clash #clickorclash I'm gentle and caring and absolutly no concept of how annoying I might be because I still obcess a lot and ... Errr... I mean, Ihave a weakness in my mental state, that I...
Look, an idea out of my left back pocket.
yres? [00:53] Frogstar42 Loup: I have a new idea. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: Big Brother Home Game. I'll wear an anckle bracelet and le live streaming on the Internet 24/8 simulcast with ME, the real Jeff. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: I have 4 webcams on me 24/7. [00:54] Paige Copeland: wait WTF [00:55] Paige Copeland: why do you wear an ankle bracelet? [00:55] Frogstar42 Loup: Sitting on my interview...
We’ll catch the next one
I opened the blogging portion just now, knowing full well that I'd already forgotten the thought that was important enought to write.... because it could be 20 years before I have gained enough fame to have a fan find these, review them and then start a business and make a zillion dollars.. We'll be up to zillion by then I am sure. It might be less. Maybe 17 years if I died in 5. I think about...
And he was chanting; “Oh why did I think about not forgetting?” Fuck, are you kiddinge me?
Its so weird I can almost forget the awesome orgasm I... did I? If I don't confirm anything my shrodingers cum puddle is not in my orange cum wrag... and it is. We'll find out after these ... wtf? Oh, the tablet isn't pluggged in and it had video on pause. It's gonna shut down... I reach for thecable which is the white one that isn't a genuine Samsung, and doesn't have the hamburger. Yeah, now...
Thi is my life now, until this is.
I laugh as I start to write. The piece is to start as a cometary that I am not only enjoying the improved perception of progress, from my bed... The King's home row and my computer...one symbolic row to my right. I leave this chess board. ding. Realization connection as I was typing at the speed of thought. I am symbolicly now standing in a void. Even with the light of the single bulb, I...
business idea.
an internet show hosted by richard christie and i ding hosted by me with guest anchor guest bing. word origin connetion. a lightbulb turned on and I saw e the thought apper in my universe biz. A show hosted by Orange Jeff who starts the show every day at 7 ding. THere it is. I give in to the addiction as it evolves. The excuse could be my answer, and as a n... I am g.... In 2018, a number of...
What do you want m to tell you. This one didn’t have a title.
Talking to myself in text to another person who isn't there to listen but will come in and catch up every so often. In the Second Life universe, one can carry on several different storylines and be chatting with multiple partners, clients, dealers and lovers all at the same time. It's kind of like overseas tech support. Janice says she's dealing with you right now, and her call center is in New...
ACt Two. It’s really worth finding act one.
I grab a handful of Hershies kises from my salad bowl. I have admired that Hersheys kisses may be cute and addictive but I admire their shape because I bleieve it is engeniered to allow for a specific maximum per grab. I walk away with a serving size of chocolate. If they were any other shape, I'd have to self discipline my portions. I always ate Dad's shortbread chocolate chip cookies. Item #3...
I actually said these things
I've been happier than my norm of late, and I can blame the drugs if I choose, but the condition has made me write, blog and share more. These are some of the things I actually typed to people when I felt cheerful, not high... but was probably high. The setup. Second life. Found the contact in my wallet of a really cute readhead and her profile and pic were friendly and nice. I scanned her...
Done. Five strong brownie in one evening and I hardly show signs of intoxication.
I am a threshold stoner. My first does sets the bar and it fades down as time passes. It doesn't go back up, nor matter how muh I try, after the first hour, drugs are immu... I seem immune to drugs taking me higher. There ae exceptions, as with the Ketamine holesI've visited with my last drug delivery. Its a weird high I don't enjoy, except to be a change every so often. I uit no drugs I've...