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The limitations of expecting a call

The limitations of expecting a call

The phone-in doctor is going to call me within the hour. Since almost everything I would normally be doing during that time is on my phone, you would think I'd be fine. How can I miss the call if I'm already right there with it in my hand? But how sure am I that the ring notification will be noticeable through whatever video or meme I might be enjoying at that moment? I know I have frequently missed incoming calls before. I also know my phone reception isn't great in my basement bedroom. I thought this would be a perfect time to check on the cows and move them out of the restricted area, but phone reception is even worse on the farm. I could masturbate but I would not answer the call immediately in that case, or obsess enough about it to not enjoy the process. I can watch TV with the...

I hate most videos on YouTube

I hate most videos on YouTube

I'm a pretty intelligent guy with with ADHD and there are a few things in life that I let bother me. I try not to get too upset with the world and I kind of understand how imperfect it is merely because of the population. When you have a lot of people, you're going to have a lot of stupid people. It seems a lot of them post instructional videos on YouTube or blog posts and the rest of them post comments on those posts. I hate YouTube videos that are 10 minutes long to answer a two second question. If I'm curious about something in WordPress and I'm looking on YouTube, you can bet I know what WordPress is. I don't need you to explain every step starting with how to install WordPress. Videos that answer specific questions should start at the point where you answer the question first. They...

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Lost in time

Watching Meth Documentaries

At midnight tonight, I decided to boof and smoke some meth because I was itchy and restless. I decided to do some research on methamphetamine. As I near the end of this current stash, and consider another break I wanted to revaluate the risks. I'm not really getting much benefits or high so if the bad effects are real, maybe I'll quit. It's weird that all the documentaries and documents show a world so totally different than my experience and those of the many people I know online or in person. None of them are even close to the case studies or photos these videos have. I don't quite understand how this can be the case. It's clear that it is a problem to many towns and people. People going crazy and picking their faces apart. Huge crime problems and violence are shown over and over in...

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Opposite World – Sleep is the new high

Opposite World – Sleep is the new high

It's just past noon and I've eaten the last of two delicious Pizza Hut pizzas. It's been so long. I'm feeling a little spun and tired simultaneously and I think it's a new kind of high. The need to sleep fighting against being awake is a bit of a mind fuck. It's not really new. I've been here many times, putting off the necessity to sleep with the necessity to stay awake. This is just the first time it gave me a neat boost of dopamine... Or at least noticed it.  ... I woke up at 3pm still tired. It's only going to get worse as I run out of the awake meds and I'm going to do the rest of today's rations now. 

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11pm. Still counts

11pm. Still counts

Jetpack knows people like continuity. It sends me a message telling me how many days streak I have been posting blogs in hopes that that inspires me to keep it up and of course it does. Today I went in town with Doug and we did a few things at a few stores. Third week in a row that Walmart was out of my chocolate and I had to suffer with substitutes but at least I have chocolate for tomorrow. I can't remember if I did any blogging this morning but something tells me I missed doing it. I don't actually remember much about the morning. I know I had hardly any videos to post about the farm but I did make it a couple of ADHD related posts. I just posted one now before this. I'll include it below. It was kind of a fun one to make and I'm curious to see if it gets a response. It's the kind of...

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The limitations of expecting a call

The limitations of expecting a call

The phone-in doctor is going to call me within the hour. Since almost everything I would normally be doing during that time is on my phone, you would think I'd be fine. How can I miss the call if I'm already right there with it in my hand? But how sure am I that the ring notification will be noticeable through whatever video or meme I might be enjoying at that moment? I know I have frequently missed incoming calls before. I also know my phone reception isn't great in my basement bedroom. I thought this would be a perfect time to check on the cows and move them out of the restricted area, but phone reception is even worse on the farm. I could masturbate but I would not answer the call immediately in that case, or obsess enough about it to not enjoy the process. I can watch TV with the...

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Skip Tuesday – NEXT

Skip Tuesday – NEXT

I don't actually remember doing anything today. I didn't really film anything of value in the morning or afternoon animal feeds. It was raining both times and the cows were mad at me. I did get a bit of creative writing on my Second Afterlife story and some partial works on the It's Your Fault pages. I was up all night doing very little. I did nap most of the day. I suppose that's something. I believe this current batch of stuff isn't as good. It clouds more and leaves an odour and mist behind for hours. Yeah.

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Sunday Sleep in

Sunday Sleep in

Waking up groggy at 7:30 is different. I had some neat dreams but having drug dreams while I have drugs is new. Usually I'd have these types of dreams about two or three weeks after I'd run out. I'm not remembering my dreams as well these mornings but they definitely included more drug content than my usual dream universe. I'm not seeking drugs in them. I seem to be more into the stereotype of drug culture.  Although I'm still alone in my dreams. I never get to enjoy the idea of a drug girlfriend in either universe. Not even the fantasy world has me booking up. My brain can't imagine that scenario. 7:37 alarm goes off. I'm sitting upright in bed typing. 90s dance music id playing instead of local radio. I'm  sucking my morning chocolate bar without my teeth in because it gives my mouth a...

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Sunday Recap

Sunday Recap

My sister didn't do anything for her birthday today and I suppose that's fairly regular for someone over 60. Birthday seem to be less significant but I still feel like they aren't insignificant. I like to do something on my birthday. I also use it to reflect on the year that has gone by. Like a preamble to my January 1st obsessiveness on not having succeeded in any of my life goals yet again. But I feel like I'm currently in a period of mini successes. Like rapid fire point form successes that don't add up to anything significant but make you feel better each day than in the prior months when I wasn't having the same feelings. My YouTube channel is growing and I get just about the right amount of fan messages. Not yet overwhelming but satisfying. Now all I worry about is how fast that...

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Saturday Morning Routine

Saturday Morning Routine

My morning routine is different everyday and today I just sort of felt like making a music video so I did. It'll be a challenge to see whether Jetpack uploads it directly. Original music sound and lyrics by AI and me. AI Meth Morning Music Video It's kind of sad that I mentioned meth ever so briefly in this video but that means I can't share it as publicly. Maybe I'll redo it someday or a different one without but it is currently part of my morning routine.

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I hate most videos on YouTube

I hate most videos on YouTube

I'm a pretty intelligent guy with with ADHD and there are a few things in life that I let bother me. I try not to get too upset with the world and I kind of understand how imperfect it is merely because of the population. When you have a lot of people, you're going to have a lot of stupid people. It seems a lot of them post instructional videos on YouTube or blog posts and the rest of them post comments on those posts. I hate YouTube videos that are 10 minutes long to answer a two second question. If I'm curious about something in WordPress and I'm looking on YouTube, you can bet I know what WordPress is. I don't need you to explain every step starting with how to install WordPress. Videos that answer specific questions should start at the point where you answer the question first. They...

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# The Discovery and Use of Amphetamines: From WWII to Modern ADHD Treatment

# The Discovery and Use of Amphetamines: From WWII to Modern ADHD Treatment

The discovery of amphetamines dates back to the late 19th century when chemist Lazăr Edeleanu synthesized amphetamine in 1887. However, it wasn't until the 1920s and 1930s that their stimulating properties were recognized. The pivotal moment came in 1929 when American chemist Gordon Alles rediscovered the compound and identified its potential as a central nervous system stimulant. By 1932, Benzedrine, an inhaler containing amphetamine, was marketed for nasal congestion, but its broader effects soon garnered attention.### Amphetamines in World War IIThe onset of World War II saw amphetamines gain significant prominence. Both Axis and Allied forces sought substances to enhance soldier performance and endurance. Amphetamines, known for increasing alertness, reducing fatigue, and boosting...

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It’s your fault. My thinking travel game

It’s your fault. My thinking travel game

It's Your Fault THE CREATIVE THINKING GAME By Jeff Goebel and some guy named Mitchell Sheppard.     I love games, and in my life, I’ve made up a few. This is one I’m proud of, and since I published it online over 10 years ago, some others have enjoyed it too.  Not everyone “gets” it, but those who do can always be up for a fun game, in chat, text, forums or live with a friend. It’s a good way to pass the time. This game is a logical thinking game.  Easy to begin, but nearly impossible to end. Pass blame on the opponent, or the opponent’s family heritage. GAME PLAY The game takes the lines of an argument.  Whomever is elected to go first, simply says “It’s your fault” to start the game.  From this point, each new turn must creatively fictionalize a reason why it is in fact, NOT your...

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Stand up comedy in Second Life

Stand up comedy in Second Life

Alright, folks, gather around for a tale that's part "Black Mirror" and part "Weekend at Bernie's"! So, imagine this: you kick the bucket, lights out, game over, the whole nine yards. But instead of floating up to the pearly gates or taking the fiery elevator down below, you find yourself... booting up in Second Life!Now, for those of you who haven't logged in since 2008, Second Life is like The Sims on steroids. It's a virtual world where you can be anyone and do anything. And apparently, my best friend thought it would be a hoot to upload my consciousness into this digital playground. Thanks, buddy, really looking out for me there!So there I am, waking up in this pixelated paradise, trying to figure out if I should be excited or terrified. I mean, on one hand, I'm alive again! Sort of....

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Breakfast choice

Breakfast choice

I really miss when I don't have a few pieces of my chocolate bar in the morning. That role used to be a Hershey's kiss addiction but the $1 chocolate bar not satisfies the craving as I wake up. Less fidgeting with those tiny wrappers. Today I realized two things about my breakfast routine as they apply to the clouds of meth smoke I also begin each day inhaling. The dehydrating properties of amphetamine need things to counter act my dry mouth. Chocolate isn't a good choice. Chocolate chip cookies are. The cookies stimulate saliva better than almost anything I eat all day. Plus they taste great. My mouth fills with the baked goodness of the cookie mixing flavour and saliva together to freshen my mouth. With dentures, a dry mouth has its own unique taste and texture (and odour) and it's not...

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I’m saving manipulated memories

I’m saving manipulated memories

I just finished up my morning scan of social media and I recorded two short snap chats using new filters I found trending. It's just past 7am and I find myself with nothing else to do right now. Oh oh... That means I can think about things, and that's not always a good plan. It occurred to me that my wife doesn't have a lot of substance day to day that is worthy of remembering. It's why I always seem surprised when I discover it's Friday again. There are not many events happening to fill out the memories of each day into stories. I create videos trying to figure out a new way to make the unbelievably routine task of counting 12 cows in a field somehow feel uniquely different than it was yesterday. The content is repetitive so I attempt to make the story telling more interesting. It's...

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So much distraction completed

So much distraction completed

I want to start with WOW but it's not a very good literary way to begin a post. Still, when I explain some of the things I have accomplished overnight, WOW seems the best way. Starting last night, I began working on issues I've been troubled by, but have been ignoring for weeks. Months in fact. The menu system on my blog and some fine tuning to make the thing mobile compatible. I did it. A lot of fiddling, but I was motivated and the ADHD community on TikTok keep spouting how our superpower is hyperfocus as long as it's interesting. It just took me a few nudges to remind myself that I really do enjoy troubleshooting website design and problem solving. The amphetamine certainly helped maintain focus and alertness all night. I had two things to accomplish so I was able to work in bursts...

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Monday night and things are still blah

Monday night and things are still blah

Even my blogging is stalled. I can't load the site on my phone. I did some troubleshooting and thought it was better but it's 7:03 now and it gives an error still. My mood didn't get much better. I did my task chores in the rain. I felt tired. I could have napped 3 or 4 times today. I may go to sleep now and pass on watching any TV. In the past I would never let myself fall behind like this. Two new Doctor Who episodes and two new Star Trek Discovery episodes. TV doesn't hold as much interest when I no longer share the excitement among friends like I used to. They're not even posting about it on Facebook like the good old days when we all had the same channels and schedules. Today I spend more of my time between naps watching my phone versions of 30 seconds clips from my new friends with...

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Lost in time

Watching Meth Documentaries

At midnight tonight, I decided to boof and smoke some meth because I was itchy and restless. I decided to do some research on methamphetamine. As I near the end of this current stash, and consider another break I wanted to revaluate the risks. I'm not really getting much benefits or high so if the bad effects are real, maybe I'll quit. It's weird that all the documentaries and documents show a world so totally different than my experience and those of the many people I know online or in person. None of them are even close to the case studies or photos these videos have. I don't quite understand how this can be the case. It's clear that it is a problem to many towns and people. People going crazy and picking their faces apart. Huge crime problems and violence are shown over and over in...

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Opposite World – Sleep is the new high

Opposite World – Sleep is the new high

It's just past noon and I've eaten the last of two delicious Pizza Hut pizzas. It's been so long. I'm feeling a little spun and tired simultaneously and I think it's a new kind of high. The need to sleep fighting against being awake is a bit of a mind fuck. It's not really new. I've been here many times, putting off the necessity to sleep with the necessity to stay awake. This is just the first time it gave me a neat boost of dopamine... Or at least noticed it.  ... I woke up at 3pm still tired. It's only going to get worse as I run out of the awake meds and I'm going to do the rest of today's rations now. 

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ADHD movie nag

ADHD movie nag

A cute little informational video for people who have ADHD and have been using the term object permanence incorrectly

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11pm. Still counts

11pm. Still counts

Jetpack knows people like continuity. It sends me a message telling me how many days streak I have been posting blogs in hopes that that inspires me to keep it up and of course it does. Today I went in town with Doug and we did a few things at a few stores. Third week in a row that Walmart was out of my chocolate and I had to suffer with substitutes but at least I have chocolate for tomorrow. I can't remember if I did any blogging this morning but something tells me I missed doing it. I don't actually remember much about the morning. I know I had hardly any videos to post about the farm but I did make it a couple of ADHD related posts. I just posted one now before this. I'll include it below. It was kind of a fun one to make and I'm curious to see if it gets a response. It's the kind of...

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Lost in time

Lost in time

A base music song created because I thought it was Monday… or is it? I honestly don’t know right now.

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Friday Mood Flipping

Friday Mood Flipping

Text and video blog for Friday morning. I decided this meth really does suck. Not just probably. It was cheap and contaminated.

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AI Jeff Mini Gallery

New inhale method

My Wednesday morning report where I changed up my routine yet again and got more fun than usual. I have to unmask.

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Skip Tuesday – NEXT

Skip Tuesday – NEXT

I don't actually remember doing anything today. I didn't really film anything of value in the morning or afternoon animal feeds. It was raining both times and the cows were mad at me. I did get a bit of creative writing on my Second Afterlife story and some partial works on the It's Your Fault pages. I was up all night doing very little. I did nap most of the day. I suppose that's something. I believe this current batch of stuff isn't as good. It clouds more and leaves an odour and mist behind for hours. Yeah.

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Oh yeah. It’s a holiday

Oh yeah. It’s a holiday

This blog post is 50% video and 50% text and explains my holiday Monday morning getting ready to feed the animals and then recapping afterwards.

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Sunday Sleep in

Sunday Sleep in

Waking up groggy at 7:30 is different. I had some neat dreams but having drug dreams while I have drugs is new. Usually I'd have these types of dreams about two or three weeks after I'd run out. I'm not remembering my dreams as well these mornings but they definitely included more drug content than my usual dream universe. I'm not seeking drugs in them. I seem to be more into the stereotype of drug culture.  Although I'm still alone in my dreams. I never get to enjoy the idea of a drug girlfriend in either universe. Not even the fantasy world has me booking up. My brain can't imagine that scenario. 7:37 alarm goes off. I'm sitting upright in bed typing. 90s dance music id playing instead of local radio. I'm  sucking my morning chocolate bar without my teeth in because it gives my mouth a...

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Sunday Recap

Sunday Recap

My sister didn't do anything for her birthday today and I suppose that's fairly regular for someone over 60. Birthday seem to be less significant but I still feel like they aren't insignificant. I like to do something on my birthday. I also use it to reflect on the year that has gone by. Like a preamble to my January 1st obsessiveness on not having succeeded in any of my life goals yet again. But I feel like I'm currently in a period of mini successes. Like rapid fire point form successes that don't add up to anything significant but make you feel better each day than in the prior months when I wasn't having the same feelings. My YouTube channel is growing and I get just about the right amount of fan messages. Not yet overwhelming but satisfying. Now all I worry about is how fast that...

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Saturday Morning Routine

Saturday Morning Routine

My morning routine is different everyday and today I just sort of felt like making a music video so I did. It'll be a challenge to see whether Jetpack uploads it directly. Original music sound and lyrics by AI and me. AI Meth Morning Music Video It's kind of sad that I mentioned meth ever so briefly in this video but that means I can't share it as publicly. Maybe I'll redo it someday or a different one without but it is currently part of my morning routine.

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# The Discovery and Use of Amphetamines: From WWII to Modern ADHD Treatment

# The Discovery and Use of Amphetamines: From WWII to Modern ADHD Treatment

The discovery of amphetamines dates back to the late 19th century when chemist Lazăr Edeleanu synthesized amphetamine in 1887. However, it wasn't until the 1920s and 1930s that their stimulating properties were recognized. The pivotal moment came in 1929 when American chemist Gordon Alles rediscovered the compound and identified its potential as a central nervous system stimulant. By 1932, Benzedrine, an inhaler containing amphetamine, was marketed for nasal congestion, but its broader effects soon garnered attention.### Amphetamines in World War IIThe onset of World War II saw amphetamines gain significant prominence. Both Axis and Allied forces sought substances to enhance soldier performance and endurance. Amphetamines, known for increasing alertness, reducing fatigue, and boosting...

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Surprise. It’s 7am already

Surprise. It’s 7am already

Another all nighter resulted in yet another obsessive session making another mini meth music masterpiece. Original lyrics and music by Suno.com

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Breakfast choice

Breakfast choice

I really miss when I don't have a few pieces of my chocolate bar in the morning. That role used to be a Hershey's kiss addiction but the $1 chocolate bar not satisfies the craving as I wake up. Less fidgeting with those tiny wrappers. Today I realized two things about my breakfast routine as they apply to the clouds of meth smoke I also begin each day inhaling. The dehydrating properties of amphetamine need things to counter act my dry mouth. Chocolate isn't a good choice. Chocolate chip cookies are. The cookies stimulate saliva better than almost anything I eat all day. Plus they taste great. My mouth fills with the baked goodness of the cookie mixing flavour and saliva together to freshen my mouth. With dentures, a dry mouth has its own unique taste and texture (and odour) and it's not...

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So much distraction completed

So much distraction completed

I want to start with WOW but it's not a very good literary way to begin a post. Still, when I explain some of the things I have accomplished overnight, WOW seems the best way. Starting last night, I began working on issues I've been troubled by, but have been ignoring for weeks. Months in fact. The menu system on my blog and some fine tuning to make the thing mobile compatible. I did it. A lot of fiddling, but I was motivated and the ADHD community on TikTok keep spouting how our superpower is hyperfocus as long as it's interesting. It just took me a few nudges to remind myself that I really do enjoy troubleshooting website design and problem solving. The amphetamine certainly helped maintain focus and alertness all night. I had two things to accomplish so I was able to work in bursts...

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Back to back Fridays

Back to back Fridays

My Friday mood isn’t like other people’s Friday mood. It signals the end of a week where I did not accomplished the things that I had hoped. Friday is often a reflection day where I think about being a loser. Monday on the other hand is the exciting day filled with potential to not be a loser. A vicious cycle.
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Cinco de Mayo

Cinco de Mayo

I don't really think about Cinco de Mayo much. When I was in Vegas once on This holiday the whole town celebrated because almost all of the workers were from Mexico. Other than that I think about Arrested Development every year on this day and how they wanted to create a new holiday Cinco de Quattro which could hold a parade one day earlier. My friend Adam usually posts a bottle of mayonnaise inside his stainless steel sink as his own meme which of course has been duplicated by others over the years but I don't hear much about it anymore because we don't watch regular Network TV with current commentary and commercials. I don't want late night shows anymore I just catch the clips...

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Sunday Summary

Sunday Summary

Not very exciting update on waking up another day and not quitting anything I don’t want to.

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Star Wars Day 2024

Star Wars Day 2024

It's here again. I no longer live among friends that can celebrate with me but at least Snapchat head a few filters and lenses to play with.   

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Miley not Britney

Miley not Britney

A video that does not apologize for making more videos because I can’t stop. It’s the most fun I have all day.

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An Alarming Saturday Morning

An Alarming Saturday Morning

Just now I decided I'm going to separate my daily journal update posts from the general drug post category listing. These aren't really about drugs they are about me and a little interest to a lot of people so it makes sense Some mornings are better than others but the idea of keeping a daily blog even when I have nothing to say it's going to get tiring for me and even more boring and uneventful for you, the reader. Blogging by force doesn't have the same creative impact that blogging whenever the mood strikes you. Whenever the bong hits you.  I decided not to make a joke about the bong hitting me or me hitting the bong. Relationship violence...

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Club.frogstar project ideas

Club.frogstar project ideas

A stream of consciousness blog typed at the speed of my thoughts. Ideas about my dream clubhouse for like minded people to gather and share fun times instead of staying alone.

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Empty House. I clean-ish up

Empty House. I clean-ish up

As I typed this blog I started to realize all sorts of new things about myself, most of which were not all happy cloud thoughts. It is deeply self reflecting.

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Another Thursday. Already?

Another Thursday. Already?

Some weeks surprise me. It's already a Thursday? I remember the weekend just happened. A side effect of using meth to speed past the days I suppose. I started the minute I woke up with two blogs from my newest bong water mixed with the powder left from zip #2 of 3. It clearly wasn't as strong as I expected or my tolerance to that is high as well. It's too bad because I could usually count on a bit of a boof boost. No worries. I finished off with more than enough smoke to get me up and out despite only 3 hours sleep. I'll do better. Eventually. 7:39sm  

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Ahhh.. chocolate returns to start the day.

Ahhh.. chocolate returns to start the day.

I don't remember falling asleep last night but it must haven been reasonably quickly. I opened my eyes 10 minutes ago and rolled over to see my orange clock. It wà 5:45am. A bit earlier than I prefer but I've learned not to risk going back for the second sleep at this point.it caused weird dreams and a very groggy morning. Still, I did close my eyes and lay motionless for a while recapping the two angry angry dreams I had during the night. Angry dreams are rare for me. I'm glad to have them in my dreams instead of my day life.they are easier to dismiss without spoiling my mood for hours, or the whole day. I suppress my anger in real life. I've gotten good enough to boast; I don't get angry  I understand it. The most I will admit to is frustration. When the universe or the creatures...

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Talking to myself Tuesday

Talking to myself Tuesday

Tuesday. Uh the last one in April, whatever. This with the 30th And I changed my morning routine bit because the cows have no hay and they're hungry and a little angry.  When I go down there, I check on the chickens. Yesterday, the cows all surrounded me, and almost locked me in the barn. they're not dangerous, they're not gonna rush me, but they are clearly angry and Emotional. I don't want to upset them. I don't want to have to appear and not give them hay. So we're getting some free hay this morning so i figured I won't go check on the chickens until 10 A.M. They don't care. They've always got enough food and water. Usually, I'm just checking on them. Checking the chickens out. So I woke up at 6. 30 A deep sleep from about 9 pm.  I needed it. I need more. I woke up very tired And...

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March April Musical Videos

March April Musical Videos

A playlist of recent mini meth music movie masterpieces including the great ones created by AI for me with original music, vocals and lyrics.

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One hit repeated

One hit repeated

This music video edited from clips of mine over the past month (March/April 2024) and set to an original tune music, vocals and lyrics by AI with my guidance.

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Todays Saves

Todays Saves

A show-off of all the useless fun I had today including a video is of me playing with Snapchat filters while getting quite spun.

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Welcome new followers

Welcome new followers

This is my welcome message on my Instagram account which is where I dump a lot of my final videos and promos and music videos. I suppose it applies here as well.

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The making of

The making of

It's not really a full making of video but it is a demonstration of streaming my webcam while I work on things like this video. The whole video was well over an hour.

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Wednesday Morning Report

Bing Bing Bing. Wake up.

I was disturbed from my sleep by the pinging of Facebook messenger, but not from som customer with needs. It was my friend. He seemed to be aware it was 6am here and yet proceeded to bong me 6 more times triggering an emergency response from me. I naturally assumed the worst, and that customer or customers were without their morning email check. It woke me. I saw that it wasn't, and lay back down in a grumpy mood to start the day.  Luckily, I have a solution for that. Today's routine is eyes open, take my pill, hit the bong, what was I talking about?

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Sitting down to work – and then not

Sitting down to work – and then not

It happens on a regular basis. I sit down to work ad I fiddle with my cameras, or add some blog entries. Technically that is work, and somewhat valuable,but it’s not what my intention was.

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Rare dream content

Rare dream content

I woke up at 5am and went back to sleep. I had one of my less happy dreams before waking up again slowly at 6:38. When I say less happy, I don't really mean a nightmare. It's more of an anxiety stress dream. It hits my buttons. I was late for my opening day as manager of the store and things kept adding to my lateness in an almost comical way. They would have been funny coincidences is a stage play, but far less enjoyable when happening to myself one after the other. My mother and other sister where there making things worse at every stage. I wanted to leave the bedroom with compromises just to get to work. They wouldn't let me wear that dirty shirt or a pair of my backup running shoes because they were disgustingly dirty or had holes. My car was missing, which is a common theme. The...

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It’s a loop again

It’s a loop again

I do remember from years ago the temptation to blog 15 times a day. Okay five times a day maybe. To just want to talk to myself and tell myself what I'm doing at every moment when I'm smoking and when I'm sleeping and I know those blog entries are not interesting but no one's reading my blog but me anyway and I'm not reading it so it really is just a therapeutic sounding board. Talking to myself lets me sort things out. It doesn't matter that I'm not reflecting by rereading my posts. It helps so I'm doing it. I recommend it and I just have to get past the fact that it has no audience. That's not the point. That was never the point.     

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First thing on Monday posts

First thing on Monday posts

Now this is how I start everyday but it's especially important on monday. Doesn't matter if you wake up tired if you can have a little party before you start the day everything feels better.

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Lost in the Haze

lost in the Haze

Saturday edition of Music video Lost in the Haze about my sadness that Meth music videos are not a mainstream topic I can openly share. written by AI to my specifications. I love this new Snapchat filter.

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Sunday starts with Aero

Sunday starts with Aero

A four piece of chocolate. A pimple on my dehydrated tongue tries to spoil the enjoyment I feel from the chocolate as it melts on my mouth. It's not my regular chocolate but it's still a refreshing way to begin my day. I made it till 6:15am this morning so I suppose I could say I got to sleep in a bit. Inside my head, I seemed eager to wake up. I even dreamed it was 6am once in the night. I opened my eyes and looked towards the orange digital clock on the wall at 3:20am. It's the first site I see each day and it confirms me whether this wake up is the official one or a trial run. Some nights my body tells me it's time to pee when I wake up. This week, I've been able to skip that step and make it all the way till the sun peeks through my window, or the dogs wake up and rattle the whole...

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Alternate clouds on 420

Because you know we don't all smoke weed but celebrating 420 when you're not a weed smoker is no different than celebrating Christmas when you're not a christian. Sometimes people just want to party and be friends.

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Happy Palindrome Day /420

Happy Palindrome Day /420

Today is 4:20 which isn't super relevant to me since I haven't smoked weed in close to a year and even the edibles which are not considered 420 are not in my regular routine anymore. I do recognize whoever that a good percentage of my friends are within that community. I have provided for them a little bit of alternative celebration in that today is also a palindrome day.

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Extras Dumping

Extras Dumping

These are a bunch of posts and videos that didn’t get their own blog post this week. Some were too big to upload and some were just self explanatory and didn’t justify a separate post. It is my new idea. The dumping ground for abandoned OrangeJeff content.

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