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Internal Dialogue of my brain

Internal Dialogue of my brain

3am. You seem anxious. We'll, I heard a rumour you were going to not use meth today. Let me make a case against that. (Falls back asleep) 4:00am Ok, so I'm assuming that nonsense about quitting today is behind us. Can you tell me if we'll start right at 5am when he...

I do pretty good at not regretting

I do pretty good at not regretting

I have formed my belief that I live very much in the now. I am paying attention to my surroundings and being self aware. When I do something .. anything really, the thought has been vetted. I have thought up the consequences in so many ways. I understand now how...

It’s October now.

It’s October now.

I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least....

High Tea on Tuesday

High Tea on Tuesday

Have u mentioned the rock bottom practice of burning the brown spots off my collection of pipes. I don't clean, I conserve. I deckareto my usual tea party friends I was out and would be for a while. Zeppelin. I can hear my heartbeat kind of like a hirserace. I reach...

The mental beuracracy of two Jeffs

The mental beuracracy of two Jeffs

Imagine for a moment what it might be like to have a disconnect in your brain that spontaneously allowed for a second awareness. A second consciousness that remains seperate from your normal everyday life. For me, I am starting to figure out that my stoned...

Having fun on the way down

Having fun on the way down

I'm enjoying life despite the empenfing doom. I'm having fun. Making friends and being me. Awkward and odd in all my glory. I'm saying dumb sjit and apologizing and nobody seems to hate me. They forgive and move on. Ironically these new friends are all from a...

The Grab I can’t affford

The Grab I can’t affford

Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mici g up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying...

So I’m supposed tobe honest here, right?

So I’m supposed tobe honest here, right?

I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...

#torontodrugs

#torontodrugs

COMMUNITY BASED BROADCAST STUDIO#torontodrugs#canadadrugsDreams that actually came true.FROGSTAR.TV is part of the Frogstar family of related sites.KIK chat group website #torontodrugs#canadadrugs Access to this website from Canada only. This page was created to...

The Important Friday.

The Important Friday.

It turns out we do thank God it's Friday. Old English Frīgedæg ‘day of Frigga’, named after the Germanic goddess Frigga, wife of the supreme god Odin and goddess of married love; translation of late Latin Veneris dies ‘day of Venus’, Frigga being equated with the...

Free Million Dollar Ideas

Free Million Dollar Ideas

https://photos.app.goo.gl/WLgSBp6AYKHF5JQ47 I am already thinking I might not share this, but 15 seconds ago, I was pumped. I was going to give away some of my million dollar ideas, and I use that number to show how old I am. Any good idea is worth more than millions...

More private blogs again.

More private blogs again.

One of the early signs I'm off the wagon is 2am blogs and 4am blogs and 6am blogs and Second Life blogs. It means I'm staying up all night. I must have gotten high. It started with 5 Molly pills. I'd been without the pressed branded pills for about 2 years. The last...

The Chat Session Origin Story

The Chat Session Origin Story

Watch how the conversation unfolded and tell me you want to invest. The world needs community in a world where we're not interacting like we used to. Community is key to happiness. Sadness shared is halfed. Happiness shared is doubled. We have the opportunity to...

A real E-Nail Dab bong rip

A real E-Nail Dab bong rip

At first I didn't see the amount of smoke on the exhale that I expected, so of course - I did another one. Another few actually. Still no exhale smoke. I did some nice long rips too. I remember being complimented on how big an inhale I could do back when I...

Our Dream

Our Dream

Somethig that frustrates me in this new connected world is that we can see tonnes of cool people but they're not in my city. Any future for me is digital and virtual.  I've never had great success with online friends. They last till they don't. I suppose I could look...

I’ve been actively not going to sleep since 2 but just now I felt it. I bumped way too much for a Monday. I should. Ding

I’ve been actively not going to sleep since 2 but just now I felt it. I bumped way too much for a Monday. I should. Ding

They gave me 6 demerit points for using Should in the title. Cartoon version of me. Bam  Movie. 3 friends from high school download Sentiance Pak A. Lore. Egan downloads Sentiance Pak B. Data. The three of you look at each other with smiles, as will those of you...

The 419 Loop

The 419 Loop

My mind fluctuates between happiness and terror now that I'm blogging in a Universe that I recently shared with people I know. It's always been much scarier sharing with people I know. It's one thing to read about a person's troubles on screen, and form your version...