I recently learned from a TikTok video that many of the things that I once considered a unique part of my personality are apparently quite common among people with ADHD or autism. One of the things that most interested me was the idea that routines were different for us then the typical human...
Another original song with lyrics and editing by me and music by sumo.ai I like the idea of this video and I'm sad I will probably not get any fans commenting or even seeing it. I tell myself...
A journal entry that takes a deeper meaning of life turn after I wake up and smell the clouds.
A nice dream at that Vegas Hotel for an unspecified annual convention.
A good morning with some realizations to make it a better day. Don’t talk to me before I e snorted my morning meth
I lost my phone and I might blame my new meth
My multiple wake ups before feeling awake meant multiple cool dreams.
A morning blog and video about the last day and the last teeny bit left before cold turkey. Just like a high school essay, I got another extension.
A first thing in the morning review of my Mo day dreams without a bunch of drugs clouding my reality.
A generally positive blog following spontaneous sadness from the night before.
A video dialry I don’t remember anything about.
I woke up a little bit more tired than usual and used the last chunk so I could find various containers to get a little bit of a morning wake up. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. I checked my emails and my socials and made a few Snapchat scenes I could use for...
I wasn't sure if I'm dealing up every hour or sleeping for only an hour between wake -,ups. I'd it the same thing? Either way it's an interesting way to sleep. It's frustrating but I do seem to hit rem sleep, so I feel like I had 8 individual deep sleeps. For the...
Wednesday wide awake and ready to not do stuff again
Sunday reflections are mostly positive today.
A mini mental debate about usage and the video blog for today.
At some moment in almost everyone's life, they might suddenly realize the word Breakfast is actually breaking the fast of not eating since the day before. I knew this of course but for some odd reason, I thought of people all over figuring that out at random times in...
Two lipsync experiments singing my Morning Vibe song.
My Thursday morning video recapping my mood and the animal chores with a positive mood.
My Wednesday morning report where I changed up my routine yet again and got more fun than usual. I have to unmask.
Waking up groggy at 7:30 is different. I had some neat dreams but having drug dreams while I have drugs is new. Usually I'd have these types of dreams about two or three weeks after I'd run out. I'm not remembering my dreams as well these mornings but they definitely...
My morning routine is different everyday and today I just sort of felt like making a music video so I did. It'll be a challenge to see whether Jetpack uploads it directly. Original music sound and lyrics by AI and me. AI Meth Morning Music Video It's kind of sad that...
My Friday mood isn’t like other people’s Friday mood. It signals the end of a week where I did not accomplished the things that I had hoped. Friday is often a reflection day where I think about being a loser. Monday on the other hand is the exciting day filled with potential to not be a loser. A vicious cycle.
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Wednesday morning returns to what I refer to as “my normal” these days.
Not very exciting update on waking up another day and not quitting anything I don’t want to.
Just now I decided I'm going to separate my daily journal update posts from the general drug post category listing. These aren't really about drugs they are about me and a little interest to a lot of people so it makes sense [videopack...
Today was a good day, starting with an ok morning and drugs.
Some weeks surprise me. It's already a Thursday? I remember the weekend just happened. A side effect of using meth to speed past the days I suppose.[videopack...
As I lie here at 9:45 on May 1st I contemplate staying here for a brief nap and starting my productive day closer to noon as I have done many times in the past 2 months. Good morning routine which includes blowing white clouds of smoke is a good reason to not try...
I don't remember falling asleep last night but it must haven been reasonably quickly. I opened my eyes 10 minutes ago and rolled over to see my orange clock. It wà 5:45am. A bit earlier than I prefer but I've learned not to risk going back for the second sleep at this...
Tuesday. Uh the last one in April, whatever. This with the 30th And I changed my morning routine bit because the cows have no hay and they're hungry and a little angry. When I go down there, I check on the chickens. Yesterday, the cows all surrounded me, and almost...
My Wednesday report
I was disturbed from my sleep by the pinging of Facebook messenger, but not from som customer with needs. It was my friend. He seemed to be aware it was 6am here and yet proceeded to bong me 6 more times triggering an emergency response from me. I naturally assumed...
I do remember from years ago the temptation to blog 15 times a day. Okay five times a day maybe. To just want to talk to myself and tell myself what I'm doing at every moment when I'm smoking and when I'm sleeping and I know those blog entries are not interesting but...
I didn't realize I had Snapchat in directors mode so it saved for videos in one. It's handy feature when you know it's turned on.
When I wake up, and then I super wake up, I talked to the camera about my day. Some days this will be deeper than others.
I woke up from a particularly good dream this morning by a dog bark. One single dog bark. It was eventually followed by a second Park and the third but spanned out over time. One bark every 30 seconds or so seems to be more efficient at waking humans than a flurry of...
So about half an hour ago I posted a video of me writing the blog about my morning decision whether or not to smoke...
Changes in my morning routine are tough to make. I play it safe and smoke my morning pic-me-up before feeding the cows
I woke up at around 2am and 4am, both of which are pretty standard times my body seems to like for a late night pee break. This time, I convinced myself to go back to sleep instead. When I woke up a third time and discovered it was 6am, I was actually surprised. 6am...
For the last few years, I have been sleeping with a hat. It covers my eyes when I sleep so it is essentially dark in my head, even if the room or sunlight is bright in the room. I am able to wake, but not evaluate the darkness. It allows me to drop back to sleep...
Good morning after a big fight doesn’t feel as happy as I would like.
I recorded my Friday morning wake up routine three times in a row. Not the best start to the day. It was frustrating but not enough to break my spirit yet. [video...