I’ve written many times of how I ignore or avoid things that are important in favor of doing other things that are less important. Important tasks for customers often get put aside until they complain and even then longer. It’s one of my most frustrating traits and despite being totally aware of it, things still remain undone.
The current example which inspired me to write this instead of doing it is a customer that needs some assistance in something that I don’t currently have the knowledge for. In other words solving the problem, will require me to learn.
I don’t mind learning new things. In fact, I enjoy the concept of learning new things and I’m excited by new things on a daily basis. But the fear that comes in advance of being forced to learn something right now is different. I know I’m going to have to read and comprehend before the actions can be played out.
I miss smart guy and I understand that this entire process may take less than 10 minutes but in my head I have put it off 3 weeks and pissed off my customer needlessly for a task that won’t be hard. I hate this part of me.
But now I’ve written it down here in this blog, and turned it from a task into a responsibility. Something that will get done today. I promise myself, which is meaningless because I break promises to myself all the time. I want to do this task.
I can’t explain why I don’t but I really want to. I’m outside with the dog right now when I bring him in I’m going to sit in front of my computer I’m going to start and finish this task. Watch me.
Even as I type that with confidence I am aware the odds are low. I’m shaming myself now. If I don’t do it I must be crazy.