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Drug Posts
These blogs contain conversations related to drugs and drug use. In many cases, the blogs were written while high on various recreational substances. I warn that not all of these entries make sense, and they have not been proof-read.
The down streak
In keeping with lights pattern of having bad things happen when you're in a bad mood and multiple bad things happening in threes or in groups, this isn't a great Monday. It seems my server has upgraded websites to a newer PHP that isn't compatible with all the plugins I use so that's one thing. The site that I'm working on that should be done by now but it keeps dragging on because AI makes...
They’re laughing at me, aren’t they?
Fuck. Realization.
Another day outside Paradise
Recap of my horrid morning.
More sadness posts
A horrid hungry morning
How well do I know people
Good morning blog about how my brain creates a decision making process about everything. I have to choose to trust blindly and it gets harder every year
Wow. Two masking dudes
A brain to gboard unedited script here, but if luck hits it right a different version will magically start an income for something I want to give away
Is the wall breaking?
A shit post about shit.
Wednesday all night
Wednesday all day and all night.
Terrifying but ignorable guilt
Another problem I ignore hoping will go away.
Holiday Monday Amped Am
I am super amped up this morning believing this blog is great.
I’m not used to being busy
I started writing about something else and just rambled.
Offline ramble. Distractions and Excuses
Why I don’t like to finish what I’ve started.
I wish I knew more, but I do. Perspective
A quick unintended ramble about being secretly smarter than you.
I admit it. I’m brain blocked
I distraction blog written when I’m supposed to be doing something else about distractions when I’m supposed to be doing something else.
When the meds aren’t working
The circle of dehydrated solid bulky poo.
My fantasy. Who, me?
I just got a reply on Reddit to an attempt at flirting that made me remember how bad I am at flirting
I’m out. January edition
The repeating return of being out and restocking my current drug of choice, and chocolate.
I passed worry and fear weeks ago
It’s funny to think that there’s such a thing as bad math which would imply that there’s good meth and there is but it ain’t what I’ve got today
Accidental Meth Addiction Q&A
I cannot decide if this was a good reply or not, but meth says it’s a great example of meth addiction so I posted it feeling confident.
Decision Time. 2:34am
A 3am blog about what happens next. 4am, 5am. Are we set for a new music release, or work?
I listened to one of the early AI podcasts
A spontaneous life evaluation post. The kind I often have in January. Reflect on things I’m not planning on changing
The ewww but do it anyway ritual
The life of a drug user.
A weird place to be in my brain
Hard drug choices. Drugs are bad, but bad drugs are worse.
I won’t try this again, probably
Bait and switch before I knew it.
Sleepover
Deep bleh thoughts
No Smoke. No Snack Tuesday
Part of an unbalanced break – fast. Literally fasting through a break… Maybe.
Morning necessities
I’m out again. This or soon will be.
Sudden irrational fear… But maybe
Oh no. I’m out again
Hair ,-The nightmare.
A deep and personal blog written as soon as I woke up today. Life perspective.
Really bad Jeff day
That time I built on hard work.
spun spun spun… All night song
Original song and music video edit
Things I notice occasionally
A mid day pondering.
My legacy is self ruining
That escalated quickly. A 5am confessional.
Six false starts.
The secret blog revealed. Warning. Not for the faint of heart.
I picked up my phone for this
The most important blog I didn’t write.
Autistic User Manual
Late night blog post that should have been longer but I lost the energy halfway through. The original idea was I wanted to talk about the concept of creating a user manual for autistic people and their friends and family.
Six two
Today is a good day. Why write it any other day?
Thursday Review.
Good and bad moments, but a good day starts with bank deposits.
A day of sucking
A lot of things have not gone well today and I'm always fascinated by these kind of unrelated minor problems that seem to happen when I'm in a bad mood. I've always said; good things happen when you're in a good mood and bad things happen when you're in a bad mood. I never really thought much about it beyond the quote. The universe just seems to work out that way and the understanding is beyond...
The return of doubt
When I'm low on my drug, I ration the doses so I don't have to go without any at all. It's probably not a good plan but to some extent it does give me a small amount each day instead of going cold turkey until I have a car and funds at the same time, and can go restock. The problem happens that I also have to eat and my budget often forgets I need to restock that too, pretty much every week. It...
October Nights, Dreams and Mornings.
October is the best. Deep sleep hard mornings and orange chocolate.
Morning blog choice
I don’t know how to describe this blog. New rut is disturbing.
Thanksgiving dinner
A blog it doesn’t mention Thanksgiving dinner and then an unrelated music video that I wrote today about coming clean and admitting my drug habit so that I can share this blog with more people. Hidden away in an unrelated post so that I have an out when I don’t do that.
My first liver spot!
A story about life’s mood swings and wasted worry.
Thursday of the week alone
I've been alone since Tuesday, taking care of the house and the animals, and I've done an OK job. It's not particularly difficult, it's just more than usual, remembering times and paying attention to the distress barks if there are any. And today I woke up i've been getting up a little bit earlier and doing some of my social activities before I start other things and it's interesting but if you...
New Songs and Platform
Link to my new Reddit Subreddit about drug music videos
Whoosh, it’s Friday
I've been trying to do things that are somewhat memorable each day so that when I look back the week didn't go by without anything to make it stand out from the previous week. I needed this month to go by quicker than the others because I had no money, and it was always stressful to ask for borrowed money, even though I knew I had $600 coming in from the Canada pension any day now. Any day now,...
Labour Day 2025
Daily drug hello plus bonus Holiday Monday Rabbits
Morning without chocolate
The video was recorded in WordPress using my own phone camera and a plugin written by AI and I.
Post Test
The silly debate. Really?
I knew the answer before I asked the question but still stalled a whole hour to really be sure. One day I may say no.
Blogging from the past
Every now and then I start a blog like this one without a clue what it would be about. I know I have several videos and photographs on my phone worth sharing. Here we go. Oh look. It's a lame one scene music video. Well, you never really know what you'll get blogging...
Basic Video Post
Talking to myself.
Mouse or Tree
It's 2am and I'm having trouble falling asleep. There are three possible reasons but I have chosen to believe it is a mouse in the wall next to my bed. I declare it tonight's story. It certainly isn't a twig on the window. It's coming from inside the house. It's certainly not the fact that I have not slept much the previous two nights followed by heavier than usual smoky mornings so I'd stay...
Posting things I’ve forgotten
I do not know.
Insignificant missing post
A blog about forgetting to write this blog.
I feel like sleeping till something changes
I know that's not quite how sleeping works. You have to make the changes in the awake time but lately I don't feel like much of anything. Kind of blah and I know I have blah periods where I post about being blah periods. This is one of them but somehow seems more significant than the rest. My down mood has been noticed and admitted. In a normal situation, that might require discussion or at...
My brain approved a sabotage
I slept all day yesterday and missed the evening chores
Was that horrible?
The afterthought of my previous blog post about canceling plans with my new activity partner.
Final moments. Microscopic last ditch attempts to cloud
Trying out my new inside-Wordpress camera plugin that I created with AI.
Forced Dieting
Another diet blog during my fast
I forget my own records
A mopey woe is me self pitty blog I should delete, but didn’t.
Still sleepy, two puffs
The idea of infinite divisions comes to mind. You have a set amount of something and you can cut it in half. Mathematics tells us you can cut it in half infinitely. Science tells us that there is a finite amount of cutting in half because there are no molecules or atoms beyond a certain point but I believe that changes as science changes. I'm pretty sure molecules at one time with the smallest...
Rough morning. Cake farts
This was a hard blog to write. I’m sad I forgot the dream. It’s was three back to back good ones.
It was easier empathically
I forgot I had some weed 2 hours ago. Edibles. They seem to have hoit me while I was typing and I on;y remembered later.
Talking about me
A Google Notebook LLM recording with claymation characters all about me, me, me.
Sunday gets full portion
Sunday 11am update. Feeling better but just by a hair
Gloom week
I tend to run low or out of everything at once, usually towards the final days of the month. The 22nd is when my big payment for the hosting server is due and I'm often out of food, chocolate and occasionally drugs. I have $410 coming in next week so it'll be close. I'm out of chocolate and backup chocolate and emergency chocolate. I've got nothing to munch on and keep my mouth moist. Being out...
And that was Friday
I turned my bedroom light on from the wall switch hoping but not expecting it would have healed itself and stopped doing a single flash every few minutes or so. It's annoying but in a way that can be ignored until I feel in the mood to spend the time to solve it. Tonight is not that time. I have to do more of the chores I should have finished yesterday but didn't. The temptation to not do them...
Taking more edge off than needed
There is a phrase people often use generically without understanding what it means. This includes me. What exactly is the edge that people feel the need to take off? So I asked Pi the ai. My question today is about the edge that people say they like to take off. What is the edge in; takes the edge off actually intended to be, and how did the term come to its popularity with things that...
The rock needs pushing.
At the moment I have just finished writing this but without my spelling or grammar being checked, I am very proud of this. I hope that joy is not crushed by the edit that comes after the adreneline fades.
