These blogs contain conversations related to drugs and drug use. In many cases, the blogs were written while high on various recreational substances. I warn that not all of these entries make sense, and they have not been proof-read.
I get a lot of messages on Tumblr from fake profiles looking for money or information or just compiling contact lists. I never know if it's Russia planning something, or Africa looking for suckers, but they have one rule. Never break character and... two.. two main rules. Never break character and never stop replying. Always have the last word....
In school, I was the kid always needing an extension to any deadline. I didn't start to work on things until they were due. I am aware I often never completed the projects withat all. Incomplete was a common word on my report cards. I did well in class and often I passed just because they knew I'd be exactly the same if I had to repeat. In real...
I have work to do. I smoked a bit of meth. I did my work. That's the story. I have enough pipe residue to repeat this a few more days as needed. I have no idea whether pipe white is as strong as a shard, but today it has been enough to get me up and working. I should have done it yesterday to keep the client happier, but my brain secretly tries...
It always frustrates me a little bit that blog readers get the life story backwards. No matter what page of this blog you have to read first, it's history is in a previous post. For example today I started off talking about being off drugs for the first day. Shortly after that, I posted again saying that I had located some shards on the floor and...
I had a nice nap from 730 to 930 or so. That was nice. I felt refreshed but wondering. Was this life for the next while? Would I sleep my days away again. The truth of my life is that I don't do much during the days. I have animals to feed at 7, noon and 4:20 and 6 each day. I have a customer base that occasionally needs some attention, but some...
The weather is getting cooler. The rooster and three hands are still waking up and expecting to be fed, which is fine. The dogs, or more specifically one of the dogs, seems to be trying out something new. Barking. Barking and whimpering and whining for no apparent reason. At least no reason that I can detect even when I given that query face that...
I knew the last day wouldn't really be the last day. Whenever I say I'm out of math and this is my last day, I know there are at least two or three pipes that have a little bit in them and the stems are still white and can be melted into another cloud or two. Even now I know there are a few extra bits I could use to create a cloud. I will before...
Last one for a while.
A super quick flip compilation of my last day getting high. At least for a while. Probably not permanently.
I don't actually want to look up when I bought. I would have find out I used an entire ounce in just one month I think I would be surprised and a little upset with myself. I take that back I don't think it matters. It was an opportunity that...
YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it's usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons I don't remember right now, it gurgled. The gurgle is a social sound that goes...
It started with a few meth bong hits at 7am and then the Thor Love and Thunder. It's the Marvel comedy relief character I think. An action movie with funny stuff. I had a tiny line of my remaining stuff. I doubt I can make it last beyond tomorrow. I am not as afraid of being without as I was before. It might not be such a horrid experience. 3pm....
I'm trying to extend the last tiny bit of the drug I have remaining. I started off using some of my brown burn surplus. It provides the exact same amount of white smoke upon exhale but didn't give me any wake-up boost. I rolled over and went back to sleep. I don't have any chores on Saturday so I rolled over and went back to sleep a few times. I...
You're not really out until the dirty pipes are clean.
No digital trickery here. Just happy clouds.
I'll be out soon. I mean I we'll be out of drugs and I will be forced back to normality against my will. That means I'll probably sleep most of the weekend. As I ration what's left, I change from long to lines. I snort rather than smoke. My...
I messed up in a big way, and I'm going to pile lies on top of lies to get into less trouble - I hope. There are a few major things I do wrong and against the rules while living here. Three big ones that could get me evicted without trial. I am currently waiting for the phone call about one of them. I broke a huge rule that creates a level of...
Some drugs are physically addictive and quitting needs a process. Your body learns to function with the drug and needs time to wean off it properly. A lot of mental prescription drugs are this way, but they don't use the word addictive. My Paxil can make me seriously ill to the point of death if I quit it cold turkey. If I go more than 3 days...
It used to be 4pm, then 3pm but today it's 2pm, and probably 3 and 4 too. I'm staying up and in a good mood, which is hard because I'm obsessively worrying about all the meth I've been smoking this week.
I've experienced it before. You probably have too. One of those phases of life when you feel the rut more than yesterday. More of the same. The loop of Thursday, although it can be any day. Another day of waking up, doing my chores, feeling like I want to go back to bed, doing my chores etc. It's life, but not so much living. Nothing new and...
I have been wanting to try some experiments with strobe lighting. Super fast flashes of light in a dark area. I have memories of it being somewhat fun and disorienting at parties. Somewhere in my social media browsing I recently saw something with strobe lights and smoke. I don't remember where or even what I saw but I'm trying to find new ways...
I have to be honest. I don't know if I've already uploaded this one. I went upload a different one and couldn't find it so I chose this but it's a day old and I may have already posted it.
I did a lot of videos a lot of photography and a lot of fun stuff today. Some of it is even productive. This message exchange was from another sex hookup bott, but I didn't know it at first because it had a lot of cool posts. Somebody else's pictures I figured out later. They're from Snapchat filter profiles.
Of course it's not really viable that I would think people would want to sponsor me smoking meth. I mean it's really still considered something no one should be doing so certainly no one would ever want to be associated with it... That doesn't mean you can't have a little fun with it. [video...
I wish I could find the same level of interest in absolutely anything other than making compilation videos or music videos of me smoking meth. Anything else would be preferable but this is what I do. And I'm even getting bored of it....
It's the Tuesday after labor Day, but for me it pretty much feels like a Monday because I slept through quite a bit yesterday and didn't have feed anybody but myself. This morning, I woke at 6:30 pleased with the amount of sleep I had received the night before. The start of the evening had me on a dream sequence I wasn't particularly happy with...
This is a quickie one shot that I really like the lighting of. I think I even uploaded this one to Reddit
my cream soda coloured clouds blown into a bagel bag just because.
When I see a template in one of my video tools that has clouds, I feel obligated to use it to make a video.
These 4 pictures are screen captures from one of very first meth music videos. It's still one of my favourites and at the time, nobody else was doing much creative with their cloud videos so I was proud. I learned nobody really cared. So now I create videos mainly because I enjoy them. if someone else does too, that's nice.