These blogs contain conversations related to drugs and drug use. In many cases, the blogs were written while high on various recreational substances. I warn that not all of these entries make sense, and they have not been proof-read.
These blogs contain conversations related to drugs and drug use. In many cases, the blogs were written while high on various recreational substances. I warn that not all of these entries make sense, and they have not been proof-read.
A thought occured to me 2 hours into an edible I knew I should have saved. It would have been killer before I'm already high. I enjoy the edible come up and high. Storytime. Inyeruption. Second life version of the Canadian speakers corner if licencable or usable like...
Read moreI smoked a nice amount of weed after a booty bump of fucus. I just did another one now. It’s a subtle rush, but better than other methods, for me at least.
Our top story. Today was a productive cheat day and night. And morning. I smoked a nice amount of weed after a booty bump of fucus. I just did another one now. It's a subtle rush, but better than other methods, for me at least. I try not to worry about infection in...
One thing I've always been fascinated by is the quantity of medication required to do a specific task. I'm not referring to dosage but more literally to the actual quantity of medication that is included within each pill. Society has been conditioned to think that bigger is better in many aspects of life, and drugs are one of those areas where size doesn't always matter. The size of the pill is...
I wish I had the nerve and the talent to properly express myself on websites and figure out how to meet people and mingle. I am a 59-year-old male with excellent communication skills. I'm a nice guy but I am asexual and have never really experienced passion or horniness or sex. I'm awkward. I react differently than people expect to just above every social situation and have a fear of asking for...
This Gallery includes all of the files that I created during January 2023
Galley of playing around on my phone in the dark during the night hours
Blogging at 3am means I must have found some additional drug supply. Yup. Boofing bong water.
I am reminded of the days when I used to save documents with file names like final. Final two. This is the real last one. This is the one. The last final. I made a number of videos recently proclaiming the last of my winter meth stash and then I made another one after finding new ways to scrounge and pillage from my collection of dirty pipes and bong water. Today I make another such video which...
This is the end. Feb 2, But luckily it's groundhog Day so it will repeat over and over and I'll be able to stay high.
Today was a sleep day. I woke up to the alarms each time. The 4:20 alarm was the worst surprise. Waking up has never been a very serious problem for me. I can rise pretty quickly when I need to. I woke up and did the scheduled tasks each time. The pig is now comfy under its blanket. It's time to watch my regular TV shows. The Blacklist and Blindspot are my two current series. I have a few slices...
This post marks the very first time I have ever used emojis in the title and I have no idea whether they will translate to the browser or Apple computers or anything really. When I typed in sun and cloud these replacements were offered as options and I decided to choose them. It is most likely not to practice I will continue in the future but who knows. The world is changing and language is...
Three experiments I didn’t share because I didn’t like them enough.
It’s gone. Silly 2am accident and my last day is now.
A small gallery of the things I played around with this weekend.
I certainly should have expected I'd use up my stuff quicker than expected but it seems fitting I will be out on the last day of January. I have no regrets for my usage going up. Despite being a little suspect in the purity department, I really enjoyed this binge. It may be some time before I buy in that kind of quantity of course. I have very little income remaining and now I have to try and...
I'm almost 60 and about to stop using meth again. It puts my mind in a reflective mood reevaluating who I am, and what things I missed that might still be possible. It's part of a recurring trick my brain starts playing in an attempt to justify buying more drugs. I try to convince myself there are tasks I would be doing if I had the focus high. In this case, it's about some of the social...
John Stewart once said something helpful about doing a daily show. You never have to worry about doing a bad one for long because you replace it tomorrow. This is not a great daily smoke video. One exhale, restyled as different versions of me.
How to fix a blah mood in 31 seconds
Back in the 90s, I used to be a raver. When I'm trying to appear cooler than I am, I tell people I used to rave every weekend from 95 till somewhere in early 2000 when the rules changed and the LSD dried up and I...
Random Photos from my Phone
Done work for the day, so I get spun and play.
Every now and then I take note of something in my life that is different than I remember it being. The question I always ask myself is, is this because of my drug use or because I'm almost 60 years old. The good news is, whichever one I wanted to be it can be. In some cases it would be beneficial to blame the drugs and say I'm going to be off them again next week. We'll see if it comes back or...
Stuff that didn’t get selected to share on my social media sites.
3am weather update. I have to finish clicking my lighter before his 3am alarm clock goes off so 2:50am is like last call.
When I find myself awake and aware at 3am, it's usually clear I'll be up all night. Sometimes I can fall back asleep but these days it usually means I used some drugs too late or too often for sleep. At this point in the early morning, the effects of my Paxil have little effect, so I tend to start thinking about not sleeping, and that keeps me awake. At 3am on weekdays, he wakes up to ready...
I scroll through Tumblr or Reddit and the posts about drugs are always intermixed with drugs containing sex. Most frequently, lots of nudity and hard active sex. I want to be a part of that world, but I'm terrified, so I just ignore it. I don't even try. I stay sexless and dull, scrolling by the fabulous tits wondering what my life could have been. Wishing of had a sexy drug girlfriend and liked...
It’s Sunday, and in memory of the days gone by when I was excited to read the newspaper comics, today’s video has been modified to look like cartoons.
I was tired most of the day yesterday. Considering how much meth I smoked trying to not be tired, it was a bit surprising. I figured today would be a good day to catch up on some extra sleep. On weekends, I get to sleep past 7am. I slept till about noon, with occasional wake ups to take my meds and drink some water. At noon, I decided it was enough, and I started my day with a few hits of wake...
I've always been adaptable to a change in plans at the last minute. At least I think I have. I know I don't mind postponing or cancelling. It ends my anxiety instantly. I suppose I get upset at the big plans I was looking forward to, but I try to not let change like that bother me. I like the universe making plans for me. Tonight I planned to go to sleep early and sleep maybe all day. My body...
I had a good night's sleep and only woke up once I think just before midnight. Then again for the final time at 5:45 a.m. There's a unique state of mind that I'm not sure I've experienced before. I can remember having a dream, but not remember the dream. I definitely had a unique dream complete with all of the components that make up my dreams which are scripted scenes with detail and...
Sometimes I think this blog is trying to do too much for me. It is my hobby and the silent friend I talk to when I need an outlet. It doesn't judge me. That might change. One of problems in life is that expectations of success are usually not close to reality. I don't like my dreams and goals. They're better left as dreams, because the realities are hard. Effort. I can dream without lifting a...
I started early, virtually the moment I woke up. Then again at noon at 5pm. If the pattern holds, I’ll do more after 6pm and try to sleep later.
There are winter bugs keeping me awake at night. Well, and the meth too. It's probably the meth now that I think about it. In fact, I'm not even sure there are bugs.
Hyper Focus is real. It’s why I’m still making memes at 2am
Todays creativity flow.
A short film by me staring various crazy characters on my staff.
It’s only 2pm and I have accomplished a lot of fun projects. This is one of them.
Did I already post this one from my phone?
As I was recording this video it looked like an Indian snake charmer.
Once I finally made the decision to not go to sleep on Thursday, I started making videos again. I didn't make as many but each time I make one I blow another cloud so it's a self-fulfilling cycle that gets me higher, and when I'm higher I want to make more videos which requires me to get higher. I won't say I've been super high because of the way my brain works but I've certainly been in a very...
4am quickie clouds
Testing new view with lots of windows active
This is the second hand edited video I made this morning before 7am.
When you wake up at 4:20 you have to respect it, and blow some clouds. Most people associate 4:20 with weed smoking, but I like to think the meth clouds dominate 4:20 AM Â Â
It's Saturday at 4,:30am. I woke up slightly off my regular schedule and broke a streak of consistency. I'd had several weird dreams related to non existent web design projects that seemed complex and broken, so I almost call them nightmares. I had a bit of a hunger so in keeping with the theme of inconsistency, I smoked a bit, ate a few soft cookies and decided to try a blog. I've become...
Another music mix of today’s hits. Made by Filmora video app.
Every day I turn on my webcams and start working on customer support issues, website updates, and my own project at club.frogstar. I stream this on the webcams but I don't usually talk much, so all you see is me working, or taking hits off the bong.
Not every day, but most days. Meth, music, mashup
I slept well, and woke up refreshed. Almost instantly, I reached for my last piece of chocolate and the meth bong to start my day. I don't have guilt or regrets about this anymore. At this moment in time, I am ok with identifying as a daily meth user... At least to myself and my blog. I don't like to use the word addict because somehow that feels worse, and it seems to imply that it is a need...
A good first message if you’re new here. My life snapshot.
I quite like how this mini mix turned out with only a little bit of fiddling.
It wasn't a productive day and I had little to do officially, so I mostly tried to get higher, but this medication tops out for me. At a certain point, pretty much after 3 bowls or so, more doesn't help. More and more is wasted except for the purpose of making videos, so I made a lot more clips. I probably smoked more today than my heaviest days, and made quite a few clips to be included in...
A filtered version of an original I did last year.
I took and old video and gave it new life
This is from 5 or 6 years ago, redone with today’s filters.
What an interview. I’m surprised they let me keep the bong.
A few times I blew clouds on the webcam in December
Last Updated on 9 months
December 2022 was an always high month, so naturally, I made a lot of compilation movies.
I started streaming myself more starting in November. I am exposing the discussing and boring side of my life alone in this 12x12 room. This is the Archive as of today. [gallery type="google" view='photos' album_id='ACG1XVPvYVe2R78O9uBvQMFGh95XVUsRvqFmH74gzvB29jVPEKalukTU6YSQfTWJypw00bEigizE' media='videos' count='400' layout='masonry' thumb_size='150' crop_thumb='no-crop' main_size='1600'...
I really liked this mini meth music masterpiece. A short and sweet summary of the day
I refuse to acknowledge my doubt.
I used tools to make this, but I really like the look.
A few more pics I played with.
I was always curious as to how black light would affect the white puffy clouds. Today, my black light arrived in the mail.
I have lost track of how much — or how little sleep I’ve had this week.
Sex, Drugs and Rock and Roll (or EDM) has been a partier's top 3 activities for decades. The drugs and music may have changed, and the rules for sex are not the same as in the 70s or 80s but music, sex and drugs are the party tools. I've been missing out on a major third and I'm almost 60. It's so hard scrolling through Tumblr or Reddit posts and seeing everybody talking sex. Everybody but me....
I didn’t watch this video right away so I didn’t notice it was not working with the green screen.
Three new videos created for promoting this site.
I know I've talked about the loop before and honestly I know I've talked about a lot of different ones but this week I'm experiencing this week is the loop of doing the same thing over and over expecting different results where have I heard that before. I get high at night regret it and do it anyway the next night when I could have gone to sleep much earlier I don't like to be productive tonight...
