Of I start with the assumption that I will discover ways to be unhappy with any choice, doesn't it makes sense to pick the easier ones? It's hard to keep everyone happy. Money doesn't motivate me. I just want to live without being yelled at.if no option is ideal, then pick one without a 4 hour...
Transit Blog
Monday customer service
Yes Hello. I'd like to exchange this current life for a new one. I don't like the amount of effort involved. I was mislead about how it would be better. I realize I've only had this new life less than 30 days and I can change my mind and go back to my previous option of no life if I wasn't...

Indecision
I'm on the second bus now. Each ride of my daily commute is about an hour and then I change from Toronto transit to Mississauga. This morning, I was out of sync. I took a bit longer walking at the transfer point and missed the first bus so I've been standing here...

Friday Commute -Moist edition
Yesterday ended in an exhausting mood swing. My new job is a lot to adjust to, even for me; a guy who talks about adjusting to change like it's my superpower.If I'm honest with myself, I know I'm cheating this time. The way I've adjusted to a complete reset in my life...

Short walks are scary
I get another chance to worry about death every day. In the moments following short walks or stair climbs. The moment when I stop to lean on something for a while and catch up breathing.It's not that I feel I will die right now, but I am aware of my unhealthy diet,...

Two days on, freak out.
I'm not really feeling the blog inspiration this morning. I was looking forward to it on the walk to the bus station. It is a nice spring day and I was alert and feeling the confidence needed for a good day of work and overall progress. Although it's Thursday, it's...

Replacement Monday
It's a Tuesday here in Toronto but it feels a bit more like a Monday because we had a long weekend holiday Monday. It was supposed to be a rest day so I could start my office job again. I have only worked 4 days before they shut us down to stay at home with COVID. My...

Day two Milligan
Technically my Thursday at the bus stop but only my second day of work because discovered I didn't have any way to pay for the bus so it took the day off despite it being only my second day. I will stand by my testimony but it was a legitimate mental health day I...

Day 2. Still not perfect
I know I should not be concentrating on the negatives but... I'm still smiling despite the setbacks. The amount of failing can hopefully make a numerous story. I am still sporting my long hair and full beard. Apparently all the neighbourhood barbers close at 6 or are...

501L
I foolishly thought all bus stops were equal on the Queen West line, so I missed the earlier one, but Google maps says I should still arrive before 10 I'm on it now, and it is cool and bright and I found a seat although I'm conscious about still being a bit smelly....

The internal yes/no battle
When I have a task to do, and I can see how many steps are ahead, I debate. I feel tired and want to quit. I don't have to quit.i really need this task, or these shopping items. Today I am out and about on my own with lots of things to buy and get done before I start...

The train back. Hope.
I broke a rule. I'm only a little afraid. I think I can get out of the $400 file if this go train ride happens to check tickets. On all my ridrs do far, nobody has. However I may have paid for this one twice, just to be sure. I may not have enough for the high fare...

A New Fan
I woke up at 6am and started my Monday right away. I turned on the webcams and started recording footage for what might be used for the making of The Orange Jeff Show. I have a new optimism fueled by a new fan, a new month, a growing need for change and of course, a...

Midweek Monday
It's Wednesday but I'm calling it Monday because I get to go into the city and work my Monday office gig. They declared the real Monday a snow day. It wasn't a bad storm but there was enough accumulation to last a while, and the first snow is always the first for...

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Having fun on the way down
I'm enjoying life despite the empenfing doom. I'm having fun. Making friends and being me. Awkward and odd in all my glory. I'm saying dumb sjit and apologizing and nobody seems to hate me. They forgive and move on. Ironically these new friends are all from a...

This is where I’m honest, right
I'd like to think I could be honest again, because I think I'm worth a second look. I only feel this is true. When I'm high. I did a huge thing today. I just did it. I got high on a drug that isn't weed. Let me lead into that. I have a story. I'm an interesting...

The Grab I can’t Afford
Sometimes I amaze myself with what I'm willing to do to appease others. In this case, it's as much appeasing myself I suppose. I'm mixing up emotions in my head. This week I happened to acquire $100 in cash. This is money that rightfully should be dedicated to paying...