I share my private videos in public because if they were only shared in private then nobody would see them but me. Although I do enjoy making these videos and probably would anyway it is nice to share them and get praise occasionally. I do get questions occasionally. I’m going to try and answer some of them here.
Q: You blow quite a lot of clouds in your videos. Are they all from one session?
A: they’re not usually from one session they are often from one day. The videos that are just short or one cloud maybe two are often from the day of.
When I wake up in the morning, I blow quite a few clouds and often I will make the video right then at the end of five or six clouds sometimes at the end of 10. The more creative videos tend to be after smoking more. Once done in the evening similarly draw from that day most of the time.
The longer videos that have a bit of a storyline or a plot or segments that are not just cloud blowing usually draw from a larger collection of imagery from my phone past and present. In short, I record a lot of my usage. I would say 90% of the time I’m blowing clouds I’m recording it although not all of that ever gets used.
I found it a great advantage to wear the same orange T-shirt as much as I can so that the videos can’t be linked to one specific day or time.
If I was wearing an orange shirt, those videos can be used in a lot of other videos. The only difference is how long my beard is.
Q: Aren’t you afraid of consequences from posting your videos online?
A: I try not to be afraid of letting consequences interfere with enjoyment. To some extent this is shared by many drug users. We can’t be afraid of getting caught or we won’t be able to do a lot of the things we do. Like smoke meth.
I have lived through some consequences already in that many of my close friends and family have changed their opinion of me forever when they found out. That was a consequence I didn’t expect. Although I keep my drug life separate from my social life for the most part, I don’t specifically hide it from public access. I just don’t tell everyone about it. Most of my friends are either accepting of drug use and aware of sites like Reddit or they are older than me and I don’t really worry too much about them accidentally happening across one of my profiles.
If somebody finds me in a drug forum on Reddit then the chances are they were in the drug form on Reddit and will either be pleased to have found one of their friends shares this interest or embarrassed by their interest and stay silent.
I’m semi-retired so I don’t have too much fear of losing customers if they find out. For the most part, it hasn’t affected my customer support any. I wrote that sentence after some consideration because there are clear examples where my drug usage has affected my work and it shouldn’t have. I had a very specific line I didn’t cross until I crossed it and then the line went away. That’s another thing I think a lot of drug users are familiar with. Setting lines they will never cross until they cross them and then justify it in some way.
Justification of a drug habit is a nasty habit in itself. I don’t mind admitting to being a drug user but I do hate that part of it. I should have boundaries that I follow and stick with them but as time passes, those boundaries almost always fall away. It’s the justification part that bugs me.
Q; But you post public accessible videos of you visibly breaking the law. Doesn’t that worry you?
I guess this is really the same question as the previous one but I broke it up into two because the consequences of your friend finding out you’re a meth smoker and the local police finding out your meth smoker or significantly different consequences.
My answer will start off the same. I try not to let myself worry about that because the benefits that I’m getting from being public in my head outweigh… No. I won’t say the outweigh the consequences of getting caught because it is a lifelong goal of mine to not be in jail. I’ve never even been in the back of a police car or in a police station for any reason. I’ve never even been called to the principal’s office.
So there are undeniable consequences that it is possible my online presence would lead to me getting in trouble. I have evaluated that in my head. The internet is international and most of the places I post are not local resources but international resources. I have a reasonable level of confidence that these online social media sites are not regularly being monitored specifically to arrest a casual user. I do not promote using the drug and I do not encourage using drugs. I do not sell or refer to sellers of drugs in my videos.
I don’t arrange to meet people although I wouldn’t mind some chem sex now and then. Grin. Where I live that’s never been presented as an option. In fact where I live right now it’s farm country. I don’t want to appear arrogant and increase the likelihood of me being a Target by saying I’m not afraid. I’m just not worried because I think the chances of my videos being the reason for an arrest are low, and the enjoyment I get from creating them and posting them among like-minded users are higher. No pun intended.
I feel I’m a pretty low risk user that doesn’t really endanger anyone else and there are better targets to pursue. I understand however that this could change at any time and I have a life philosophy that helps. When all else fails, make sure it’s a good story. That’s the only thing of value in the end.
What this means is, if it does happen, it will be a chapter in my life story that I haven’t yet experienced. The story doesn’t care if the situation is good or bad. Jail would be a good story.
Maybe that is too arrogant and answer. The short answer is I like making the videos and I don’t believe that I pose a serious enough threat to anyone to justify the labour in catching just me. This is not the case for everyone of course, and perhaps it is just a mental justification.
There are a lot of things in life we should not be doing and if we thought about the consequences of law enforcement, we wouldn’t be able to do those things and that’s a shame. Some of the best things in life are illegal. I’m still going to go 20 km over the speed limit when I drive on the highway.
At the end of all this I will mention one additional fact. Currently as of 2024 British Columbia is in its second year of a trial program where possession of a small amounts of drugs are decriminalized. I don’t know the official wording but as I understand it, you will not be pursued unless there is a belief of dealing or huge quantities. If I am caught smoking my drugs, there is no ticket, no fine, no record, and no reputation change. Who knows, they might even be a fan.
You might think I should have led with that.
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