This category contains any video or blog posts that could be related to actual Internet content, including web streaming where I actually talk to the camera. Most of these posts are more than a year or 3 old.
This category contains any video or blog posts that could be related to actual Internet content, including web streaming where I actually talk to the camera. Most of these posts are more than a year or 3 old.
I am experiencing a mental block that's trying to prevent me from continuing work on my new website project. I've had enough time to overthink and predict future failures so my excitement and enthusiasm in the creation of the project has dipped a little. This is not a...
A short film by me staring various crazy characters on my staff.
Daily affirmations are not for me… I do like the idea of a daily routine however
Every day I turn on my webcams and start working on customer support issues, website updates, and my own project at club.frogstar. I stream this on the webcams but I don't usually talk much, so all you see is me working, or taking hits off the bong.
I've been working full days on the new website project over the holidays. On many ways I am impressed with myself, which of course leads me to suspect the good mood. I will find fault with my happiness soon enough. Onviously I am maintaining those hyper focus mostly because of my meth usage, which has been surprisingly low. That's because I amp up on the morning, and hardly stop working till...
I am a helpful person when I can be. I like to make people smile. My goals in life have always been to support of others in some way. I'm working on a new project that has been my idea for decades. ... I stop typing. It's late on Christmas night and I want to sleep... But apparently not enough to stay trying instead of doing a little more. Meth is not a "one more before bed" kind of drug. It's...
Controlling the Lava LampsI’ve had a webcam and a Lava Lamp in my office or bedroom since I discovered the original X10 power control boxes. Some of you may remember X10. For a while, their ads were plastered everywhere. My roommate at the time wrote a small utility to activate the plugs from a web-based click. Those X10 boxes still exist, but they’re cheaply built and the ones I had for the...
Learning, failing and trying again
A storage archive of some of the times I live-streamed from this website
I worked all night on my streaming setup.
I'm trying my best to get some major exciting progress on the task I've been hyper focusing on for a few days. I had some setbacks today but I finished what I consider a good day of work.I'm still keeping the negative thoughts away,so I like the website idea at this pace. The longer I postpone failing and moving on, the more life I'll have filled with things I like, right up until I don't.I've...
https://orangeshirtblogs.com/wp-content/uploads/media/old%20tv.mp4 This is a short opening sequence experiment for The Live Stream
You see an online virtual mall filled with flashy storefronts and top notch animated advertisements everywhere. You walk down the pathway in awe at how many options there are to spend money on a seperate universe. You see a new store is opening up where the old bookstore used to be. The Conversation Room doors open soon. Nobody knew what it was. There were guesses and bar bets placed. They were...
I woke up at about 8:15am and decided today was a day to give some of the week's backlog of unfinished tasks the attention they needed. That lasted about 15 seconds before I returned to this stress-free website project. I really would like to finish the webcam streaming functions without resorting to external live stream resources. I know it is possible because it was working fine until it...
When I smoke meth recreationally, I like to create. I try to make interesting videos of me blowing clouds.
I was distracted to the bright moon out my window. It changed the overthinking. I have so many current projects that were exciting before sleep and after waking up, I embrace my now and never give all my recorded media blogs a second draft. The joy in writing is delicate. It is significantly harder after you've already started thinking about something new.
My plan is to be recording by audio, and there's this important to all that. Okay. Water, oops, live brain transcript, Canadian Thanksgiving October 11 2021 Coming up day drinks water. So the story so far. I just got high. And it's, it was at 420, in the afternoon on a holiday Monday. The plan is to not do that again tonight, but just turn on the blog mode. And, oh, so much later, I get the...
I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least. That's not significant to my friends at all I'm the only one that has been a loyal viewer of Saturday night Live since the second...
via Web Captioner
What a great Quarantine Hobby Project. I'm building a free and public TV empire. I am still in the pre-production development of this show. My ultimate goal is to create a watchable program for Toronto stoners who might be up late looking for things to do. Tonight's version is boring because I could not actually figure out the audio and so I didn't talk much. I downloaded a new tool to help with...
[widget id="wpwws_widget-2"] Hi, I was pleased that the day old Pizza lasted two days old and was good for breakfast. This is the last of the discount Pizza Hut's they're taking their sales away. I ate a lot of pizza over this. Like you have no idea. I could show you and you still wouldn't be able to comprehend because not all the piles of pizza boxes are showing but there are 50 pizza boxes...
I woke up at 6am and started my Monday right away. I turned on the webcams and started recording footage for what might be used for the making of The Orange Jeff Show. I have a new optimism fueled by a new fan, a new month, a growing need for change and of course, a morning boost of drugs. Monday is a downtown office work day for me. I should be out the door towards the bus stop by 830am but...
Idea. I would like to make $2000 a monh and not much more. I want to create a site to win the market. A site that is not on;y free, but BETTER than all those crap sites that don'y actually have real people or elegable. Site Idea: social network Craigslist JUST for Toronto. Craigslist style personals lists in several categories. Personal ads or even personals pages and blogs. A social...
Disclaimer. As of November 14th when I wrote this, Vera Macdonald was alone and thriving on Facebook. The Vera I refer to in this blog is a fake Romanian Vera Macdonald, trying to get me to pay for my winnings. Conversation Information Vera Macdonald WED 4:52 AM New User Created with stolen pic. I know its the scam even before the first message. Everything below is a fiction I created...
COMMUNITY BASED BROADCAST STUDIO#torontodrugs#canadadrugsDreams that actually came true.FROGSTAR.TV is part of the Frogstar family of related sites.KIK chat group website #torontodrugs#canadadrugs Access to this website from Canada only. This page was created to introduce a the idea of a blog that can be shared by thge people of the KiK chat groups #drugstoronto and #drugscanada If you would...
It turns out we do thank God it's Friday. Old English Frīgedæg ‘day of Frigga’, named after the Germanic goddess Frigga, wife of the supreme god Odin and goddess of married love; translation of late Latin Veneris dies ‘day of Venus’, Frigga being equated with the Roman goddess of love, Venus. Compare with Dutch vrijdag and German Freitag. In therapy, we discussed that I need to work harder to...
I finished it. Back to normal. Normal-ish. Today was a good day, despite a constant upping. A lot. It's 8pm and I am high on weed, I feel tired but my heart is racing. I did a lot on two weeks. I'm hoping my math is wrong and it was three weeks. In truth I've been bringing on drugs for a while. A long binge. It will be tough to quit and a while to recover and be as good as it was in June....
I'll see how far I get. Hi. I'm orange Jeff. It's a Wednesday and I've snorted enough meth to keep me up till who knows when if I really pushed it. It's an old story, I told over a year and a half ago. My problem is the story is from this week. Twho days before I have to be a weekend employee of respect at a convention where I work the info desk. I am predicting a fail at this point, with...
https://photos.app.goo.gl/WLgSBp6AYKHF5JQ47 I am already thinking I might not share this, but 15 seconds ago, I was pumped. I was going to give away some of my million dollar ideas, and I use that number to show how old I am. Any good idea is worth more than millions to the right person. For people willing to start a business withthe knowldge to be a success, could be. In other words, there are...
This is a test of me belonging using my voice. But not making a video. I don't have a good explanation as to why I'm not just making a video. Should I? It'd be a lot easier. 3 hours later. I'm back. I just wanted to take a moment and record in words, how much fun I had today, alone. I did the same things I would have done when we were together, except without the punchines, or interaction. I got...
I toked. I sat straight up and made the choice to get out of bed and go to the computer. For years (I thought) I've been getting high some nights in bed, and whether or not I start to write or record is not always easy. Sometimes I just get high and watch TV. But in my head, I'm always thinking and creating and pondering. I mentioned to my psychiatrist that I often think about life like I'm...
I'm just the right amount of the high to blog, and 9:36pm on a Thursday. I am doing my best not to panic, and not to freak out, because I feel a failure cominhg on, and I'm not sure what to do about it. Noteable this week. Phyciatrist on Monday. Weird. Not easy. Unfocused and starting over, biut still good. Still value. Still nopt guilty enough to quit. I am almost a hermit man and almost a...
I have blogged a lot in the past, and sometime as the chatcater Orange Jeff, but more recently, while a big high, I decided it might be novel to have Orange Jeff blog from within this Universe. I am literally typing this as ... Oh now I've ruined it all. I'm streaming live to YouTube although I forget whether I set it to be viewiable or not. I was pondering the other day, which of my business...
Get high and... It's your fault Cards against humanity Spontanious talk show character roll play sitcoms expert on... a new game I just invented. We all sit at a table and a topic is pulled from a hat. The host picks up a micrtophone, turns to anyone and says; Mr SNobwilly. I understand you are considered the bworld formost expert opn... blank. Whatever. That petrson must then take the mic and...
I'm not sorry. I do not regret today's desision... But of course, I'd say that now, still under the influence of a euphoria I previous denied. I am euphoric and creative and excited. I have been writing all night. My normal behaviour was to take some MDMA and try to find somebody to help me with my lifelong quest. The quest for my partner. I try to go into business either with one of my top...
My idea for the moment. Everyone needs a good community. A group of friends to share ideas and do stuff with. People who care about you and keep you distracted and fun on a lonely evening. Everyone, but specially awkward singles of any age. I propose an online community idea that could be done easily and cheaply but benefit a whole lot of people. This proposal was written on weed with...
I saw it coming. It came. It happened. The Monday I gonored something intentionally, and upset thhe balance. I failed and will have to explain, or take the fault and run away. A huge deal. A job I need, but don't want. So I pre- failed. I'm sad. It's the monday after I relapsed. I took some molly and went on a walka bout. I got very high and then very low. I ghosted an employer ion the day of a...
I realized quite a few things in tonight's high. I may remember some of them to type. 1) LRM 2. I might actually be better than just ok. Level up. Bonus Orange jello. c. I learned today that people almost never notice if you put the world the twice in a row. That was actually the coolest thing of the moment. It's #shareworthy to be sure, although I may never ever use it again it will come up in...
I dream quite a lot, primarily because I tend to sleep quite a lot. I often remember them when I wake and sometimes they're worth writing down or posting to Facebook. Today I decided to blog my dream because it relates to my web site in a way. On my home site http://frogstar.com I have a number of royalty-free simple comedy scripts that seem quite popular. I released the skits to public domain...
It's a week and a bit since I started the new perscription from my phyciatrist. I didn't really ask for the drugs, although that was my intent for the last three years. The whole story stems from me wanting to see if amphedimine based medication would work for me, because my A.DD has gotten more noticiable since I started evaluation my life when I had to live on my own for the first time. I...
Watch how the conversation unfolded and tell me you want to invest. The world needs community in a world where we're not interacting like we used to. Community is key to happiness. Sadness shared is halfed. Happiness shared is doubled. We have the opportunity to invent a whole new world in the Second Universe model... but NOT Second Life. EVERUYTHING in this universe can be duplicated and sold...
The Orange Shirt show is the predecessor to The Jeff Goebel SHow, but I'm not ready for that yet. + The Current Life is knowing which way your stream of consciousness should choose at every form in the current. The Now is where the choices are made and if you don't, the current chooses for you. The NOW keeps moving if you choose or not. That's why people are able to live a life with a...
They gave me 6 demerit points for using Should in the title. Cartoon version of me. Bam Movie. 3 friends from high school download Sentiance Pak A. Lore. Egan downloads Sentiance Pak B. Data. The three of you look at each other with smiles, as will those of you readers who see setiance and that Lore and Datat, the two brothers that we're so different because Lore had choice, they called it...
I traced mans fascination with technology and gadgets back to the invention of the cord. Even more than the plug or even the invention which some nerds might enjoy retelling. One unexpected side effect of our current generation correction is that people suddenly became aware that the past was a horrible time, on so many levels. Holding our legendary historical stories and figures -- I stopped. I...
It's the 420 Loop. My first all nighter since whenever. I re=upped as they say. Late in the day Wednesday so I slept a normal night without a taste, which is rare foe me. It's not often I get new drugs and don't feel the need to do them as soon as I can, often in the parking lot of whataver plaza I met my guy in. i'd run out Saturday and slept all day Monday, waking up only twice to check and...
A previously secret collection of over a decade of journals and blogs from the mind of Orange Jeff telling the honest stories of my mental illness, brain chemistry and the rest of my universe. My struggle to be a real boy, always comparing myself to what I thought was normal. This blog has secrets. Explanations and a lot of apologies, but no regrets. The first apology/explanation is about the...
My first time trying distraction-free writing in Wordpress. I am surprised it's not full screen... it's a popup that is actually quite distracting because of the DIVI interface behind shows in the corners with blue and green and purp[le squares. Distraction free also means feature-free. I'm dumping this experiment. It is however not lost on me that distraction-free writing mode is...
It was 420am. On a Saturday. We've sung that song already but as I was blogging the 4:20 report here, the chatheads going steals my focus and I am toasted by a fellow stoner. As traditional as a kisdvst midnight on new years eve, recognising 420 at 420 is a thing. April 20 is our holy day. She sent me this. Is there a picture here now? Review update. After more use in the frild, the Grammarly...
I had a recnt Religious fight. Not really a fight. A comment attacked, and then they ran away. Too bad. THe Bible was probably less about lessons and more about communal analogies. I did a really nice video tonight 10pm. If I watched it I could probably augment it with the blog. I had some strong pride riding in the background while I talked. It made the smile creep and gave...
As an experiment, I am going to use this prime moment where judgement is imparred, and that inner voice that exists to say no and stop me from doing the things I wish I could. I'm going to stream a long winded post here in this block with no promotion and see. Observe. I'm Orange Jeff, and this is an orange shirt blog. When you write, or make videos or sing, but you don't share, then...
This is the second attempt at my depression log post. My tablet rebooted and lost the first attempt. I was having difficulty blogging today, and it was especially disturbing to see the reboot lost it. The one thing it seems the new DIVI web development tool isn't ideal at recovering from an autosave and forced reboot. I'm still not certain why I lost that text. Loss is a recurring theme, but...
My mood did some steeple chasing... no stupid analogy. Icarus? I was sad once this week thinking... I might actually be crazy... my character may not be gentle man who helps, but rather crazy Jeff. It is possible nobody would be surprised to lean about my drug abuse. The image of pefection I have lived a life in search of, is 100% in my head. recap. Throught the day, as I expand my limited...
It's 9pm on A saturday in March. I'm JEff Goebel, I'm wearing Orange. I'm highg, and I guess I just started another loop. Several things hanged in this loop. I tried a free sample snort of something new, and it had the expected nothing results. Recently I had a mountaiun top lightbulb moment. I used the anaolgy before but I really liked it, and made enough sense that I assume it's...
It's actualklu Saturday, but I've been in good spirts, got quite a lot of #prideworthy struyff done today, planted some more seeds that may grow into the responsability of showing off and sharing the site. I'm Jeff Goebel, It's 12:22am on a Friday night in March, and this is another Loup. Perhaps the next leap, will be the leap home. I saw a funny thing at Dinner tonight and I just...
Excuse me. I seem to have lost the news. --and the mojo. Can't write. Must try rest. Fuck Yoda. Everything I do is a try, including half the stuff I don't do. Without my teeth in, my top and bottom lips flop around like a monkey doing the Bababooey face Sal took 4 months to teach him. They are sensetive tp the beard and moustache trim. Sharp ends. Bababooey Babbaboey DING. A new task...
Good evening. It's 10:45 PM... Looks like we're starting another loup. I have confidence I will arrive in sleepville shortly... Interesting, I have no idea what goes on there. Perhaps sleep Jeff is the higher consciousness That tries to protect me. And with that, I am too tired to continue this part.
I can do that... Really I can. I just can't do that high, is what I really mean. However, if you ask me twice, I might confess that I just hate doing stuff... no, wait. Oh High Hi... I didn't see you come in. pause. Do I really want to go down this road? It's only day two and already I am starting out with a play? A script. Well. It was fun, wasn't it? Yes. Then... why not. You like...
I have a little mind game I play sometimes when I get a new idea. A connection of two random thoughts become one that makes sense. In my head, I have conditioned myself to feel the moment of connecting like a light bulb. You are brighter and now may be able to see and make other connecttions. Sometimes the realization of a lightbulb moment where two unrelated loops become familiar...
The New Daily Orange report.
Orange doesn’t choose a side
BAM… Except in Canada, it’s socialist. Whoops. That might be a problem. Orange may have just trumpoed to the top of the list of reasons it might not be the best path forward.
No. I refuse. ding. Whoops. I am sorry my President, I’m in the wrong room. My apologies.
You’re Orange Jeff? Cool. I use a lot of your submissions. Thnaks. The 137 year plan is going well, yes?
The New Daily Orange report.
Orange doesn’t choose a side
BAM… Except in Canada, it’s socialist. Whoops. That might be a problem. Orange may have just trumpoed to the top of the list of reasons it might not be the best path forward.
No. I refuse. ding. Whoops. I am sorry my President, I’m in the wrong room. My apologies.
You’re Orange Jeff? Cool. I use a lot of your submissions. Thnaks. The 137 year plan is going well, yes?
I don't like to be loud late at night when I'm not alone in the building. When I do the videos, I am loud. I get excited and volume is a full dimension of expression. On the other hand, I personaly hate loud. I fear it. It scares me and I shy away. I have three loud childhood memories that may or may not have made me cry. Loudness reminds me of at least one, if not all three. I enjoy fireworks...
