Life really is like chess. I suck at chess. It’s not a game for my instant gratification lifestyle. I don’t think moves ahead. I have enough trouble with NOW.
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NOW
It’s October now.
I got distracted on my way to writing this blog because it's 10:35 on the first Saturday of October and it occurs to me that I will probably be up at least another hour and could watch Saturday night live season premiere live for the first time in 2 years at least. That's not significant to my...
I see it now. I’m already in the pit
Previously I had found the polar opinions about meth usage on Tumblr an interesting mix. Many of the people were declaring their love for the drug, posting pictures and memes of their enjoyment and love others were posting negative imagery, often declaring they...
Ewww. I wish I didn’t do it… but I don’t regret. Can I do that?
I did some work on the format of the blog tonight from bed after a few tokes. I'd worked on client sites since about 3pm and managed an hour of fake sleep in there for a bit, but I'm eager to make this blog a little nicer. I am learning every time I use it. I think I...
More signs I should ignore
In a low moment I turned to the equivilent to Jesus. I remembered the story from Str Trek Voyager where Chekote tells of the woman on the roof who ignored all the help she was given. Then, moments later the show I have chosen to watch mentions the only other story...
Thi is my life now, until this is.
I laugh as I start to write. The piece is to start as a cometary that I am not only enjoying the improved perception of progress, from my bed... The King's home row and my computer...one symbolic row to my right. I leave this chess board. ding. Realization connection...
NOW? You just missed it.
I may have been thinking about NOW a bit wrong. It exists, and may even be the same universally, but we can't really detect when it is, or was. Our perceptions are too slow. In previous writings, I have stated that we percieve NOW as a moment that our sences can...
Serious stuff now.
ahhhhhh... I don't feel like it suddenly. Its work and my brain shoukd be resting thoughts. Alas, I have mixed a heavy dose of THC and some counter agent of .. The tortose ad the hair sewn together ewwwww.... did your mine go to the assholes or the ... In my brain. I...
I’d like you to understand
Let's start with it. Â Drugs are kinda my thing, Â more so after 50 than before, Â but really - Â as far 0 0 0 back as I have memories, Â I have been fascinated with getting high, Â but too good to actually O it till quite late. Â I use 27 in my stories as the start of...
The story of now
I've been writing more about the concept of now, or a universal now. The single moment if time, that we exist in the aftermath of, and the stories. All of our existence is in the stories were told. Or the stories we tell. Our reaction to now. Our realizations. Now is...