I slept well. I even had some dreams.
When I woke up at 630am I had one of those glimpses into my life as a drug user. An evaluation checkpoint where I had to decide; do I restart the loop again now, or wait till later? I can feel the effects of dehydration. I don’t have much food for today, and I have tasks and customers waiting on me.
Will today be a good day?
The things I keep putting off are safe for now. The current to do list is manageable. I think I can get them done before noon. Then maybe I can go back to sleep for a while.
I manage my day handling who is mad at me right now, and how can I appease them. It’s not a great system, but it gets me through each day with minimal stress.
The loop continues.
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