The in-between time.

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YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it’s usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons I don’t remember right now, it gurgled. The gurgle…

The in-between time.

YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it’s usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons I don’t remember right now, it gurgled. The gurgle is a social sound that goes through walls. If the house is silent, it can be heard in the other bedrooms.

This may or may not be true. In my head, it is like an alarm alerting people to my smoking. I keep my weed bong nearby as my cover story should I ever have to explain what I was smoking at 9pm on a Sunday.

He’s probably already asleep anyway. I just fear the confrontation in whatever I do, especially when it comes to smoking meth and extra worried because of his discovery of my meth both that became something we don’t talk about.

I wanted that mini hit before sleep. It does not seem to greatly affect when I sleep. I never quite know what to do with myself from 8pm till whenever I fall asleep. Which seems to after midnight if I lay silent from now to then.

Over thinking or doing activities can result in staying up later… And then I obsess and am up till 3am or all night. I never quite remember when or how I fall asleep. I doubt anyone does, but I certainly know the more I obsess over falling asleep, the more likely I am not to…

So around now, I lay back and try to rest my mind. I’ll toss and turn and I stopped counting that a year ago. I watched a Rick and Morty episode before shutting off for the night. That has better obsession content than the other shows I’ve ended the evening with.

So I got a small hit of focus. My mind stays on single topics more. That either helps, or it’s just another addiction trick, but I believe it helps. I don’t want to be awake till 3am.

Tomorrow or Tuesday I will be done with it and a whole new series of obsessions will either keep me awake, or show up in my dreams.

I’ll be sure to blog this eventful week.

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