My bedroom clock somehow lost almost an hour while I was away. Unusual because it’s never really needed adjustment before. Perhaps it slows when the battery weakens. I guess that makes sense. Some things just stop working when the power gets low and others work slower. My body does both.
Yesterday was a detox day. No drugs and I didn’t get out of bed. Today could easily have been the same but I have a life to figure out. I have to figure out what to do with the website.
If I find a solution to my life in the process, that’s a bonus. Perhaps I should figure out my life first, bit I’m an easy customer to ignore.
Recap. Bad debt. The power company needs over $1500 I think and I’ve saved less than 1000. I don’t make enough to cover it each month do even if I pay this. It will keep climbing.
It’s 8am and I’m still not in my morning work mode. Everywhere I look there are things to do. I live in a mess. The steps required to get the air conditioner working are numerous and daunting. I will start at it today and then probably lay down again.
I have lost motivation that my dream job failed so easily. I gave up instead of fixing it, but it’s not all my fault. Being off work with COVID for 10 days reduced my payment and I didn’t find a new place to stay.
That is partly an excuse, but I wasn’t doing the right work anyway so I decided to take a break and plan a new strategy. The meth work day was dehydrating and eventually worked against the goal.
I need food and water today. I should have a plan. I can’t ignore it for long.