Artificial Excitement
I’ve been working full days on the new website project over the holidays. On many ways I am impressed with myself, which of course leads me to suspect the good mood. I will find fault with my happiness soon enough. Onviously I am maintaining those hyper focus mostly because of my meth usage, which has… Read More »

Artificial Excitement

I’ve been working full days on the new website project over the holidays. On many ways I am impressed with myself, which of course leads me to suspect the good mood. I will find fault with my happiness soon enough.

Onviously I am maintaining those hyper focus mostly because of my meth usage, which has been surprisingly low. That’s because I amp up on the morning, and hardly stop working till late in the afternoon or evening. I’m not doing all day.

It’s actual read productive work too. I may take some weird paths to complete an individual accomplishment and solve many side quests along the way, but I am really enjoying this project.

I have a hard time putting things down to take a break for lunch or pee or even social conversation with the house mates.

I am not comparing myself to other people with this work. I have no idea whether I’m faster that other people might be. Those are normal anxiety Jeff. All I know is I’m getting a good mood from this work during a month I can often be very down.

I try not to fantasize about it’s future. Success is a labour I’m not usually willing to commit to, no matter how much id love a butler.

All I know is, I’ve tentatively stopped for today and look forward to tomorrow… And working on limited sleep hours hasn’t ruined me yet.

 

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