My Wednesday report
Drug Video
I’m still working on more closely defining the videos that are of drug use, drug memes, or just general videos. Most of the ones in this category are drug-related
Anticipation to Trouble
Nobody likes getting in trouble. At least I assume nobody does. I've spent my entire life trying my best to avoid it. I've modelled everything I am and do around the fear of being yelled at. It is my whole personality. I put all my energy into people pleasing, and yet...
Wednesday Morning Report
My Wednesday report
Anticipation to Trouble
Nobody likes getting in trouble. At least I assume nobody does. I've spent my entire life trying my best to avoid it. I've modelled everything I am and do around the fear of being yelled at. It is my whole personality. I put all my energy into people pleasing, and yet the parts of me I have little control over are the parts that make me clumsy, specially unaware, forgetful and all the traits of...
Bing Bing Bing. Wake up.
I was disturbed from my sleep by the pinging of Facebook messenger, but not from som customer with needs. It was my friend. He seemed to be aware it was 6am here and yet proceeded to bong me 6 more times triggering an emergency response from me. I naturally assumed the worst, and that customer or customers were without their morning email check. It woke me. I saw that it wasn't, and lay back...
My morning routine – animated.
This is an animated recreation of what I do in the morning. It’s not complete but it does show a couple of steps that happen every day
Morning Obligation Blog Post.
A slow start to my day today but after my morning routine, I'm feeling a little bit better about the day and ready to go feed the cows.
Rare dream content
I woke up at 5am and went back to sleep. I had one of my less happy dreams before waking up again slowly at 6:38. When I say less happy, I don't really mean a nightmare. It's more of an anxiety stress dream. It hits my buttons. I was late for my opening day as manager of the store and things kept adding to my lateness in an almost comical way. They would have been funny coincidences is a stage...
It’s a loop again
I do remember from years ago the temptation to blog 15 times a day. Okay five times a day maybe. To just want to talk to myself and tell myself what I'm doing at every moment when I'm smoking and when I'm sleeping and I know those blog entries are not interesting but no one's reading my blog but me anyway and I'm not reading it so it really is just a therapeutic sounding board. Talking to myself...
More morning musings on a Monday
I didn't realize I had Snapchat in directors mode so it saved for videos in one. It's handy feature when you know it's turned on.
The Earth Day Daily Obligation Post
When I wake up, and then I super wake up, I talked to the camera about my day. Some days this will be deeper than others.
First thing on Monday posts
Now this is how I start everyday but it's especially important on monday. Doesn't matter if you wake up tired if you can have a little party before you start the day everything feels better.
Snapchat informed me it’s Earth Day
Observing my usage habits.
lost in the Haze
Saturday edition of Music video Lost in the Haze about my sadness that Meth music videos are not a mainstream topic I can openly share. written by AI to my specifications. I love this new Snapchat filter.
Meth Talk – Chat profile thieves
Meth talk is a video series where I discuss some of the topics relating to meth users that may be of interest to other meth users.
Meth Talk – OrangeJeff’s Meth History
Meth talk is a video series where I discuss some of the topics relating to meth users that may be of interest to other meth users.
Mini Meth Talk – I’m out of cookies
Mini Meth talk is a video series where I discuss some of the topics relating to meth users that may be of interest to other meth users.
Saturday Mini Meth Music Masterpiece on 4/20
Another music video edited by me from todays meth hits.
Webstream with my AI co-host not fit for air
I totally forgot I was streaming this as I hit the bong and blew some clouds. OOPS
Sunday starts with Aero
A four piece of chocolate. A pimple on my dehydrated tongue tries to spoil the enjoyment I feel from the chocolate as it melts on my mouth. It's not my regular chocolate but it's still a refreshing way to begin my day. I made it till 6:15am this morning so I suppose I could say I got to sleep in a bit. Inside my head, I seemed eager to wake up. I even dreamed it was 6am once in the night. I...
Walk and Talk – Morning Reflections
Walk with me as I ponder my universe.
Meth Talk
The premiere episode.
Alternate clouds on 420
Because you know we don't all smoke weed but celebrating 420 when you're not a weed smoker is no different than celebrating Christmas when you're not a christian. Sometimes people just want to party and be friends.
Happy Palindrome Day /420
Today is 4:20 which isn't super relevant to me since I haven't smoked weed in close to a year and even the edibles which are not considered 420 are not in my regular routine anymore. I do recognize whoever that a good percentage of my friends are within that community. I have provided...
April 14th thoughts
April 14 morning thought and clouds
Ginger Snapping
What I would look like if I was OrangeJeff in real life.
Meth Talk: Stealing profile content
Posting my daily journal entry.
Extras Dumping
These are a bunch of posts and videos that didn’t get their own blog post this week. Some were too big to upload and some were just self explanatory and didn’t justify a separate post. It is my new idea. The dumping ground for abandoned OrangeJeff content.
Prolific Post Day
Just three videos I didn’t post online. No commentary
Friday Morning Reflection on my use
Daily Diary of meth thoughts, opinions and me.
I tried NOT doing drugs this morning
just trying to get this post online has been blog worthy in itself
Pondering Life and Fridays
The concept of Friday has been bred into us over years as being the beginning of a weekend. The start of our combined relaxation and freedom. Of course when you don't celebrate weekends and your days are all the same Friday's seem less significant and yet in our minds there is still something about the day that indicates the end of the work week, even if your work days are identical. I have made...
Shardi Bardfast
I created a second Snapchat account for a user with a more meth related name. My plan was to allow myself to post some meth content more publically to find an audience that didn't know about me. I was thinking I could post anything that used a Snapchat filter instead of my true face would be safe, but even though I chose an email address I knew none of my contacts would have, it still loaded my...
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Post farm feed post about posting
I was finishing up feeding the animals, filled with excitement to come back inside and start a new blog entry. The previous blog which I had written just before leaving to feed the animals was ironically about me feeling need to need to blog more often. Well fuck it. I'm going to blog more often anyway. My initial plan was to start talking about the meth chat series that I created years ago and...
This Phase.
Just now I remembered something. I've been here before, and by here I mean this phase of being a daily user. I remember it's happened similarly before. I'm not sure when, or how often I have repeated this part of the drug user loop. I felt good and more confident and I started reflecting on...
Two minutes to midnight
Still technically Monday and I haven't fallen asleep yet. I've been playing with noses instead of creating anything or making new videos. I should be tired. I haven't smoked anything since 3 or 4:00 p.m. and I was doing pretty well at regulating her fairly normal sleep cycle. I made a lot of errors today both in speech and memory and just in general doing clumsy things which didn't occur to me...
Blogging about not blogging.
Another blah day when I feel less likely to get much done… until…
Masterbation for money
What am I doing under the bedsheet. Only I know, but I’ll tell you about my unusual sex life as a man without passion.
Watching my Webcams
These two webcam excerpts were filmed on the same day, with a few meth hits in between.
Meth Chat: Lighter Paranoia
This blogging video talks about my fear of loud lighters. I know all my lighters by the sound they make and which ones are safe to click click when people are near.
I make a lot of videos
I try not to think too hard about the fact that my life is now much fuller. I'm busy from morning till night most days. I do my farm chores and talk to the camera. Those videos and clips are then thrown together with very little effort and some helpful apps and shared on YouTube with select copies shared with Instagram, TikTok, Snapchat and Facebook. I am obsessed with making videos and there...
My Drug Questions Answered (Part 1)
I share my private videos in public because if they were only shared in private then nobody would see them but me. Although I do enjoy making these videos and probably would anyway it is nice to share them and get praise occasionally. I do get questions occasionally. I'm going to try and answer some of them here. Q: You blow quite a lot of clouds in your videos. Are they all from one session? A:...
Saturday Night Awake
I spent two days making another music video creation and I am posted it all over wherever is possible and nobody commented. I’m having a hard time getting used to that but I still don’t want to make general population friendly videos
Make today a Monday
I know it's a Sunday but part of my philosophy is that any day can be a monday. Fresh start. A day to get things done. In my case perhaps a day to clean.
Best Friday night in a long time.
One of the things that I seek out but don't really seek out is friendship. I want it and might even go as far as to say crave it but I don't really do much to actually find it. This should come as no surprise since I do very little to do or complete any goal. I'd go as far to say I'm afraid of goals because success means more effort and I've modeled my personality and lifestyle over contentment...
Friday Recap
If I talk too much on my phone in the morning and try and upload it from the phone to the blog, it's too big. There's a very specific size limitation of my wordpress site without having to go to an FTP, which I don't want to. I could, of course, upload it to my Google drive and then use an app to display things from my Google Drive. I just thought about now I can also upload it to youtube if it...
Maybe it is a morning race
I woke up from a particularly good dream this morning by a dog bark. One single dog bark. It was eventually followed by a second Park and the third but spanned out over time. One bark every 30 seconds or so seems to be more efficient at waking humans than a flurry of barks. They seem to have learned this only recently. It was the same when I lived in niagara. You could ignore a flurry of barks...
I’m getting used to Thursdays
I woke up. I blogged. I ate chocolate. I started my day.
New Original Music Video
A new original music video edited by me with old clips and original music and lyrics assisted by AI. I’m quite proud of how it turned out ironically it’s about not being able to be proud about these kinds of videos because of their content. It’s very personal to me.
Inspiration from routine.
In recent days I have made some inspiring quotes to other people, in messages and comments. Today, as I woke up at 6am from a kickass awesome dream ready to start my day, it suddenly occurred to me that I have inspired myself as well. Sometimes, curly sans serif text over a JPEG background with a single line comment makes sense. Life can't always be dimmed up by a Facebook posting, but it...
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vivid and fun alien dream
An obligation daily Post that doesn’t really qualify as a good blog. I’m disappointed in myself but I did at least maintain the routine so far.
Fantastic morning mood
I made a 5-minute video previous to this that was supposed to be today’s daily journal but I guess I would still a little high and somehow it didn’t get saved. I was in such a up mood this morning I could have made 10 videos and I think I made four. I sent this one to a friend for inspiration and they thanked me.
Bad Hair Day
Two videos created today. Neither is especially good but I do try to create videos with some variety so I can’t expect everyone to be a winner.
My new morning routish(ish)
This is a video I created this morning and. oddly, I did it in Snapchat and I think I turned on a couple of filters I didn’t expect, so it’s got a super zoomed face but apart from that it is my. it is my morning video blog, attempting to keep the routine up..
Walk and Talk. Blogging by camera
I am starting to enjoy blogging again, but it’s so much easier to do while I’m walking than to type it all out. Some will be video blogs like this one.
Don’t Call me a Crackhead (Original Music Video)
Even though this video wasn't technically written by me, I'm very proud of it because it was my idea and guidance that I co-wrote with the kickass awesome and free AI song creation too. It created the lyrics, aND i ADJUSTED THEM A COUPLE OF TIMES. iT CREATED THE MUSIC AND i MADE THE VIDEO. iT TOOK LESS TIME THAN MOST OF MY METH VIDEOS. Despite my pride, I don't share it publicly because it's...
First Ketamine in over a decade
I talked to the camera when really high and had Chat CPT turn my rant into a blog post. Not proof read.
Can’t sleep because I have to get up
The cows were a week excuse to not go to sleep at 430am.
The editing bed floor.
The official term is usually the editing room floor and it refers to strips of actual celluloid film that have been cut with scissors and tossed on the ground but since we don't do things that...
My Thursday Overnight Project
The newest music video taking elements from Snapchat, CapCut, Light cut and Filmora. Almost four hours of work, which seems like way too much work but when you smoke enough meth to make all the clips, what else am I going to do.
YouTube and me.
I knew eventually my worlds were going to collide and people would find out about the drug side of me that has crossed the line for most people. Heroin and meth seem to be the drugs that scare people more than the others. They'll still be friends with you if you smoke weed or you do some coke in the bathroom at the strip club but if they find out you smoke meth or do heroin, they tend to stop...
My Trip Mini Music Video
One of my favourite collection music videos. Clips from various day put together. It used a vacation template from “Lightcut” but it worked so well I left the MY TRIP cation in.
Stuffy Nose? Here is a life hack
I learned this life hack but it doesn’t help with insomnia from a stuffy nose.
The TV screen video
My latest video which is dominantly showcasing the ancient technology of the 1900s. A pile of old perhaps discarded TVs.
The night I did ketamine. Part 1
this is a video blog of my experiences the night I did ketamine.
The edibles have kicked in
When I eat enough edibles my brain slows down, but it keeps thinking… unless it forgets
Sample of things I do when I’m up all night
When I’m up all night, I get creative and play
I woke up late. Whoops
I woke up late. I slept past my alarm for the first time since I’ve been doing the chore. I thought it might happen. I was solo partying pretty hard last night.
Daily use. Morning routine
I woke up at around 2am and 4am, both of which are pretty standard times my body seems to like for a late night pee break. This time, I convinced myself to go back to sleep instead. When I woke up a third time and discovered it was 6am, I was actually surprised. 6am is the beginning of my window of wake up. I stood up, took my morning pill, ate a piece of orange flavored chocolate, had my pee...
OrangeJeff on TV
Lemon cake at 5am. Mmmm. Hides the THC I added to the first bite.Joan of Arcadia Blog
I hate being reminded of my gym days. I think I’m coming to realize I’m better off without my supressed …Blowing my mind.
It’s funny now, on the understanding side of a realization moment. I think injudtbblew my mind and changed a bit. …Backstage Party
A short film by me staring various crazy characters on my staff.I wasn’t going to do it, but i did.
 I wasn’t going to do it but I did. It’s usually the reverse. There was a reluctance tonight about blogging, …
