The following was spoken by me into a microphone as I lay in bed shortly after a wicked Ketemine trip. It has been transcribed here, but not edited.

Well, it’s 2 a.m.
And I am wasted on ketemine. K.
I feel sleepy, but boy am I buzzed.
So I’m not sure what to do.
Probably more hypnosis files, sleepy hypnosis files.
Turn that light off.
I am aware how long it took me to turn off a light.
Give me a break.
I really should check online to see what effects K might have on my body.
Now here’s a dilemma: this is a big but I’ve still got quite a bit left and that’s not good for a binge because I’ll keep doing it.
I had a lot of indescribably cool. I think I did K four times, a fair amount.
2 a.m. Do I take this? Yes.
Do I regret it? You won’t know until tomorrow. It’s possible I won’t wake up easily at 7:36 when my alarm goes off. We’ll see.
But I’d like to be done for the night, maybe that does it. But there’s no more so if I do this again and I will, have to figure something out because I get bored when I get high and there’s nothing pretty planned.
There are some awesome YouTube videos though I have to remember to go and personally send a message to that one woman who creates videos that are mind blowing for people on okay probably on acid and mushrooms equally amazing but I haven’t had those in a long time.
The K was quite nice with the right guided meditation videos and hypnosis videos. I think there’s a lot of people out there that don’t know about those.
I briefly thought about making money off other people’s property and how easy that would be just remarketing but it’s sleazy.
It’s funny, it’s. I want to promote the things that I like but I’d like to benefit from it as well as the person that I like kind of like church.
When people get excited about an idea they love to share it, even before the internet, sharing information, gossip, anything, it gave you a jolt of what we now call dopamine and confidence building. You share something, they enjoy it, win-win.
So now I want to introduce new people to some of the things that I enjoy because I enjoy them, makes sense. But somehow I feel like I want to benefit from that too, I want to be paid for introducing you to the joys of hypnosis and drugs or guided meditation and drugs or you know lots of stuff I do on on drugs. Drugs is always in the sentence there somewhere.
The drug community, it’s an interesting thing because I have a drug group on Kick, Kick it’s an app, and I visit there every day. I’m a moderator, keep a clean room free of bots and assholes and there’s a community, we know each other. Then there’s a Snapchat community and I keep getting added to these groups of people posting their smoking videos, it’s become much more popular over the past few years, you years.
I thought I could take some credit for that but it just happens, you know, and I just discover it. I started the first time I found woman exhaling meth smoke clouds, I was shocked, shocked that it was arousing, it was a cool video, I really liked watching women exhale meth smoke and there were some pretty women doing it so I built up a Tumblr, the huge following, I mean for an ugly old guy like me, a big following, the biggest I’ve ever had. And then one day, gone, Tumblr just to leave everything, all my contacts, all my messages, everything.
People still try on Tumblr but nobody interacts there, they just post, maybe repost. Snapchat, similar thing, people have discovered they love posting their own videos, smoking meth and blowing clouds, and crack, the two groups that I get videos from, and people keep adding me to new groups so I now have way too many to watch, which is discouraging because I post my videos and I assume people aren’t watching them the same way I’m not watching theirs.
Snapchat does have the best creation tools though, it’s just fun to use Snapchat to make videos. You could be a different person with their filters, and I often am. I thought about building a whole character around one but I don’t know. Anyway, that’s Snapchat so I’ve got quite a few friends, followers on Snapchat, people who occasionally like my videos or comment, which feels good.
And then there’s Instagram, I have a private account on Instagram, there’s not as many met smokers on Instagram, they’re there but you know it’s Instagram, it’s big, they’ll delete you. So I’ve got a private account there and I post all of all of my videos, all my drug videos, and I’ve got quite a few followers there, not as many as I do on Snapchat but quite a few, and they’re they’re they’re like I said, they’re following because they like my videos, and they watch.
I know this because I have to block, sometimes block, a few people a week, they’ll try to comment, I’ll look at their page, it’s all big black dicks, all big black dicks and they’ll write stuff like “you’re hot, I love your videos.” I know they’re not watching my videos, they just want to follow me and see my dick, but I block them anyway.