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1. Almost everyone you know goes to the same school as you, and that creates many different ways of forced interaction. The social training period. Observe, interact, review, adjust, repeat. During this time we get to work on who we want to be and find out who we are and through trial and error,.  2. You don't really think about how easy interaction is at school until you leave it and all your...

There is a type of memory we all forget so we'll, we can't even remember it if it is describe in detail and hour later. Dreams are fleeting do rapidly, this opening paragraph may be enough to make me forget. I had a wiper ofvsvdetailebstory dream with flas forward and backwards elements so elaborate it was impressive. Not so much character development but a plotline that I set up that paid off....

I wrote most of the song today. I'm going to say I wrote a song today because the amount of assistance that I got was after the fact and it was just mainly to get the beats right so that the verses bounced and you could tap your finger to them. So a few words here and there were changed but it's my song and I'm very proud of it. For a brief moment it lets me dream of fame and success before I...

I've been experiencing more short moments of unhappiness lately. There easily distracted from so they don't build into a full-on depression. There are certain things in my life that I know are not ideal and if I spend time thinking about them they would approach depression  My antidepressant medication keeps that from happening for the most part but it doesn't get rid of the fact that those...

The advantage to buying drugs in larger quantities is a better price and not just a little bit better price but significantly better. Drug dealers make money on the people who buy little bits like grams or less sometimes. What they used to call dime bags.  There are 28 grams in an ounce and if you paid gram price you'd be paying over $1,000 or more. Last weekend I paid $250 which is just the...

just some thoughts in my morning routine

For a brief moment this afternoon I considered whether I am bi-polar and didn't know it. I don't think so. My ups and downs are more related to food and drugs, but while coming out of a recent bed session where I wasn't responding to.important clients for a few weeks I remembered it's a cycle. I used to say I don't like to be down for more than 3 days and that worked. I have only gone without...

Yes, it's another consecutive post about extending my drug use mornings one more day after thinking I couldn't do it again. I've become skilled at this by now. My father used to tell stories about how long his family could make a tiny slab of butter last and I never related to it more. Although I doubt my version would make him proud. The math teacher who taught me about fractions may have had...

It's not that I forgot sunlight exists or even that I don't get as much sunlight as I used to, but what I forgot is how much sunlight effects my energy and mood. I just don't function as well without the sun and I suppose vitamin d.  My days lately have included some extra tasks and I've been doing that thing I do where my mood goes up and down and in the idle points I start thinking about the...

It was a lot of effort and several platforms and drugs that are scarce but at 7:15 I finally came... Up with stupid idea to post about it. Ignore this.

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That's a meetup number but it represents the concept of having so many different ways to wake up and start my day at some point I should start organizing by name or by number. Today I will woke up at about 5:15 and I've been using the tablet on my bed surf the web mainly Instagram. My tablet is configured to search Instagram as my female alias AI. She gets a different type of stuff on the feed. ...