I actually had the audacity to try blaming other things on my down mood today. I felt tired all day from the point I woke up till now, as I prepare for an early night. I tried taking more drug at various times throughout the day but my mood stayed flat. Not really full on depressed, but blah. I have blah days. Today seemed extra nothingness if that can be. I don’t even have words to describe it.
My tolerance for this drug I’ve been taking and going on about as advantageous has shifted. It not only has reduced all the positives I wanted to believe but after taking even more today, I briefly thought it was making me tired and listless. I was blaming my bliss drug for the symptoms of not taking any drugs and started to think this new batch was crap.
Then I realized I just need more sleep. My brain needs to catch up. It can’t be expected to survive unaffected by multiple all nighters before it just can’t do it anymore.
Now I have to decide if I give it a break and not take any for a while, or just more sleep will be enough. I’ll decide tomorrow. For now. I choose Sleep if it’ll have me.
