I had to use a fair amount of Tina today to maintain a level of contentment without thinking about the world in a negative way. I had to be very careful not to stink up the room. I snorted some lines I boofed some And I smoked a few pipes. I was careful to exhale in different areas.

I still feel a little bit moody and really miss having my chocolate in the morning. I ate well finishing off my pizza. So in general it was a reasonable day but this new stuff is definitely different. I’ll be monitoring my youth and the effects carefully each day and changing my clothes with more often too keep the odor to a minimum. 

I’ll be happy when my sister returns on I can get some answers because I started to feel a little paranoid about my position in the house and whether or not people are upset with me. It’s still very hard for me to believe they are not even though it’s easy for me to be that chill about things and go with the flow. I haven’t met many people who are like me in that respect. 

Till tomorrow…