What is the dream anyway?

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I’ve lived a life I can’t quite explain. I’ve been nice and polite, and things have kind of always just worked out… or when they didn’t, I’ve forgotten about it. I’ve come to expect the Universe provides for me a…

What is the dream anyway?

I’ve lived a life I can’t quite explain. I’ve been nice and polite, and things have kind of always just worked out… or when they didn’t, I’ve forgotten about it. I’ve come to expect the Universe provides for me a bit too much I fear. I had a moment there when I realized I sounded like the Christians I have mocked.

God has a plan. (They say)  Insert Che-cote Story 1; the flood.

I just call God my Universe because it kinda lets me off the hook for having to say I believe in God. I do not deny that often my universe works in such a way as to almost believe it’s on purpose. Some coincidences are so powerful, one might want to consider them winks.

I am occasionally surprised at how well todays computers can emulate life in this Universe, but I am always amazed at how much life works the way a computer program would.

I often imagine if I had the ability to live a very long time, I would do exactly what happened. I’d play with genetics. I’d change things at conception and see what worked. One I had an animal that could eat and defend, I moved on.

God and evolution not only fit together, they make more sense than either one alone.

I’ve gone off topic, which is no surprise… but this is a blog I want to write. Stay on topic for once and don’t avoid the issues.

What do I need?
What can I do?
What do I like?
Who can help?

I need help to start anything, and don’t waste more time convincing myself that’s in my head, because that’s just a stalling technique.

 

Possibility 1.

Boost hosting sales.
Advertise, interview, ask and promote
Or buy a smaller company.
Really need another person though.

Possibility 2.

Sell the company and get a job

This would end badly without help… I need $2000 a month but I also need a secret job

possibility 3

Stop.

 

I’d like to try writing
I’d like to try writing with help
I’d like to try comedy
I’d like to try dating… or not

I really can’t think of ways out of this mess. I am blocked and need somebody to take care of me.

Because I’m sure as hell not doing it.

I’m getting high and avoiding it. Too high.

Orange Jeff discovered the joys of being high in public. He is living his teen in his old age.


I attended a Styx cover band tonight in Second Life. I’m pretty sure it was one woman playing a CD.


Things I can do.

 

Teach
Host
Sell
Booth
Advice
Info Desk
Debate
Calm down
Explain
Justify
show joy
Maybe act or voice
Personal PC IT friendly
boost confidence
Drive
Tour / Moral
Write
Philosopy
Review
Critique
Irritate
Think different / evil / stupid / consumer

 

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