The Drug Posts

These are the blog posts made while higher than usual. I think at the speed of my fingers and never look back. Most have not been proof-read. Even I can't figure out the bad autocorrects and random thoughts thatinterupt other…

The Drug Posts

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A previously secret collection of over a decade of journals and blogs from the mind of Orange Jeff telling the honest stories of my mental illness, brain chemistry and the rest of my universe. My struggle to be a real boy, always...

Rooster Reminder

Although I didn't expect to feed the hens today, I gave them some nice food around 4:00 and it was a good assortment of three different types of food. We have several locations we feed them into keep things interesting so I fed them at the northernmost elevated...

Nice shits make me curious.

I remember the first time I noticed the quality of my shits. It was a few weeks after I started taking my prescription paxil. My shits were noticeably better. Consistent and the pinch was perfect almost every time. That meant the wipes were better. Since that time...

Surprise days off!

I woke up yesterday at 5am, which isn't unusual at all. I wake up all through the night. I can't quite explain why it's usually on the hours, like 3am, 4am or 5am within a few minutes. Yesterday it was 12am, 2am and 5am. When I wake around 5,it's the time he leaves...

I wonder why I screw up so often

It's weird. I don't try and make mistakes but I do. More than the average I suspect. Today's a good example. I just finished the 620 feeding of the pig where the chickens get a little bit of bread just to stay away whe the pig eats. As I sit down in my bed afterwards,...

Hens are dumb

There are a couple of weaker hens that get extra attention occasionally. If they don't come out because of the weather or whatever reason we sneak into the chicken coop and feed them a private dish. They were out in the bright sunlight today a little before noon when...
Surprise days off!

Surprise days off!

I woke up yesterday at 5am, which isn't unusual at all. I wake up all through the night. I can't quite explain why it's usually on the hours, like 3am, 4am or 5am within a few minutes. Yesterday it was 12am, 2am and 5am. When I wake around 5,it's the time he leaves...

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Hens are dumb

Hens are dumb

There are a couple of weaker hens that get extra attention occasionally. If they don't come out because of the weather or whatever reason we sneak into the chicken coop and feed them a private dish. They were out in the bright sunlight today a little before noon when...

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4:20 Blog

4:20 Blog

The time is a coincidence and I used it as a title instead of the title I had in mind all weekend. The Sleepend. I'm still not sure which one I prefer but spell check certainly prefers the one that's a real word. Actually a 420 isn't a word of course. I'm sleepy. This...

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May I have an extension please?

May I have an extension please?

In school, I was the kid always needing an extension to any deadline. I didn't start to work on things until they were due. I am aware I often never completed the projects withat all. Incomplete was a common word on my report cards. I did well in class and often I...

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Brothers and sisters

Brothers and sisters

I'm not officially allowed to talk a lot about the animals. However since this blog breaks lots of official rules, and I'd be in a huge trouble if it gets discovered by the house, I figure an occasional story is okay. It's fun watching animals with an adult analytic...

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I can’t sleep forever.

I can’t sleep forever.

I have work to do. I smoked a bit of meth. I did my work. That's the story. I have enough pipe residue to repeat this a few more days as needed. I have no idea whether pipe white is as strong as a shard, but today it has been enough to get me up and working. I should...

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Good Good Morning.

Good Good Morning.

I was woken out of an awesome long story dream by my alarm at 7am. This is an amazing first. I didn't look at what time it was that I was last awake to pee but my first really good long story dream that kept me asleep until the alarm is a new or at least new in the...

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Sad & Worried -and scared

Sad & Worried -and scared

A flurry of emotions runs through me every time one of the indoor cats gets outdoors. Today it was extra sneaky and I couldn't avoid it. I tried my best but the big fat cat got out. I'm told not to worry as he gets out often and always comes back but lately he's been...

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What really happened.

What really happened.

It always frustrates me a little bit that blog readers get the life story backwards. No matter what page of this blog you have to read first, it's history is in a previous post. For example today I started off talking about being off drugs for the first day. Shortly...

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Boredom or Addiction?

Boredom or Addiction?

I had a nice nap from 730 to 930 or so. That was nice. I felt refreshed but wondering. Was this life for the next while? Would I sleep my days away again. The truth of my life is that I don't do much during the days. I have animals to feed at 7, noon and 4:20 and 6...

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First day. New day.

First day. New day.

The weather is getting cooler. The rooster and three hands are still waking up and expecting to be fed, which is fine. The dogs, or more specifically one of the dogs, seems to be trying out something new. Barking. Barking and whimpering and whining for no apparent...

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Darn those black cats

Darn those black cats

Did I say I liked the black cats? I do until they do something irritating I suppose, and then that case it could be any colored cat but in the specific case of this household it's always the black cats that are causing the chaos. The males. The house is divided into...

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Food addiction

Food addiction

I just ordered a hamburger without even thinking about it. I knew I had enough money to cover that hamburger despite the fact that I don't have enough money to pay the rest of my bills this month. Does that make hamburgers similar to drug addictions? I just did it. It...

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Three cats. I’m so happy.

Three cats. I’m so happy.

I'm always happy when I can count all three cats in the kitchen. That means I didn't let any getaway and none of them are outside in the reasonable cold. On Sunday night one of the cats was out overnight and I wasn't able to confirm that it ever made it home until...

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The extra last day

The extra last day

I knew the last day wouldn't really be the last day. Whenever I say I'm out of math and this is my last day, I know there are at least two or three pipes that have a little bit in them and the stems are still white and can be melted into another cloud or two. Even now...

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No internet in the backyard.

No internet in the backyard.

This is news to me as I specifically configured internet to work in the backyard but today I discovered it doesn't. I was filming and as soon as I left the back door the internet connection dropped. I can see the internet repeater box from the back door but it must...

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OOPS. I didn’t notice it rained

OOPS. I didn’t notice it rained

Shortly after I fed the chickens on the rooster this morning it rained so their food kind of turned to mush. That makes them extra hungry at lunch time and I'm feeding them up on the porch under the roof right in my way. However, I did get my stick back so I feel like...

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Decisions

Decisions

Although there are several new features that are only accessible using the new bitmoji, they don't seem to be ones I would use all that much. I suppose I could make it look similar to the old one now that I've played with it it seems better than when I first looked at...

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The in-between time.

The in-between time.

YIKES! I forgot about the gurgle. This is the broken bong I usually use without any water in it, so it's usually stealth quit like a pipe but tonight for reasons...

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Sunday. Movie Day

Sunday. Movie Day

It started with a few meth bong hits at 7am and then the Thor Love and Thunder. It's the Marvel comedy relief character I think. An action movie with funny stuff. I had a tiny line of my remaining stuff. I doubt I can make it last beyond tomorrow. I am not as afraid...

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Saturday – long naps

Saturday – long naps

I'm trying to extend the last tiny bit of the drug I have remaining. I started off using some of my brown burn surplus. It provides the exact same amount of white smoke upon exhale but didn't give me any wake-up boost. I rolled over and went back to sleep. I don't...

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Another surprise lunge

Another surprise lunge

Is that how you spell lunge? As I was speeding the hens and the rooster I held my baseball bat to the side while I poured the food from above onto one of the dishes as I was going towards the second dish the rooster came at me surprisingly fast. I didn't have time to...

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Mental addiction

Mental addiction

Some drugs are physically addictive and quitting needs a process. Your body learns to function with the drug and needs time to wean off it properly. A lot of mental prescription drugs are this way, but they don't use the word addictive. My Paxil can make me seriously...

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The way life works

The way life works

I've experienced it before. You probably have too. One of those phases of life when you feel the rut more than yesterday. More of the same. The loop of Thursday, although it can be any day. Another day of waking up, doing my chores, feeling like I want to go back to...

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Still awake. Still Wednesday

I'm a tiny bit worried about my drug supply running out this weekend or next week. You don't really realize how your mood is up because of the drug. It just feels right and when it's gone I'm going to have some hard times all alone with a schedule to keep. I suspect...

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On again. Off Again.

On again. Off Again.

I have been wanting to try some experiments with strobe lighting. Super fast flashes of light in a dark area. I have memories of it being somewhat fun and disorienting at parties. Somewhere in my social media browsing I recently saw something with strobe lights and...

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11:30 PM

11:30 PM

I did a lot of videos a lot of photography and a lot of fun stuff today. Some of it is even productive. This message exchange was from another sex hookup bott, but I didn't know it at first because it had a lot of cool posts. Somebody else's pictures I figured out...

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My (his) defence stick is gone

My (his) defence stick is gone

I'm pretty sure the rooster didn't take it and I walked the grounds looking for it. Last time it was my fault and it was just outside but this time it looks like he's used it and put it down somewhere. I'm going to assume not intentionally and not maliciously but it...

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Sponsorship Idea

Sponsorship Idea

Of course it's not really viable that I would think people would want to sponsor me smoking meth. I mean it's really still considered something no one should be doing so certainly no one would ever want to be associated with it... That doesn't mean you can't have a...

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Today’s time waster

Today’s time waster

I wish I could find the same level of interest in absolutely anything other than making compilation videos or music videos of me smoking meth. Anything else...

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Holiday Monday. Weird Emotions

Holiday Monday. Weird Emotions

It's 7:04am and I just got back to my bed after taking out my recycling. One blue plastic bag for plastics and one for paper, including 4 Dominoes pizza boxes. None of his recycling or garbage was already there. On a usual Monday he would have brought his stuff to the...

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