I’m not usually very happy around Christmas time. I tend to avoid it as much as I can but it’s not always easy depending on the company you keep and how much they want to celebrate. 

I think I hit a fear balance this year by not being grumpy and participating at least a minimum. But there was an extra reason to be a little down this year. My accidentally deleted this entire blog. Accidentally might not be the right word but it certainly wasn’t on purpose. Well yes it was on purpose but I didn’t mean to. Well… 

Let’s just say I foolishly deleted this before I should have and I almost lost it forever. Over 3,000 posts and it took me two weeks to get it back. It’s not totally back. This is my first time logging on and I notice a lot of things are missing. Images mostly but those can be pretty important on this blog. Images and videos made up a good portion of it. I can probably still get some of them back but it’s difficult to do when your internet is so slow and satellite based and other people in the house need it too. 

So I was pretty down for a while contemplating the loss and trying to compare it to other losses I’ve gone through without too much grief. It’s the third thing I tend to get over quickly but before that it can be pretty darn depressing. 

I suppose it was a distraction. On the farm in the middle of nowhere distractions are key because without them there’s nothing to do. Distractions are life. 

Anyway this is not a good blog but I wanted to post something and now I’m going to go to bed. I’m not sure about sleep. But I haven’t slept in a couple of days so maybe it’ll come.