Others may call it a bottleneck.Take 2.There are so many things in my bedroom, and by extension my entire life that need to show progress. Some are what you would consider simple tasks, but to somebody with my brain type,any…

The Beaver Dam

Others may call it a bottleneck.Take 2.There are so many things in my bedroom, and by extension my entire life that need to show progress. Some are what you would consider simple tasks, but to somebody with my brain type,any of those important tasks all have steps. Somewhere down the line, I see a blockage.Because I know that task seems overwhelming in my head, so it stops all tasks that need it.My energy to start and do things is low.In my mind, I have one thing a day planned for next week. I can’t master that hurdle.Do anything.I failed 5 seperate paying customers this week plus two friends. Those tasks are in the queue. I can either tend to those customers explain mental illness and the struggles I’m going through and probably be forgiven or I can ignore them even more until they go away.I’m a little scared how easily I’ve been using the do nothing option and upsetting loyal customers because that really was who I am and who I was and if I’m not that. I’m clearly not that anymore.7pm Sunday. I want to sleep.

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