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I’m out
I’m out. January edition
The repeating return of being out and restocking my current drug of choice, and chocolate.
No Smoke. No Snack Tuesday
Part of an unbalanced break – fast. Literally fasting through a break… Maybe.
Morning necessities
I’m out again. This or soon will be.
Final moments. Microscopic last ditch attempts to cloud
Trying out my new inside-Wordpress camera plugin that I created with AI.
Rough morning. Cake farts
This was a hard blog to write. I’m sad I forgot the dream. It’s was three back to back good ones.
5:30am June 1 and I’m already blah
I’m not declaring I’m out yet, but probably will later today and then the scrounging begins both in what I can salvage from dirty pipes and finances. I
From blag to ahhh
A rambling blog inspired by found drugs in the carpet once again. Life is better spun than none.
The weaning continues.
A blog, a song, a video, all done after blowing the final clouds of my stash.
I tried… until 7:40am
The first day of my most recent “I’m out” phase where I begin the rationing and scrounging to make it last until I can re-up
The in-between days
Another one of those blah blogs where I contemplate the dullness of my current life.
Day whatever. Still clouding
quick. blog during the 5 minute rush from melting a brown spot on the side of my bong. one cloud to go.
Staying up for SNL
Pre SNL show.
Wild mornings
Yesterday included some extra activities including getting four of the yearling calf daughters into a tiny trailer and a 90 minutes ride to take them to the meat processing ranch, otherwise known as the slaughterhouse. Doug will return at some point in the future with...
It’s about time to say it’s about time
A rerun of the kind of blog I post every time I’m on my last days of my drug supply.
Mornings are hard again.
My first official morning without drugs. At least that’s the plan.
Talking to myself about Thursday
A mini mental debate about usage and the video blog for today.
Sometimes a kind word is enough…
Sometimes a kind word is enough to boost your mood. On other days a bit of meth helps. Today is Tuesday and I woke up just before 6:00 a.m., went to pee showered my face and returned to bed with the two cats who amuse me. It appeared that I wanted to go back to sleep...
Monday afternoon – but what year?
Monday afternoon feels like the morning.
Boof timing
A post about the pros and cons of boofing.
Last day rituals
It's 6:30am on Thursday February 8th. I have one cookie left. 3 pieces of chocolate, two swigs of Orange Crush, three bagels and just enough of my drug to ration out the day. I'll be out of most before my 8am chores and everything by the time my afternoon duties are...
Monday
I ran out of supply last week, but that statement is seldom 100% true. Today at 144pm I had been sleeping on and off for most of Sunday and today. I get depressed over being depressed. I want to sleep but it's not an image I'm proud of. I have no offline friends here...
End of the month. End of the stash.
I certainly should have expected I'd use up my stuff quicker than expected but it seems fitting I will be out on the last day of January. I have no regrets for my usage going up. Despite being a little suspect in the purity department, I really enjoyed this binge. ...