Since I don't have children, it follows that I don't have grandchildren so I won't sit around when I'm old telling my war stories to anyone who will listen. That's what blogs are for. No one has to listen, and in fact no one is really reading this continuing saga but if I continue to journalize...
3am. You seem anxious. We'll, I heard a rumour you were going to not use meth today. Let me make a case against that. (Falls back asleep) 4:00am Ok, so I'm assuming that nonsense about quitting today is behind us. Can you tell me if we'll start right at 5am when he leaves the house. (Falls back...
Since I don't have children, it follows that I don't have grandchildren so I won't sit around when I'm old telling my war stories to anyone who will listen. That's what blogs are for. No one has to listen, and in fact no one is really reading this continuing saga but...
3am. You seem anxious. We'll, I heard a rumour you were going to not use meth today. Let me make a case against that. (Falls back asleep) 4:00am Ok, so I'm assuming that nonsense about quitting today is behind us. Can you tell me if we'll start right at 5am when he...
I'm not saying that the rooster trusts me now or that we have any kind of relationship but it does seem as though he's less confrontational now. He's finally figured out I'm the one that's feeding him and the battle isn't worth it. I think it's been 3 days where...
The pig eats quite well. This stew is not for the humans of the house. It is put together in a huge pot that lasts about a week as I scoop out a portion each night and it gets combined with four handfuls of official pig grain for a delicious tasty meal every night....
This was an experiment of the new feature called story post that I don’t think I’ll be using again
I was in my room the other day making videos as I am want to do and I realized I couldn't find my orange hat. In Canada we call them toques and I'm not sure I know how to spell it. In the states like thank you call them beanies but essentially they're just winter hats...
I had a fall this morning. It was scary shit for a short while because it was a multi-stage fall knocking over various things as I tried to save myself on the way down. I don't remember what started it. Things like happen unexpectedly and you're not concerned about...
Warning. This blog was voice transcribed from the bathroom after feeding but I don't have my teeth in so I noticed a lot of errors. I should probably go and edit it manually but I'm pretty sure I won't. Not much has changed over the past while. The rooster still tries...
Today was a special Monday, or at least it is supposed to be. It is the day I planned to finally throw out the secret garbage I've been keeping in my room for far too long. I call it secret garbage because I wouldn't want to throw it out using the normal procedure...
So the rooster has figured out this none shall pass power that he has When he standing where I need to be and I can't get by. We waited out As I inch and inch. Gaining ground until such time as I can squeeze past while maintaining eye contact at all times. He tries to...
Today's adventures with the rooster involve them hanging out by the door. I don't like this. They want to be fed earlier and I'm already feeding them an hour earlier than I was last week. Unfortunately today I just discovered that my defense of stick and both the...
Recently I started blogging a lot more about life and my simple day job feeding the backyard farm animals. Not mentioning my meth habit. I've always been a little internally proud of my writing style even if half the time I lose interest in the middle and quit early....
Not much to report him the human versus rooster wars today. Ever since our epic battle he seems to understand that I need to get to the food area to feed them and today he let me walk by him back towards the house. He still feels a little uneasy eating if I'm in view...
Today's Rooster adventures were a little different. Due to some sleep issues I'm working out, I slept in and didn't get downstairs till 745 instead of my usual 720/730ish I used to start even earlier but decided the neighborhood probably benefitted from the extra 30...
When I can out the door for the afternoon feed, the weak chickens that linger in different circles are always first to detect me, and the waddle towards me. Over the past couple of days I've tried to death feed them their own portion before the rooster and his harem...
I learned the name of the rooster's mojo but I prefer calling it the rooster anyway because calling it by its name implies some form of relationship. I suppose in a way we do have an adversarial relationship he wants to attack me and I want to avoid being attacked. He...
People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I can certainly think about a few ways I've changed. I can imagine my close friends might notice even more changes. I had...
I have formed my belief that I live very much in the now. I am paying attention to my surroundings and being self aware. When I do something .. anything really, the thought has been vetted. I have thought up the consequences in so many ways. I understand now how...
I'm not sorry. I do not regret today's desision... But of course, I'd say that now, still under the influence of a euphoria I previous denied. I am euphoric and creative and excited. I have been writing all night. My normal behaviour was to take some MDMA and try to...
37 seconds later, I drifted to qyesy, saw a zeppelin and smiled. The story I want to share is huge, but I don't mind takinmg 54 myuears to tell it. ding memory: Always play a sport with somebody who plays better than you Jeff, or you can't learn an improve. ding....
I remember visually where I was standing when I first heard the CBC Radio announcer describing this piece of music he was about to play. It wasn't so much music like a song, but a tone. Somebody had invented, or discovered this tone that sounded like it was rising...
My mind fluctuates between happiness and terror now that I'm blogging in a Universe that I recently shared with people I know. It's always been much scarier sharing with people I know. It's one thing to read about a person's troubles on screen, and form your version...
yres? [00:53] Frogstar42 Loup: I have a new idea. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: Big Brother Home Game. I'll wear an anckle bracelet and le live streaming on the Internet 24/8 simulcast with ME, the real Jeff. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: I have 4 webcams on me 24/7. [00:54]...
I am a loyal man, for the simople reason I adapt to my now, and prefer never to change. I want to date. I can pretty much decide if I'm compatile with somebody in a very short time. When I clcik instead of clash #clickorclash I'm gentle and caring and absolutly no...
rediet has treat me like im five, which i chuckle at and enjoy, but a treat me like im old is a slightly different humour... because were probably more self aware ifn what we lost than our baby self was self aware of how amazing it was to figure out how everything...
I opened the blogging portion just now, knowing full well that I'd already forgotten the thought that was important enought to write.... because it could be 20 years before I have gained enough fame to have a fan find these, review them and then start a business and...
yres? [00:53] Frogstar42 Loup: I have a new idea. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: Big Brother Home Game. I'll wear an anckle bracelet and le live streaming on the Internet 24/8 simulcast with ME, the real Jeff. [00:54] Frogstar42 Loup: I have 4 webcams on me 24/7. [00:54]...
Its so weird I can almost forget the awesome orgasm I... did I? If I don't confirm anything my shrodingers cum puddle is not in my orange cum wrag... and it is. We'll find out after these ... wtf? Oh, the tablet isn't pluggged in and it had video on pause. It's gonna...
I laugh as I start to write. The piece is to start as a cometary that I am not only enjoying the improved perception of progress, from my bed... The King's home row and my computer...one symbolic row to my right. I leave this chess board. ding. Realization connection...
an internet show hosted by richard christie and i ding hosted by me with guest anchor guest bing. word origin connetion. a lightbulb turned on and I saw e the thought apper in my universe biz. A show hosted by Orange Jeff who starts the show every day at 7 ding. THere...
Talking to myself in text to another person who isn't there to listen but will come in and catch up every so often. In the Second Life universe, one can carry on several different storylines and be chatting with multiple partners, clients, dealers and lovers all at...
I grab a handful of Hershies kises from my salad bowl. I have admired that Hersheys kisses may be cute and addictive but I admire their shape because I bleieve it is engeniered to allow for a specific maximum per grab. I walk away with a serving size of chocolate. If...
I've been happier than my norm of late, and I can blame the drugs if I choose, but the condition has made me write, blog and share more. These are some of the things I actually typed to people when I felt cheerful, not high... but was probably high. The setup. Second...
I am a threshold stoner. My first does sets the bar and it fades down as time passes. It doesn't go back up, nor matter how muh I try, after the first hour, drugs are immu... I seem immune to drugs taking me higher. There ae exceptions, as with the Ketamine holesI've...
I have moved to using the Jetpack web site at Wordpress.com to write, rather tah the Wordpress of my web site directly. It is a trial NOW that I try, in search on a better NOW. The answer to life, the universe and everything truly is ASACI ASTERISK. $42. Anything and...
rediet has treat me like im five, which i chuckle at and enjoy, but a treat me like im old is a slightly different humour... because were probably more self aware ifn what we lost than our baby self was self aware of how amazing it was to figure out how everything...
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A lot has happened in my life, and I suppose I chose to return to drugs. Visually I was able to see this time, how disruptive it is to my happy sober Monday to Saturday life. I have also returned to my alternate Universe where I get to be a whole new person, and...
I've thought about these ideas at one time or another. Conversation starter cards to have in bars. Social Media specific to a local bar Sent Me Up. A dating service 100% done by a close friend. Second Life is going to be replaced, and sex might become mainstream....
There is a movie, Formula 44. I am about to spoil it for you, which is a shame because it's really worth watching. However, if you're an intelegent person, you probably figured it out from the title of this blog. Good for you. Sorry I spoiled it. In the movie, a new...
Every so often I hear a ping...or in this case, I heard a whistle that my body interpreted as the death beep. I hear many noises from my bed at 4am. I can mentally scan and pick some out. I remember the handsome blond Duke brother had to teach Smallvilles Clark Kent....
When I heard two voices outside my window at night, I created their story in my head, and these were scary people that tracked me down from the webcams that have my address and telephone number. I so much want to do the webcams but there are too many people who choose...
Second Life looks different when you send your drone up into the air to take really wide angle pics.
I’ve met some nice whores in Second life, and they trade sex for drugs. This woman was not one of them. She seemed surprised when I decided to bail. I did steal an extra cup cake before I vanished.
The last thing I do when I've just written a post like that is click publish or update and view it. That is often the first tiume I see the post title since I wroye it. I chuckle inside at the realization that I didnt even tell the story about not talking about porn....
r2–d2: Treehouse Point by (Alex Levine Photography) I don’tn’t have one in real life, but my Second Life avatar does.
I was going to start with the connection to the title of both this post, and a Katy Perry video. I have more memory of it than any other Katy video because it was a modern retelling of the core bible story, pretty girls get to go to the ball. I don't think I started...
The Reaization Lightbulbs Bumper sticker therapy A new universe is created with my first fan. The moment of confirmation. In that instant, my stories are out. My negative voice has come back. I lose my place, my thought and my joy. I take a hypnosis break. In Second...
I don't want to be dismissed as crazy, even when I do things that might be considered crazy. I am writing a second blog, a mere 2 minutes or less after ending the previous one, but that was Jeff, and this is supposedly written by Orange Jeff. It's going to be obvious...
I made the desion to write tonight. I have been neglecting it because I had some realizations come about and I was more self concious. I am actually progressing.. or at least coming closer than I have before. I may actually move forward this year. I feel the need to...
It should come as no surpri-- I stop myself, because that is starting off on the negative assumption that I would fail. I did fail, but I should not have assumed it before the fact, because that kind of thinkiing is what allows failures to seem less severe. Past...
Ding. Right out of the gate, whoosh. The Zamboni of my mind is clearing the ice. What... Ding. Surprise check and I remember, but the guilt in my mind of ... There was a lot going on in my mind, but the closer I get to a reality the the more I tried to be more...
Checking out the dispensary in my Second Life neighbourhood.
Testing and setting up for my Second Life video blog.
That looks wrong. I always had problem with some things more than others. There were three words I could not pronounce because it took more than two tried and Ok. My level of high is Pause In the past, I have had a sudden spontaneous breakthrough and the...
Virtual World Phone Sex - Guide To The Second Life Femdom Mistressessensualdommebrighton: I highly recommend virtual phone sex to anyone who doesn’t get regular real-world sex… or even those who do. I love getting high as fuck and living in a fake universe.
Enough sleeping in the Alternate Universe. I’m high as fuck, it’s 11pm - let’s wake up and live my Second Life… I’ve got all the fictional drugs in this universe.
Spent the day deleting all my old used drugs in Second Life. Accidentally deleted a few good items but that’s to be expected when you’re high.
I think I'd like to read some of my early writings that are in my memory chest. I probably won't alone though. I had an offer from a young friend I abandoned because I got scared. She was homeless and really loved Ketamine. I also feared she was 18 or 19. Not the 23...
A little toke and coke in my alternate universe. Second Life drugs can be quite fun, and I love being the guy who has them all.
I have been denying personality change as a side effect but just now, as I was contemplating the case the police are creating around me. First I realized I was too freely talking about my use of the dark web for drugs in public. I never offered to sell or supply but I...
In second Life, avatars have one super power that doesn't exist in real life. The ability to allow people to see your thoughts in a unique textual way that breaks barriers. In first life I write a blog after a date that I know she reads. It's genius. Or crazy. I need...
Lightbulb moment. The closer you get to death, the more your life may present itself to you for review. Tonight, just now it occurred to me I have been writing this entire thing as a suicide note, to be continued. I am lucky, because if I ever start to consider death...
I struggled. I can't trust that I'm not actually crazy now. I always suspected my mother went freely into her madness just to run away from the responsibility of his care. A spoiled humiliated frustrated proud man #prideworthy lose his place. To lose his abilities to...
It's probably not worth making a specific date as to when I did come again. I'm not sure but it might be related to the moon. I do believe I should abandon that joke. The story so far As I am known to do, when people come into my second life universe from a group I...
1030pm. Room mate probably not quite asleep and advise lay in bed, obcessing about how I screwed up and abandoned a really nice woman kind of mid date, twice in as many days. I smoked a few dabs and just as we were about to venture off on a Wednesday night adventure,...
My virtual chill spot in the Second Life universe.
Tonight's live transcript may go in different directions. I can't predict. I'm going to say right off that I am high on things you would not approve of. --sorry, a pause created by me realizing I'm high and sitting at my work desk, so I opened up Second Life...
I took acid and I’ll be up all night trying to teach and learn in Second Life.
Imagine Sansar is - as I understad it, supposed to be better for creating stand alone experiences. Imagine in the future, Second Life exists, but we can take our avatar with us in "The Orange" and plug it into any store or business anywhere in the world....