Another day when I was actually not paying much attention to the clock and I didn’t notice it getting light out. My last blog post was sent yesterday as I was deciding to not try to fall alseep, but instead stay up all night being productive. As it turned out, I’m not certain I should be using the word productive when I’m referring to an overnight video making session all alone in my bed with my phone and my bong. Nobody watches them anymore so it’s more my hobby t this stage. Is a self-absorbed obsessive hobby I stayed up all night to work one while high on meth still being productive?

The movie I made is 2 minutes and 10 seconds. It was supposed to be shorter but I was having troubles finding music I liked so I went to Suno and made my own song specifically about staying up all night making meth cloud blowing videos I am afraid to share with the general public. It was 2 minutes so the video became 2 minutes, plus a little introduction from a Donald Trump look-a-like on meth, and an outro long graceful cloud.

Like my last one, it’s not perfect but after so many saves and edits I decided it was close enough to perfect for a 7am release. As is the tradition, I sent it to Snapchat private group as well as about 5 specific friends that like watching them, or at least pretend to because it’s polite and a whine more if not even one comment is made across Instagram, Reddit, Kik, Snapchat and my private blog. I think my last two harder effort videos got one comment in total.

As the song says; I’ll keep making them anyway. Lots of hobbies are personal projects that don’t get shared. I keep telling myself that, but I know it’s important to me. 

Part of me thinks I keep making meth videos for exactly that reason. If I shared them openly, they get judged and I might be insulted enough to lose all the enjoyment and quit. See my other original song and video about being afraid to be a success.