In an attempt to be more productive without adderall, I ingest a certain amount of meth each morning. It’s a very subtle incline and it’s easy to miss the sweet spot where you can still think enough to do the job and have the stamina to continue and the focus to function. The problem is I tend to go past that spot into the I’m too high to think I can’t choose between this or that but I can do it task that’s repetitive and normally almost impossible for me to perform.
The trick is matching the days tasks to the right amount of drug. I’m not so good at that. The problem at this point is that I don’t really have project management skills and I easily avoid the hard things. I’m at a point now where the tasks in front of me are the hard ones that require decision making and choices and management and not being high.
The next few days will be interesting. I have to come up with a plan It’s a lot for my brain at this point. Hopefully not too much