Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal diary and gallery for OrangeJeff that I don’t share with everyone. It includes struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.
Note that none of these blogs have been proof read so there may be errors caused by auto-correct or horrible voice to text, or possibly even errors I actually made.
Sunday
Every once in a while people shock me and do something I've been trying to do for a long time. In the spring, before the summer heat began, we moved an old weird ass air conditioner into my room. I...
Sunday life update
As of 3:30 this morning, there is a stealth cat loose in my bedroom. It has made falling back to sleep slightly more difficult than usual. Actually, the falling asleep part isn't so hard bit waking...
Friday night in bed by 8pm
I probably won't get to sleep till after midnight but I rest. I had plans to go out tonight but instead spent my money on food a few other things. I'm on a tight budget this month trying to make all...
Not allowed to talk about it
I'm not supposed to use the word rats out loud in the backyard or in my blog. We don't talk about it. But I do see them. And one just ran by my feet just now which is the closest interaction I've...
I tried something new today
Technically, I'm trying it right now. I bought some Walmart house brand fruit filled Apple cinnamon doesn't have a name beyond that made with real fruit wow ingredients apple and 40 other things....
War stories
Since I don't have children, it follows that I don't have grandchildren so I won't sit around when I'm old telling my war stories to anyone who will listen. That's what blogs are for. No one has to...
It works.
Sometimes it's weird how knowledge evolves. A relatively simple and straightforward concept that...
Internal Dialogue of my brain
3am. You seem anxious. We'll, I heard a rumour you were going to not use meth today. Let me make a case against that. (Falls back asleep) 4:00am Ok, so I'm assuming that nonsense about quitting...
I guess the war is over.
I'm not saying that the rooster trusts me now or that we have any kind of relationship but it does seem as though he's less confrontational now. He's finally figured out I'm the one that's feeding...
The pig’s meal
The pig eats quite well. This stew is not for the humans of the house. It is put together in a huge pot that lasts about a week as I scoop out a portion each night and it gets combined with four...
Lunch, Dinner, Breakfast, lunch
This was an experiment of the new feature called story post that I don’t think I’ll be using again
Cheat Day
When people on a diet want a piece of cake they declare a cheat day. There doesn't seem to be any rule except that all rules are out the window. I've been setting very tiny goals for myself each day...
It shat on my hat.
I was in my room the other day making videos as I am want to do and I realized I couldn't find my orange hat. In Canada we call them toques and I'm not sure I know how to spell it. In the states...
Summer Falls by the Falls
I had a fall this morning. It was scary shit for a short while because it was a multi-stage fall knocking over various things as I tried to save myself on the way down. I don't remember what started...
Am I boring you with my evil rooster stories?
Warning. This blog was voice transcribed from the bathroom after feeding but I don't have my teeth in so I noticed a lot of errors. I should probably go and edit it manually but I'm pretty sure I...
Monday morning dog surprise
Today was a special Monday, or at least it is supposed to be. It is the day I planned to finally throw out the secret garbage I've been keeping in my room for far too long. I call it secret garbage...
Second Life
Second Life is a simulation of our universe except better
More chicken shit to deal with.
So the rooster has figured out this none shall pass power that he has When he standing where I need to be and I can't get by. We waited out As I inch and inch. Gaining ground until such time as I...
Blockade
Today's adventures with the rooster involve them hanging out by the door. I don't like this. They want to be fed earlier and I'm already feeding them an hour earlier than I was last week....
Experiments in Crossposting
Recently I started blogging a lot more about life and my simple day job feeding the backyard farm animals. Not mentioning my meth habit. I've always been a little internally proud of my writing...
Rooster Friday
Not much to report him the human versus rooster wars today. Ever since our epic battle he seems to understand that I need to get to the food area to feed them and today he let me walk by him back...
SmackDown Day
Today's Rooster adventures were a little different. Due to some sleep issues I'm working out, I slept in and didn't get downstairs till 745 instead of my usual 720/730ish I used to start even...
Best laid plans vs Chicken logic
When I can out the door for the afternoon feed, the weak chickens that linger in different circles are always first to detect me, and the waddle towards me. Over the past couple of days I've tried...
Mojo and Me
I learned the name of the rooster's mojo but I prefer calling it the rooster anyway because calling it by its name implies some form of relationship. I suppose in a way we do have an adversarial...
False Positive. It’s an Apple Fritter
Glazed donuts often have a timeline of freshness that begins right away. Tonight I was offered three McDonald mini donuts. One was a springle. These are yeast donuts and ideally should be consumed...
Skip skip the dishes
I don't like to complain. Having said that, I don't like having a reason to complain because I don't like to complain and having a good reason puts me in a spot. Today I ordered the only hamburger...
I did the thing. It was anti-climatic
After staring at the emergency mental health hotline for several weeks I paused a movie and made the call. It's not a helpful number but they did give me another number so now I start the loop...
Why do I make plans?
Perhaps plans is the wrong idea. I set mini goals for each day. Some of them are extremely simple like don't forget to feed the fish. This morning I forgot to feed the fish. Some of them of course...
Today’s Stupid Mistake
I kind of think I was always this way but I can't be sure because of the way my memory works. I make stupid mistakes, I knock things over, and I don't foresee the consequences of things I do before...
Day two. It doesn’t get easier..
Doing pretty much the same thing every day doesn't necessarily get easier. For someone with attention deficit disorder it can actually get more difficult because each day it becomes less interesting...
Same accident. Different door
So as of 8:14 a.m. on Tuesday August 2nd I am possibly missing a cat, or not one may have escaped outside which is really bad for at least one or two of the cats and reasonably bad for the third. If...
The Monday before I have to pay attention again.
I'm feeling more stressed than I need to be,but that doesn't really help. Then again, my stress has always been pretty mild. Since I go with the flow about everything, worrying about the future is a...
Late life revelations
I never actually notice how little I do in life, effort-wise. I have used my intelligence to evaluate every situation and figure out the best way to do the absolute least, while keeping the friend...
5am again.
When 3am rolled around, and I was still awake, I blew some pretty video clouds and stayed up. I am dehydrated though, and although I took an ex-lax, it may not work right away-- orvat all for this...
Social Media Life Stages
I'm not sure if this is just me. But I suspect not. The way we use social media has changed, subtly without much notice Bering paid. It's a fascinating burst of unexpected culture shock that is a...
The boy in the box
I can remember every bedroom I ever lived in. It's where I spent most of my life. Right from age 7 when we moved and I got my first bedroom.I attended dinners and chat with my family as I left the...
It’s Friday already.
This seemed like a fast week. I got very little accomplished and saw no progress on any of my short term goals. No progress to show on anything really. I got high and complained or pondered. It was...
I’ve watched Netflix
I think I may have watched everything on Netflix. Not literally everything, but everything I think I'd like. There are a lot of really enjoyable series on the service but when you live alone with...
The documenting of NOW
I would like today to include some good blogging. I have so many thoughts running through my head. My wants sadly, seldome get satisfied this way. Distractions and mood shifts get in the way. I...
Steps to a better day
Over the years, I have found some key elements that make my day work out better. They're not a guarantee of course since there are so many variables and obstacles but it is clear to me when I don't...
Health Update
I have not felt right for a week or so. I thought it was various things but as I sit here on the toilet logging I realized. I've been peeing more than usual but not unloading and solid. It's gotten...
One day, other than today.
There are a few things that I would like to block about. Generally speaking by blog after smoking a little bit of weed. This is the case today. I will not be blogging about any of these serious...
Happy Birthday Mom
It sounds familiar in my head but to be honest I'm not positive my mother's birthday is July 7th. I think it is and they're all purposes, that means it is. I create my own canonBut this post isn't...
It’s the least I can do
I always found that statement offensive. It's telling somebody you're doing the absolute least amount of effort possible. If I could do nothing. I would have. Around here, I tend to do the least I...
Let me try this today
I'm always experimenting with life, and better ways to get through it. Today I decided to wake up and stay up like I used to. The sun rolls in and by 7:10 or so I'm up and eating chocolate chip...
Checkpoint Avoidance.
I woke up first today at 6:30 a.m. feeling pretty good. I took my pill and sat up thinking this might be a good time to actually wake up and start doing things. When I woke up the second time today...
Being sick in 2022
I got sick last week and am still recovering. Every time a symptom shows up, everyone starts to wonder if it is covid-19? My throat is super soar from dehydration and weed smoking. It Hurst. A nice...
Optimistic Mid-week
It's Wednesday and it seems a bit off this week because I was a bit off. I've recovering again today but I've been ignoring the bad conveniences of starting late. My life these days is all about...
The Beaver Dam
Others may call it a bottleneck.Take 2.There are so many things in my bedroom, and by extension my entire life that need to show progress. Some are what you would consider simple tasks, but to...
I might share this. I probably won’t.
When the pandemic was not yet fully in lockdown, the company paying me a $600 a month contract concluded suddenly. My rent was $600 a month.In a panic, a couple from my past graciously offered me a...
