Welcome to the Orange Shirt Blogs. A personal diary and gallery for OrangeJeff that I don’t share with everyone. It includes struggles with mental health, drug use, sexuality and life in general.
Recognized Subtlety
I’m out. For real this time.
There's always an extended period after the first time I say I'm out. There are three or four pipes that I can scrounge tiny bits of white powder...
Pic of today
High times.
It’s gone.
I snorted. I smoked. I boofed. It's all gone. I'm feeling a bit energetic but this month I did a lot of it and my tolerance obviously went up. It...
Sadness Looms
I did more, and then more. The sleepy mood passed after a few more hits and I felt active enough to do some work. I updated a website, answered some...
The final days
Monday I slept a lot. I might do the same today. The exhaustion period after stopping my meth use. I did a fat line of the final crystals and still...
Blue Monday
I slept well and had some cool dresms. I woke up a bit later and it was nice. I knew today would be my last day with meth for a while. I have one...
Today’s Molly Trip
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Man of the year
Four Steps
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Attention grab
Ever since I saw that perfect t-shirt that I now use as a logo for the orange shirt blogs, I've been adding bitmojis and other various things to the...
Will I look back and realize how stupid all this was?
I hope I won't look back with regrets. I don't like thinking that way. I live very much in the NOW often choosing the path that offers instant...
Sunday Experiments
I woke up at about 8:15am and decided today was a day to give some of the week's backlog of unfinished tasks the attention they needed. That lasted...
Is it early or late?
I think 530am is morning. I'm not sure where evening ends but I'm guessing around 4. At 4am, you might still go to sleep and wake up on Sunday but...
High as a kite
OrangeJeff Archive
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Am I the same person
People say drugs change you. Your whole personality changes because of addiction. I understand that statement, and a self evaluation is hard, but I...
Recent Me
This blog acts as a backup of my own memories so I occasionally update my photos of me. Since I don't leave the house much, all I do is take...
Last one tonight
I make no such promise.
Still playing
I'm going to try to start making videos and memes that are not related to my hard drug usage. It may not go as well as planned but it's an effort. I...
What classifies as a Junkie?
I often evaluate my current situation and compare myself to the image I have in my mind as a typical drug user. I always think my image to the...
Continued. Friday mood update.
When I'm in that blah mood where my brain first seem satisfied with any of my choices, I can attest that just doing more drugs isn't the answer....
Missing the sweet spot
One of the issues, or perhaps the main issue that I have with using methamphetamine to medicinally assist my attention deficit disorder, is the...
Doing Nothing
Safe to fail
It occured to me just now one reason I choose to do the projects that don't matter. This website has no viewers or followers, so nobody cares. It's...
Slide Show
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More Photos
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1pm
I can't stop playing with my drug photos and videos. It's an addiction worse than the drugs that trigger it.
Entertaing Myself
I tried making some videos that were not druggated, and getting some photos that aren't videos as well. Useful in more places.
I think it’s Friday morning
Nope. It's Thursday. Friday's eve. I've been high this week and I can't decide if the week is going faster, or slower. I am getting about the same...
Beats and Blowing
This was one of the first music videos I made. As the software got better, so did I.
Glass Gallery
Smoke Stream
Slow Start
I don't want to start work. It's less fun than doing nothing.
The morning mental debate
Over the years I have created a number of different tricks to start my day better. I know what I need to do to wake up and start being productive....
Checkpoint Failed
I slept well. I even had some dreams. When I woke up at 630am I had one of those glimpses into my life as a drug user. An evaluation checkpoint...
Party Smoke
Inhale – Exhale – Repeat
Still awake Tuesday
I have four tasks on my agenda today and it's almost 11:00 a.m. I am very seriously considering trying to go back to sleep and handling those tasks...
Image Interlude
Blowing Orange Clouds
Inside Clouds
Oh high, it’s you.
I did a lot more than usual this past weekend and enjoyed myself without regrets or incident. Unfortunately, the weekend ended Sunday and as of...
OrangeJeff is Orange
4am Meth Meme
When I smoke meth recreationally, I like to create. I try to make interesting videos of me blowing clouds.
The First Monday
I'm wrong. It is in fact already the second Monday of the year. I did not have a great night, but I do try my best to be productive on Mondays. it's...
Blah blah blah Saturday
My self care routine is off. I'm very dehydrated and just water isn't enough.i kept taking the dehydrating drugs anyway, above the recommended daily...
I do pretty good at not regretting
I have formed my belief that I live very much in the now. I am paying attention to my surroundings and being self aware. When I do something .....