While my main PC isn’t feeling well and my mood has been using various excuses to not fix it, I have a loaner laptop in an ideal position that should feel more ideal. I set up a bed table and it’s taken me till year three in this joke to get over the guilt of the perceived negative impression I project onto the homeowner.

That’s crazy when I type it. A bed table is a luxury I have not configured because it lets me do more from the comfort of my bed, including eating and working and play. All without standing up.

So it’s done, and I should be happy but my brain has to get in my way and nitpick just enough about this layout to crush the joy. Now I’m sitting next to this new Chinese laptop to start a productive Sunday without the computer freezing and rebooting every hour-ish.

And yet, I’m blogging this on my phone sitting next to it. For no good reason, I have decided to let a few tiny annoyances ruin it. It’s not a very good Chinese computer, so I hate it. They keyboard layout is weird, but not significantly. I can’t find how to get out of type-over mode because there is no insert key.

The mouse joypad is huge, which means accidental touches take my pointer on unexpected journeys frequently.

I don’t have my files here. All of these minor inconveniences are solvable with minimal effort, but effort is a distraction. Configuring can be a joy at times. I used to love getting a setup just right, most commonly when I had other things to do, id prioritize a configuration fix instead.

Now it’s in my way. Anything I consider doing right now will have some obstacle in my way, so my brain scans every possible activity and chose the one with the least obstacles. I can blog my thoughts on my phone and not deal with the computer till later.

Is till a word, or should I be using until. I know I’ve accepted coz as a modern replacement for because but I have not taken the time to learn if I’m wrong about till. 

 it’s 8:00 a.m. now and I have sufficiently been non-productive since 5:30 a.m. mostly sitting in front of my new computer configuration mentally complaining about my new computer configuration. The animals are demanding attention so I will deal with this later which is my way. The day ahead is undefined task-wise. I’m unhappy with the song I worked on producing yesterday so it’ll take a mood shift in order to get back on track with that or I may just abandon it. My web design project is at the stage where the customer has to evaluate and suggest changes. I suppose I do have that other… Actually three other projects that have to be started at some point but so far have allowed for procrastination to ignore them. 

I hate when there’s no pending deadline or upset customer to motivate me into those tasks 

I’ll be out of my motivational clouds today too. It’s only Oct 12th. Maybe I’ll fix the main computer and get back to my usual rut. New rut is unsettling.